You're my sweet charade

and i dono what the song is.
so i cant put the lyrics in here.
its some really heavey sounding rock song though.
even if i tried i couldn't understand the words.
even i had teh wrods in front of me i couldn't figure out which were which.
stupid drugggiesss.
always slurring their words.
oh well.
i think druggies like to listen to druggies cuz it gives them an excuse to not understand whats being said.
i dono.. just a thought.

ARE YOU A DRUGGIE!?




ok,so, i was actualyl TOLD to update. haha. well no, actualy i guess it was "just a tiny suggestion." yeah, well, i'm smart, so i know what that means. that means "update right this second so i can read something interesting/" cuz we all know how interesteing everything i write about is.



well, whats new? i'm the happiest i've been all week. [smile] (again..i wish they had smiliys on this blog thing cu zi dont wanna have to type it out)


um.. yeah,


TOMORROW I AM SO EXCITED CUZ I AM GOING SHOPPING. [smile] YOU SEE, ME AND MISS CRISTINA TREVARROW ARE GOING TO THE MOVIES, AND WE'RE GOING SHOPPING. I WANNA GO TO BOTH MALLS [LIBERTY TREE AND NORTH SHORE.] WE'RE GONAN BE AT LIBERTY TREE ALREADY CUZ THATS WHERE WE'RE GOIN TO SEE THE MOVIE. AND THEN I WANNA CONVINCE MY MOM TO DRIVE US OVER TO THE OTHER ONE CUZ I HAVENT BEEN THERE IN AGES. and i mean ages. you see.. thats the expensive mall

Reasons Why I Dont Like Going To The North Shore Mall
-don't knwo my way around
-constently getting lost
-can't afford to shop in any of the stores
-become insanely jeleous seeing people walk around with giant bags full of stuff cuz i knwo they can afford it
-don't like being tempted to spend my hard-earned money


but ya know what? i am so willig to go there because i HAVE MONEY now. i've been saving for months. acutally i had a panic attack the other day cuz i only saw a $20 in wallet and i knew i had more than that. but then i rememebr that i hide money from myself in my wallet. haha yeah, i know, i'm a loser but deal with it, i am. its effective! i mean, would you spend your money if you only had a 20? or would there be a bigger chance of you spending money if you knew you had over 100? yeah... gotcha there....





so have you seen the movie coach carter? i ahvent.. and i think i saw the preview once or twice or something. but i heard it supposed to be good. yup yup. I AM PUMPEDDD.


so then later on i guess i might be going to the mall again? some time at the end of the week. with kris, some of his friends and some of my friends. i dono, it's not set in stone yet. plus i dono who im bringing! this should be interesting!




haha KRISTINA I HAVE TO TALK TO YOU. hahaha. its very important.

well..sorta. not to me, but to you. i guess. ah nvm just talk to me. hahaha actualyl i'll prob talk to you before you even read this. um, ok, yes so forget i just typed that whole bunch about nothing.





sorry everyone if this is a really bad entry but deal with it. haha. thats all i can say. i have had a very relaxing day and i had some time to myself to think about things. but after i was thinking i was losing my mind: not relaxing. actually.. by the end of the day i was pretty stressed out. i know you all prob dont care. but oh well. so, my remedy was to watch one of the best movies of all time. which one is it may you ask? SIX DAYS SEVEN NIGHTS. AWEEEESOME movie. absolutley awesome. PURE EXCELLENCE. yeah, enough synonyms. its a funyn romantic comedy. my sister saw it the first time when she was 8, so its not that bad at all. i think its PG13? i dono. theres jsut a lot swears in it. well actualyl not a lot. theres some though. yeah, but its SO GREAT. i mean like.. there are So many "oneliners" in it that i could jsut recite them alllll daaayyy longggg. and then wake up the next morning and recite them somemore.




omg i think this song is in spanish. see what i mean about not being albe to understand lyrics? i mean.. i swear this is in a whole differently language. and the guy won't screaming. ahh stupid radio. i have to change the channel before i get depressed. i dont like people yelling at me. or yelling at all. laughing i can take, .. yelling on teh other hand. no, not my thing. ok yeah.. def have to get up and change that. i swear hes sayig "tu eres" i forget what that means but oh well. haha.




... ok i fixed it. i dono what this is on right now. frankly i dont care. as long as there no spanish guy "singing" with an anger management problem.




ok, well im gonna jet.


with anticipation to spend her hard-earn cash, soend the day with cristina, sleep, and think about how fantastic her fantastic day was,

<3 rachey





p.s. OMG THERES A SPANISH SONG ON THIS RETARTED STATION TOO AHHHHHH. STUPID PEOPLE. i JUST WANT SOME PEACE. dont get me wrong, i mean like.. i have nothing against spanish people or the language, but i just got rid of having that class for an hour and half every day for a whole semester. i think i've had as much as i can take. ..eww.. theres like.. those wood drums things in it. what a weird song.

what you need; i hope it finds you


are you a clever boy?


gonna live forever boy?


maybe someday you'll get it right




>>an ode to maybe<<



i dont know why but recently i am just lvin' the third eye blind lyrics.
they're so ... i dont know. expressive? maybe thats the word i'm looking for.

I've never been so alone
And I've never been so alive
Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by
Cigarette ash flies in your eyes
And you don't mind
And you smile
And say the world doesn't fit with you
I don't believe you
You're so serene
Careening through the universe
Your axis on a tilt
Guiltless and free
I hope you take a piece of me with you.


ok, and now onto one of the most gorgeous songs in the entire world. tell me if you can figure out what its about.

Every fault that I repent

There's another chip you haven't spent

And you're cashing them all in

Where do we begin

To get clean again

Can we get clean again

I walk home alone with you

And the mood you're born into

Sometimes you led me in

And I take it on the chin

I can't get clean again

I want to know

Can we get clean again

The God of Wine comes crashing through the headlight of a car that

Took you farther than you thought you'd ever want to go

We can't get back again

You can't get back again

SHE TAKES A DRINK AND THEN SHE WAITS

THE ALCOHOL IT PERMEATS

AND SOON THE CELLS GIVE WAY

AND CANCELES OUT THE DAY

I can't keep it all together

AND THE SIRENS SONG THAT IS YOUR MADDNESS

HOLDS A TRUTH I CAN'T ERASE

ALL ALONE ON YOUR FACE

Every glamorous sunrise

Throws the planets out of line

The star sign out of whack

A fraudulent zodiac

And the God of Wine is crouched down in my room

You let me down

I said it

And now I'm goin' down

And you're not ever around

And I said “no…”

And i cant keep it all together

And there's a memory of a window

Looking through I see you

Searching for something I could never give you

And there's someone who understands you more than I do

A SADDNESS I CAN'T ERASE

ALL ALONE ON YOUR FACE.


>> that one is called God Of Wine. care to share your thoughts on what it may be about? i wan't to see if you pick up on the hints. i left specific things capitalized.






i have had such a wierd day. like. i dono, just wierd.
for instance i've felt soo terid all dayk, but soo full of energy cuz of everyone coming over. also, it was boring now that i think of it, we all hardly ever did anything, but then again the things we did do were great. also, there were a lot of awkward moments. i mean like.. just wierd uncomfortable ones. like say when you make a joke nad no one laughs. thas what i mean. where you feel all stupid and stuff. well, it really wasnt the circumstance of a joke. it just that same kind of feeling. i don't know what i mean. forget it. i'm tierd and i want to think about some things. and i am so going to try as hard as i possibly can to sleep late tomorrow. i have to talk to a couple people online, but they will just have to bear with me and save the convo for tomorrow afternoon.


lately i have had sooo much trouble getting to sleep it's insane. i've tried almost everything.
-counting sheep= didnt work cuz they jump too fast before i can count them.. i dont know why. like.. at all. but its too overwhelming
-tea= i stay up to have the taste still in my mouth cuz i like it so much
-reading= after i put the book down i can't stop thinking about it, and my mind is racing way too much to think about going to sleep
-warm milk= i don't like milk
-spray stuff= don't like the smell
-counting= i have an awful memory and can never remember what number i'm on, and after having to start over so many times, it's too frusterating

ANY ADVISE? FEEL FREE TO COMMENT.







i had a great day love,

<3 racheyy

we're no good for eachother
you tricked me into coming here
i don't want to go to london
i told you i dont care
i dont want to go to london
cuz youre not there


OK I KNOW I JUST UPDATED I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW. but you know whats reall yinteresting?? is that i made that other entry, because i wanted to put something in there that i saw in someone elses journal. and then GUESS WHAT: i totally. forgot. i have a REALLY small attentnion span and memory, so obviously its like me to forget. i mean like.. the whole reason of WRITING that entry was to put this thing in there. GOODNESS. i think i may very well be going insane. yup. im sure now.

so, now.. read this carefully:
1) COPY AND PASTE INTO A COMMENT OR INTO AN IM WINDOW (IM WONDOW= CONVERSATION WITH ME- lipgloss1011)
2) IF IM- DIRECT CONNECT
3) FILL OUT EVERY SINGLE ONE. I REPEAT: EVERY SINGLE ONE
4) SEND OR POST.


PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do this guys? i mean.. really...

What is my name:
Take a stab at my middle name:
What is my age?:
When is my birthday?:
What is my true hair color?:
What color eyes do I have?:
Am I tall, short, or average?:
Do I have glasses?:
How long have you known me?:
Where/how did we meet?:
When you first saw me, what was your impression?:
Do you remember the first thing you said to me?:
On a scale of 1-10, how well do you feel you know me?:
Do I have any siblings?:
Who do I like?:
Do you think I have ever been in love?:
Would you go out with me if I asked you?:
What is one of my favorite things to do?:
What's your funniest memory of me?:
What's my favorite type of music?:
What is my best feature?:
Do you look up or down on me... as a person?:
Am I a leader or a follower?:
Am I shy or outgoing?:
Can you picture me dancing?:
Can you picture me rolling?:
Would you say I am funny?:
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?:
Do I have any special talents?:
What is my greatest accomplishment:
Would you consider me a good friend?:
Have you ever seen me cry? When and why was I crying?:
What name fits me better than the one i have?:
Have I ever been there for you when no one else was?:
What is your favorite thing to do with me?:
Am I fun to be with?:
What was the last thing we did together?:
What age do I act?:
Am I smart/Do I act smart?:
Would you ever bring me on a vacation with you?:
What color best describes me? why?:
What is my favorite season?:


[smile] yup! thank you soooo much so so so so so so much.



much love,
rachey <3 .. again.


p.s. wow.. this is the most times i've ever updated in one day. 3. i guess it fits along withthe rest of the day considering today was the day when i spent the most time in the jacuzzi. yeah...

somewhere
back there
back to the place where..


>>im listening to third eye blind now!

i wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
you could cut ties with all the lies
that you've been liviing in
and if you do not want to see me again
i would understand



WELL EVERYONE I KNOW HAS GOT A REASON TO SAY
TO PUT THE PAST AWAY.




[smile] today was funn! people came over and we all hada blast, or so i'd like to think. erica had a friend over, cristina. well at first it was pretty boring, and everyone was laughing at me cuz i couldnt figure out how to use the cool new t.v. clicker. yeah, that was too bad. then we got demitra into teh living room who's like yoda and knows everything. thank goodnesss. demitra, where would we be withuot you!? sooo then i dono how but everyone ended up in my room and that was pretty funny. demitra started like, knocking everyone out with one of those long wrapping paper tubes i still had left in my room. yeah, i know, what a wierdo. smart but wierd. then we talked online sort of, and i switched my cd like.. 4928052 times cuz i couldnt find a good one to listen too.


afterwards we went downstairs and had some delicious pizza made by yours truley. [smile] i made one, demitra made one, erica made on, y mom made one, and paul-the-tile-guy made one. they came out soooo good. of course i put like, hardley any sauce on mine, so it was the best. soo cheeeesey. yum yum yumm. and then we went back upstairs and i dono what we did. it was kinda boring. but then at around 4 krissy came in and said they were planning on leaving in an hour. AN HOUR. what? what is this? maddness? so then i panicked cuz i anticipated them being here for a longer time cuz i wanted to like, watch a movie and go in the jacuzzi and stuff. we skipped the omvie and just went for the jacuzzi.


haha, the jacuzzi.
we were in it for prob about 30 minutes, but we were outside for an hour. yeah. cuz we all were running around in our bathing sutis having a snowball fight, raceing from the swingset and back, and makeing snow angels. haah that was sooooo much fun. i mean like..i had a blast. kris like, dove into the snow and ended up scratching his arm and such, yeah, that was kind of the reason why i didnt really want to dive into the snow.. haha.. i just went down the porch stairs. but yeah.. when we got in it it was about 105 degrees and tehn when we got out it was 99. haha. thats cuz of all the snow that got in it. shh! like, for teh first half of the time we were watchign erica, lookking up into her window, and saw her trying to put her picture between the window glass and the screen. i have NO IDEA why the heck she decided to do this. but, oh well, quite frankly, i dont care. then we wrapped up her broken arm in some plastic bags and joined us in the jacuzzi. us being demitra, kris, cristina, andrew, chandler and i. thats when the partaay started. well then after an hour we got out cuz krissy said they were leaving. but they actually left about 20 minutes after that. so we changed and stuff and then kris an di went upstairs follwed by andrew and chandler, and then cristina and demitra. and then they had to go. [frown] well, we might get everyone together again on friday. yes yes yes i hope so!!


and lets see what else? nothing i dont think. i had a great day all together. i didnt get to go running but oh well, tomorrow i'll run my butt off to make up for it. [smile] yup yup!


KUDOS TO YOU !



with love for third eye blind, hanging out during vacation, and eating her own wonderfully delicious pizza,

rachey <3

knows theres more than what you've heard
more than empty conversation
filled with empty words


I LOVE SWITCHFOOTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!! can i get a "hell yeah!"?

ok so, yesterday was sunday and as usuall i went with my dad. no, i realized how wierd it is for all the bank tellers. i know that sounds random, but here me out:
-we meet up with my ad in the parking lot of a bank
-i dont know why cuz its not like we ever have to go in the bank
-my dad pulls up, waits there and plays snake on his cell phone for about 10 minutes
-then my mom and i pull up in her tircked out station wagon. [tricked out.. yeah.. right..]
-i get out of one car, and get in another
-both cars drive off
no tell me, how wierd woul dit be to see that? i mean, if i were a bank teller and i saw a car pull in, i'd get pretty excited thinking that i'd have a customer. wrong. like.. we dont even go inside or anyhthing. what a bunch of wierdos. and this is a weekly thing too! so when they see my dad pull they probably wave everyone over and be like "ohh here goes those wierd people, they're at it again/" and they all watch out the window. we are entertainers!!! woot woot.


haha, i mean.. really! im prob gona change the meeting place cuz i feel realllyyy stupid.a nd its right next to the high way too, like.. its about 2 feet away. seriously. so i dono.. its just wierd, thats all.


well, yeah so anyway after we did our wierd switcheroo my dad and i went through the drive way at... you ready for this... BURGER KING. eww gross ah, eek. i dont like fast food really, cept for taco bell. thats it. i went a whole YEAR without eating at burger king or mcdonalds! so now i just feel ashamed. but ya know what? im just gonna have to deal with it. so i figured if i were going tehre anyway i might as well indulge.. make it worth it. hahah. so i was especially grossa nd got a whopper. i didnt know those things were so big and greasy and ghlhjljl. whatever. the french fries werent that bad. i like the really crunch y ones. eww, cant stand the soggy ones.. ew ew ew . ok, so then we drove home and listened to sports radio and were laughign at all teh losers who called in and complained about all the changes teh red soxs made during the off season. it was pretty funny. theres like.. those daily callers and the radio peopel are like "oh, heres AL calling again from glouster, as if we havent heard enough" and then AL comes on sounding all drunk. hes a yankee man, red sox hater. and hes like "IN YO FACE ALL YOU BOSTONIANS" interestingly enough im not from boston, but oh well. and then AL's all like "YOU GUYS ARENT READY FO WATS COMEIN YO WAY" hahaha . it was so great. i havent laughed like that in a while.



so we went back to his house and ate our nice [disgustiing] lunch and turned on the daytona 500. i listened to my dad explain stuff about all 43 drivers which tooka REALLY long time and i was like "hmm.. yeah.. ok dad.. thats nice and interesting.. i mean like.. since i'm wicked wicked into this stuff i'll be patent and make it look like im listeing to you, cuz i dont want to make you feel bad" i dont like the beginnings of car races all that much. i loooove to watch the ends, the last like.. 50 laps or so. but then my nana and papa came and saved me. [smile] we changed the channel to some show about killer whales. it was actually a movie i think. some old guy was like.. the only one who didnt care about it and for some reason everyone wanted him to kill it. i dono, we missed the beginning so it was insanelyyyy confusing. yeah and then after that ended we watched something else.


of course it was an alfred hitchcock film. i mean.. when my dad picks out the movie is ever NOT something by that guy? it was called ROPE and was about these two college guys who commit what they think is the perfect murder. its actually pretty funny. i dono if it was supposed to be scary or something, but i doubt it cuz it wasnt very effective. they actually invite the guy that they killed's PARENTS over for dinner, and then like.. i dono random people show up and they end up having dinner ontop of this big trunk thing witha table cloth. well, the dead guy is actually in the trunk hahaha. iwerd huh? some of the random people who come end up buying these books that they had for sale and one fot he murderers ties the books up with the same rope they used to strangel the guy. hahahaha very imaginative. so one guy, the more uman one is really worried and is like"this is so wrong, we cant be doing this to everyone" cuz its like.. right uner thier noses and they havent a CLUE what happened. and the other guy is like "what are you talking about, they dont suspect a thing" EH WRONG. so anyway some guy ends up finding out and it ends really dramatically. its good. so i think i've watched at least half of the hitchcock movies. yup. i do think so. what'll it be next week!?




oh yeah and i read just about every single article in the boston globe cuz i was sooooo bored. yeah. but oh well. it was interesting


GUESS WHATTTTTTTT I WENT BOWLING YESTERDAY. ye-ah thats what im talking about. i went with my daddy, my nana my papa, and my aunt. it was funn i got 71 the first time and 64 the second time. im actually like.. so increbily proud of myself considering that was teh first time i've bowled in about 2 years AND it was the first time i didnt use bumpers. [smile] !!!


then my dad dropped me off and i did nothing for a while. i ran for a half hour though! i had to, cuz i hadn't run in a while and cuz i ate at burger king and elt REALLY gross. then demitra and i did our usual 200 situps cuz we're wrokin on our six packs. we do them eery single night! and im am probably the the most proud person on the world of demitra. she complains like heckkk but actualyl does it. KUDOS TO YOU!



i love that word : KUDOS. haha.

so i woke up at seven day, yup that was the same old same old. i hate being amorning person. blahh like i wiiiicked hate it.
i made some of those like.. bracelt and anklet things out of string cuz i was so bored. 4 actually.. well.. ok 2 complete ones and then i start another one and got tierd of that so i started another one and im still working on it. yeah, its that whole long term stuff i cant stand. i cant even finish making a braclet i get so bored. oh well. kudos to everyone who puts up with this maddness






um yeah, so lets see... the burnhams are coming over today! that would be kris, andrew, chandler, adn krissy. OH AND THAT REMINDS ME ... "HAPPY PRESIDENTS DAY EVERYONE" and "HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE- KAYLA" [smile] WICKED PUMPED FOR VACATION.


yup.. my kayla... shes gorinw up sooo fast! 15 years already! gosh! i wish she could actually read this haha but she doesnt even have internet oh well. kayla, this whole entry is devoted to you ok? even thuogh i talk about radom stuff that doesnt even concern you a majority of the time. but , ya know. i love you kayla lyn callahan! thank for everything and you know i am RIGHT HERE for you.




yup, we're tight. ok so, yeah.. i better keep working on those bracelts or they'll never get done. talk to you later on!


with proudness for demitra and kayla, anticipation for the rest of the day, and the want to NOT finish what shes working on,

RACH MILLER

or cry but it takes someone
special to make you smile
when you have tears in your eyes♥

^^ i totally love that.. like.. i really really do.. really. ok so, yesm, that goes out to everyone who has ever made me feel ike i was on top of world. which is basically everyone at one time or another. [smile] i really wish they had simly faces on this site so i didnt have to say "[smile]" ya know whta i mean? i dono, maybe thats asking too much. oh well.

so today is sunday. and i am PUMPED. i am definetally looking foward to a relxing stress free week, which i havent had in a couple of months. since christmas to be exact. but actually, that was really stressful considering i had to wrap every single present anyone got someone. that was unfortunate. oh well.

i had pancakes this morning, they were all right i guess. im really not a pancake person though. the eggs were ok too i guess. i dono. oh yeah, so we're re doing our upstairs bathroom right? well theres no floor, i mean.. really.. its just like, that plywood stuff erseing on beams and you can get like.. splinters and stuff. ouch. well, we have one of those stand up showers in the downstarirs bathroom but the water is FREEZING. so didnt to take one. it was stuuupid. the shower and stuff still works upstairs but my mom didnt want me to take one, shes like "just use teh bath thing" so i like, leaned over the tub and washed my hair like that. blah. i got the floor all wet, so now all that plywood is all dark brown. haha. oopsy.

well, so i was looking at other peopsl xanagas and such and found one of those things you fill out? like.. just off the top of your head and stuff, so, yeah i copied and pasted. here you go!

[a flower] rose
[a fruit] apple
[a vegetable] tomato
[a spice] cinnamon
[a color] red
[a bug] ladybug

Short Answer
[are you left handed or right handed?] both
[are you smart?} i think so... usually
[whats your middle name?] elise
[how many personalities do you have?] i've lost track. hah. um, one im pretty sure.
[do you like v-8?] no
[what was your first word?] money
[are you superstitious?] nope
[do you read your horoscope?] when i'm bored
[do you believe in that stuff?] not usually
[can you do a cartwheel?] yes
[can you drive?] technically: yes legally: no
[what do you drive?] i want to drive a nissan xterra or a new ford thunderbird
[do you snore?] no
[do you drool in your sleep?] haha sometimes
[do you lick your envelopes or use a sponge?] i ask someone else to lick it cuz im too lazy to get a sponge, and don't liek the taste of it
[do you keep a journal?] yes
[what languages do you know?] english, pig latin, some greek, spanish
[what's the best awards show?] don't watch any
[do you like onions?] no
[do you like cotton candy?] not all that much
[do you like Pina coladas?] not really
[what instruments can you play?] guitar, violin, clarinet, recorder [obviously], keyboard
[what word do you overuse?] omg
[what do you sleep in?] tank top and t-shirt
[whats your bedtime?] 11ish
[how many pillows do you have?] 2
[do you like to sing?] yes
[are you any good at it?] you tell me
[how many cds do you have?] about 80
[do you like to talk on the phone?] sometimes
[how many times have you moved houses?] lost count, at least 6
[what do you think of chain letters?] funny
[do you like where you live?] town: yes. house location: nope
[is your room messy?] worse than a pig sty
[how many people go to your school?] um.. 600?
[do you like your writing?] sometimes
[what do you smell like?] hawiian ginger [i love that stuff]
[are you organized?] not at all
[what do you put on hotdogs and hamburgers] ketchup, mayo, or relish
[do you sleep with a stuffed animal?] no
[do you sleep with socks on?] sometimes
[are you ticklish?] yes
[are you shy?] not really
[do you talk to yourself?] all the time
[is your house 1, 2, or 3 stories?] 2
[do you have a basement or an attic?] both
[what flavor fluoride do you get at the dentist?] mint or bubblegum
[did you go to preschool?] 2 different ones
[are you a morning person?] yeah
[whats your favorite outfit?] Jeans and a t-shirt or sweatshirt
[do you have a friend that you wish wasn't?] no
[do you believe in ghosts?] i try not too
[do you believe in bigfoot?] no
[whats your favorite feature (on yourself)] my eyes
[what do you do when you're nervous?] get heachaches
[what celebrities do you look like?] i don't pay attention to them
[do you like classical music?] not really
[how old do you wish you were?] 18
[what will you name your daughter?] i dont know.. chevon?
[son?] benjamin? i dont have a clue
[have you ever gone skinny dipping?] no
[have you ever thought you were gonna die?] yes
[where's the farthest place you ever traveled?] florida, or california
[where do you wanna go?] hawaii, or greece
[what is the best advice you've ever been given?] "don't worry about it"



yup and thats all folks! ok well i really must be going to get ready to hang out with my daddy. so, i'll check in later on!



love you all
RACH

satisfaction gaurenteed
because i'm thinking
about a brand new hope
the one i've never known
cuz now i know
it's all that i wanted.

green day. [smile] that songs actually called "macy's day parade"... wierd huh? strange how the title doesnt really match the lyrics. as they say.. never judge a book by its cover. in this case, never judge a song by it's titel. ok, so, thats you lesson for the day.



ya know whats probably one of the most aggravating things in the entire world? when i click my space bar, it squeaks. yup. so every time i go to write a sentance, its like "SQUEAK SQUEAK SQUEAK SQUEAAAAKKKK!" yup.. thats definetaly one of the most aggravating things in the entire world. theres others, but i dont feel like explaining them.



ok, so i am reading a wicked wicked great book righ tnow. i mean, i love how its written. the main cahracter is so like.. i don't know.. "frank" with his sentances, but he said something the other day when i was reading that was actually pretty interesting. now, if i could only find the page and the paragraph, then i'll share it with you!

ok i found it:
"In the bus on the way to school next morning we passed 4 red cars in a row, which meant that it was a good day.
Mr.Jeavons, the psychologist at the school, once asked me why 4 red cars in a row made it a good day, and 3 red cars in a row made it a quite good day, and 5 red cars in a row made it a super good day, and why 4 yellow cars in a row made it a black day, which is a day when i don't speak to anyone and sit on my own reading books and don't eat my lunch and take no risks.He said that i was clearly a very logical person, so he was suprised that i should think like this because it wasn't very logical.
.....
I said that i wasn't clever. I was just noticing how things were, and that wasn't clever. That was just being observant. Being clever was when you look at how things were and used the evidence to work out something new. Like the universe expanding, or who commited murder. Or if you see someones name and you give each letter a value from 1-26 (a=1, b=2, c=3...) and you add the numberes up in your head and you find out that it makes a prime number, like Jesus Christ (151), or Scooby-Doo (113) or Sherlock Holmes (163), or Doctor Watson (167).
Mr.Jeavons asked me wether this made me feel safe, having things in a nice order, and i said it did.
Then he asked if i didn't like things changing. And i said i wouldn't mind thing's changing if I became an astronaut, for example, which is one of the biggest changes you can imagine, aside from being a girl, or dying."

>>BOOK: the curious incident of the dog in the night-time.
>>AUTHOR: mark haddon.
notice there no capitals in the title= thats for a reason- there just isn't.

ok, some backround information, the kid is 15. yup. and thats how he thinks. he has like.. some disorder or something and i pretty sure its dislexia. thats my assumption anyway. i'm assuming this because of the back of the book. it says "Christopher John Francis Boone knows all the countries of the world and their capitals and every prime number up to 7,057. He relates well with animals because he has no understanding of human emotions. He cannot stand to be touched. And he detests the color yellow."


anyway, its just a nice book. its really interesting how he says like.. short sentances, or really lok ones. i dono. im analyzing too much, i know i know.


i just have nothing to do and i really wan tot go shopping. like wicked wicked bad. theres a store i wanan go to and my mom said she'll take me but for sooome reason we havent gone yet. and i asked her at like.. 9 this morning. ITS 3:49 FOR GOODNESS SAKE.


ok , so, i went to rockport and hung out with some of the coolest people around. me, demitra, adn erica went to kris', andrew and chandlers house which was really fun. we watched some movie. i forget what its called. something thats like "wild.. something.. hearts.. something.. fly" i dont know. thats probably not even right at all. it was good though. i enjoyed it. other than the fact that like... i was too busying thinking about stuff that i didnt know what was going on. oh well. it was about a girl who ran away and joined some like.. traveling horse thing.. like.. horse show or something. and it was about how she really wanted to be a horse diver. which is probably the most random sport i have ever heard of in my life. where she has to jump onto a horse, and then the horse runs off this plank thing thats like.. WICKED FAR off the ground and jumps into a big thing of water. i dont know. yeah , i thought it was wierd too, but i guess that was "the thing to do" inthe 1930's (which by the way is when the story takes place). yeah but she ends up falling love with a guy thats like.. 10 years older than her (shes about 12 or 13) lol. and then the day they get engaged she goes blind. but then after being shunned by like.. everyone she is able to continue on with the career and goes on doing that for like.. 11 years or so. it was pretty cool. based on a true story too. yup yup. and ohyeah we played pool. i love pool. im bad, but i still think its a wicked lot of fun. i LOVE it. i wish i had a pool table. they have one. i wonder if i could like.. go and stael next tiem i go over. yeah.. thast the plan. WHO's WITH ME? hhaha. you know i wouldnt do that guys, goodness.

yeah so i was just telling someone the other day how my mom pronounces the word "gracias" (spanish for thank you) as "grassy ass" hahahah. how wierd? gosh mom.. what an embarassment.



blahblahblah i dont reall yknow what else to say cept hmm.. well i dont know.





yeah, so i've basically been melting. no its not because its been so warm out lately but its because.. well. ya ever have someone say something to you that just like.. its soooo sweet or sooo unexpected and like.. everything you you just.. you have to be like "wow that was probably one of the most flattering, sweetest, everything, i have ever heard in my entire life"? well.. yeah, thats melting. it's what you do when you hear it. so, yeah, i melted. [huge smile]


so, i have to go cuz i want to talk to people online and this is keeping me from that. yep. so. here i go!



WITH THE LOVE FOR MELTING, GREEN DAY, VACATION, AND EVERYTHING ELSE,
>>>rachyy

YEAH YEAH YEAH


>> that was my song i just made up off the top of my head. [very cool].

so anyway, i doooo love thursdays. why might you ask? well, because you see, we get out of school early, and i looove getting out of school early. because, then i fee like i have more time. and love having time, cuz if idont then is stresses me out to the point of insanity. yeah: not good. so, i feel ike i can relax a bit and take my time. PLUS IT iS GORGEOUS outside. like.. absolutley BEAUTIFUL. i cant wait tilll spring! omg i just so cant wait. at all. like.. im a dieing. (is that how you spell "die" in present tense? is it dieing or dying? ... anyway,) i hate the cold weather.. like.. i dislike it very much so, with passion. ok so anyway i loove the springtime cuz its like.. its sooo refreshing and everything. and it just screams out "WAKE UP!" a new beginning sort of? i dont mean to get like.. all mushy or wierd or anything but it really does. its like "open up your damn eyes, you've had them closed all winter long."


plus.. with spring comes outdoor track and softball season!! MUCH FUN. I LOVE track. i LOVE softball. i mean like.. this is by far the highlight of my year. and the fact that we had a meeting the other day after school made it all the more .. "real," like, it really is spring and its time to start a new sport. luckily since i ran indoor track i dont have to pay the 150 or something dollars, cuz i mean.. as it is, that is a RIDICULUSLY high amount. i mean.. REALLY. goshh. i hope we get like.. pants this season, cuz i got a jacket from indoor (WHICH I AM IN LOVE WITH AND AM PLANNING ON WEARING TOMORROW) and i mean, yeah it'd be nice to have another, but i already have a "track jacket" and having two would only make my morning decisions worse, and more complicated. "the outdoor sweatshirt or the indoor sweatshirt" and nobody wants to have to choose between something like that. NObody. so, yes, i hope we get pants. nice big ones that you can wear over a pair of shorts, not too heavy cuz that'd just make you hot, but like.. not too light either so you could wear them as normal pants too. ya know what i mean? wow.. that was like.. a wicked long paragraph considering im only talking about pants. yeah.. anyway..


IM WICKED PYSCHED (is that how you spell it?) cuz i got a 99 on my BIO test. i mean like.. you have noooo idea how difficult is it for me to process stupid vocab and stuff cuz my memory is abut THIS big. (small) and yeah, so.. i'm excited!


we finished watching that abuse movie in child development today! i LOVEDDD it. i mean .. im all into that stuff, i dont know why but its just like.. interesting. it stars the boy as wonder years and the older sister from full house. its wierd too see such an innocent boy abusing (and then murdering)_ someone. we know that kid as being wicked nice and not violent but here he is like.. beating her up and everything. YA KNOW WHAT I FOUND OUT? the girl.. the one from full house.. well, she was/is BELIMIC. can you believe it? she used to pile on her clothes so no one could tell. its wierd... i wonder what made her do that. in this movie, i dont know when it was filmed and stuff, shes not skinny, shes actually sort of big, but not like.. WICKED big, ya know? and by the end of the movie shes a regular size. its just wierd. i wonder if she became belimic before or after the movie. or maybe DURING it. hmm..ya never know. thats sad though, i mean.. really sad. i feel wiiiicked bad for all those people who like.. have trouble with their appearence or health or something. its just too bad!


but anyway.. hmm what else went good today? hmm, we had TADA! thursday is tada day. that was neat, i guess last week (when i wasnt there) we all split up into groups, COMMITTEESE they're called. OO BIG WORD. it sounds soo professional doesn't it? i love it! well, i'm on the fund raising committee. its preeeety neat. t-do's the only guy in the group, too bad for him, i say he goes and finds another group cuz like.. he didnt really put any input into the stuff at ALL today. that was dissapointing. im with my be, hil, and anna too. i had to stand up in front of everyone and like, read these answers and stuff we wrote down on a paper, that was handed out to basically tell people what we do, what our goals are, how we want to accomplish them.. all that jazz. and it was pretty intereesting that all of our answers were the same. they were like "we are meant to raise money for the group, other programs, and our communities" and then "what we want to do is raise money through fund raisers to benifit us, and surronding programs" and "we want to come up with a list of fund raisers and carry them out in order to reach our goal of being able to do fun things" i was like "wow i shuold have just said that we were going to raise money for everything, and that that was the answer to all the questions" well. After every group went they had to tell a joke, and that was pretty funny. OF COURSE someone had to do the ping-pong one. if you havent heard it jsut tell me and then i'll say it, i dont wanna ruin it for ya by saying it right here when you could just skip to the end and find out what the point is. even though this particular one HAS no point. like.. it really doesnt. we said one that was like "what goes 'tick tock woof bark'" and then you have to figure it out! TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK THE ANSWER IS! another, which ben made up, (obviously) was somethign that had to do with how many blueberrys were in a hotdog in the wintertime.. and it was just some radon number. i didnt get it at all. oh well. and then someone asked why seven ate nine. which was obvious. and then sam tom said one that was pretty funny, which was "two muffins were in an oven, and one muffin said to the other 'wow its getting really hot in here, i wonder why' and the other muffin turned to him and said 'ahh a talking muffin.' yeah.. i dono.. i dont really get it, but it was just one of those "what the hell??" kind of ones and you had to laugh at how stupid and corny is was. i would have told a funny dumb blonde one but that'd be offensive and i didnt want to hurt anyones feelings. it was about a blonde who had two horses, and she couldnt tell them apart. just ask me if you want to hear it.


I AM DOING ALL OF MY LAUNDRY TODAY. YES. i hate doing laundry, thats why i'm glad i'm getting it over with today. as you already know, i love thursdays cuz it makes me feel like i have more time and i can get more things accomplished .. LIKE DOING MY LAUNDRY!







well.. i have some homework to do, so i'll leave you too your peace and quiet.

with her washing machine running and washing her clothes, and the memory of hearing corny jokes at tada today,

miss rach


p.s. which reminds me of a store called miss moxie, which i WICKED want to go to. mayb ei'll convince my mom to bring me there tonight: considering i have more time on my hands!!!!!!!! [smile]

his ashes were scattered across the ocean
the water was used to make baby lotion
the wheels of promotion were set into motion
*but the sun still shines in the summertime
i'll be yours if you be mine
i tried to change but i changed my mind
i think i'll have another glass of mexican
she lived alone in a small apartment
across the street from teh health department
she left her pills in the glove compantment
that was the afternoon her heart went
*and the sun still shines in the summertime
i'll be yours if youll be mine
i tried to change but i changed my mind
i think i'lll have another glass of mexican wine
i used to fly for united airlines
then i got fired for reading high times
my license expired in almost no time
now i'm retierd and i think thats fine
*because the sun still shines in the summertime
i'll be yours if youll be mine
i tried to change but i changed my mind
i think i'll have another glass of mexican wine
WONT YOU HAVE ANOTHER GLASS OF MEXICAN WINE?

>>>> love that song DEARLY.


ok, so im such a copycat and im fine with it, i decided to do another one of fthese things: cuz they are just SO much fun, and plus, i'm bored and dont want to start my homework. ok.. so:


+Known as: RACHEL
+ Birthday: SEPTEMBER 28
+ School: IPSWICH HIGH
+ Shoe size: 6 1/2 OR 7
+ Hair color: DIRRRTY BLONDE
+ Eye color: BROWN
+ Style: NOTHING IN PARTICULAR


* section 2 - HAVE YOU EVER... *
+ Cheated on someone?: NO
+ Been Cheated on?: YES
+ Fallen off the bed?: YES, AND ENDED UP BREAKING MY ARM HAHA
+ Broken someone’s heart?: I DON'T KNOW
+ Had your heart broken?: ONCE
+ Had a dream come true?: YES
+ Done something you regret?: ALL THE TIME
+ Cheated on a test?: ONCE I THINK


* section 3 - CURRENTLY *
+ Wearing?: PLAID PURPLE PJ BOTTOMS, AND GREY SWEATSHIRT
+ Listening to?: COUNTING CROWS
+ Located?: MY BEDROOM
+ Chatting with?: NO ONE, I'M ON AN AWAY
+ Watching?: PEOPLE SIGN ON AND OFF ON MY BUDDY LIST CUZ I HAVE NO LIFE
+ Should REALLY be doing?: HOMEWORK, DUH


* section 4 - DO YOU... *
+ Brush your teeth?: DUH
+ Have any piercings?: YUP, TWO ON EACH EAR
+ Drive?: IN 224 DAYS THAT WILL BE A YES
+ Drink? NEVER
+ Smoke?: NEVER
+ Got a cell?: YEAH, BUT NO ONE EVER CALLS ME ON IT, SO WHATS THE POINT?


* section 6 - PERSONAL *
+ What do you want to be when you grow up?: EVERYTHING FROM AN AUTHOR, TO A DANCER, TO AN ARCHITECT, TO AN ARCHEOLOGIST, TO A CELEBRITY
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?: YES TO THE "CRUSH" THING
+ What are you most scared of?: LOSING SOMEONE, DIEING, BEING COMPARED TO DIRT
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed?: THE HIGHLIGHTS AND LOW LIGHTS OF MY DAY, HOW IT WENT AS A WHOLE, WHAT I COULD HAVE HAPPENED DIFFERENTLY
+ Did you lose someone you really loved?: YES
+ How many times have you fallen in love?: NEVER (CEPT WITH LIKE.. MY MOM, BUT THATS A GIVEN)
+ Love your family?: MOST OF THE TIME
+ Love your friends?: WITH ALL MY HEART


* section 7 - FAVORITES *
+ Movie: TOO MANY TO NAME, BASICALLY EVERY MOVIE EVER PRODUCED
+ Song:  TOO MANY TO NAME, BASICALLY EVERY SONG EVER RECORDED (EXCLUDING MOST R&B, RAP, AND HIP HOP SONGS)
+ Store: TJ MAXX (DUH)
+ Relative: HMM.. COUSIN ANGELA
+ Sport: BASEBALL, IS DANCE A SPORT? CUZ THAT'D BE IT
+ Fruit: MACINTOSH APPLES
+ Candy: BULLSEYES AND REESES (NOT TOGETHER)
Day of the week: WEDNESDAY?
+ Time: 2:06
+ Name for a Girl: CHEVON
+ Name for a Boy: HMMM... DON'T KNOW, JACOB MAYBE


* section 8 - DO YOU *
+ Like to give hugs?: YUP
+ Like to give kisses?: YUP
+ Like to walk in the rain?: ONLY IF 1. I'M WITH ANOTHER PERSON AND 2. ITS NOT A THUNDERSTORM
+ Prefer black or blue pens?: BLACK
+ Like to travel?: DEPENDS WHERE AND WITH WHO
+ Sleep on your side?: YES
+ Have a goldfish?: NOT ANYMORE.. I USED TO HAVE SOME IN LIKE.. 3RD GRADE
+ Ever have the falling dream?: ALL TEH TIME
+ Have stuffed animals?: A COLLECTION, BUT I DONT SLEEP WITH THEM OR ANYTHING, THEY JUST LIKE, SIT ON MY SHELF AND STARE AT ME


* section 9 - WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT... *
+ Abortion: I THINK IF ITS NECESARRY THEN YES, GO FOR IT
+ Suicide: SAD
+ Smoking: GROSS
+ Eating disorders: UNFORTUNATE
+ Summer: FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEARRR
+ Tattoos: DON'T KNOW, I THINK THEY'RE COOL LOOKING
+ Piercings: GUYS= NOT SO MUCH, BUT GIRLS CAN HAVE THEM AND HAVE IT NOT LOOK WIERD


* section 10 - THIS OR THAT *
+ Pierced nose or tongue?: UMM, NOSE I GUESS IF I HAD TO CHOSE
+ Sugar or salt?: OH GOSH I DONT KNOW... UM.. SALT
+ Silver or gold?: GOLD
+ Color or Black+white?: BLACK
+ M&Ms or Skittles?: M&MS
+ Stay up late or sleep in?: STAY UP LATE 
+ Hot or cold?: HOT
+ Mustard or ketchup?: THEY'RE BOTH GROSS
+ Wonder or amazement?: AMAZEMENT
+ Mexican or Italian: MEXICAN
+ Candy or Soda?: CANDY





[smile] that was cool. ok, gotta go ask my mom something. bye now!


rach

gently down the stream
merrily merrily merry merrily
lifes a ________ dream.ques



what goes in the blank? i honestly don't know and feel REALLY stupid having to ask that question. i don't even remembed all the lyrics to a four line nursery rhyme, how the HECK do all my teachers expect me to memorize theorys and grammer and vocab?? tell me that why don't ya!


ok, so, someone is being really annoying and won't give me a picture of them, as much as i'd like one. they know who they are. and they're saying, FRIDAY FRIDAY I'LL GIVE YOU ONE. but its like one of those "i want it NOW though" kind of things. oh well. i'll use my skills and get it sooner.






i dont knwo why i decided to update. i saw something and was like, WAIT A MINUTE I HAVE TO UPDATE AND PUT THAT IN THERE. but now i forget.

oh well.


hum de hum de hum. i'm soo bored and wiiicked dont want ot start my homework. i wanted to be in bed and ready to go to sleep (having done all my homework already) at nine o clock on the dot and its 8:58 right now. HECK YES IM GOOD.

I REMEMBER NOW. ok so i was looking in someones info and it says "copy and paste this into your info if you think it'd be fun to make out with poprocks in your mouth." HAHAHAHAHA LMFAO

yes, actually i do think it'd be fun to make-out with poprocks in your mouth. lol. wierd, and probably really unique, but yeah i guess that'd be fun. then, if anyone ever asks "have you ever made out with poprocks in your mouth?" i will be able to proudly and honestly say "why yes i have." i dono what the other person would think though.









i mean honestly, guys, you have to tell me the truth, do you or do you not think that it would be fun????? to make out with a girl with pop rocks in your mouth.
tell me please, just out of curiosity.











okey dokey. now that thats cleared up. anyway, i think i better go now to do my homeworkkk!!!




with the anticipation to make out with someone with poprocks in my mouth {HAHAHAH } and the NEED to do my homework and get a good nights sleep,

>>RACH.

loved by some, fearedby others
she's immortalized in mens eyes
lust she breeds in the eyes of brothers
violent sons make bitter mothers
so close your eyes, heres your suprise
beautiful is empty
beautiful is free
beautiful loves no one
beautisul stripped me
In your mind she's your companion
Vile instincts often candid
Your regret is all that's left
She told me where I'm going
And it's far away from home
I think I'll go there on my own


^^ lovethatsongdearly! thank you creed.

that is just one of those songs that makes you think. now, icould go off on one of those reallylong tangents but i've decided not to do that cuz i'm at school and i can't really focus in on the topic without being distracted.


KRISTINA IS HERE NEXT TO ME DOING HER BLOG TOO. yippie!!!! CUZ WE'RE WIIIICKED COOL.

OK, SO PARDON MY LACK OF SPACE IN THE FOLLOWING PARAGRAPHS JUST IN CASE I DONT PRESS THE SPACE BAR CUZ ITS THE MOST ANNOYING THING IN THE ENTIREWORLD. YOU SEE.. FOR SOME REASON OUR SCHOOL HAS MESSED UP FRICKEN COMPUTORS THAT DONT HAVE A REGULAR SPACE BAR. ITS SUCH A PAIN IN THE NECK TO PRESS DOWN, AND WHEN YOU DO IT'S THIS HUGE CLUNKINGSOUND THAT ECHOES THROUGHOUT THE LIBRARY AND OF CROUSE EVERYONE TURNS THEIR HEADS ANDWANTS TO SEE WHO THE FREAK IS THATS BEATING UP THE KEYBOARD. YUP YUP.



I WATCHED ONE OF THE GREATEST MOVIES IN THE ENTIRE WORLD LAST NIGHT. JOISE AND THE PUSSYCATS. VOO-IL-A! [OR AS BOOG SAYS; VI-O-LET"] HAHAHHA. ANYWAY.




IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GO TO THE DOWNSTIARS LEVEL OF THIS CRAPPY SCHOOL THAT HAS GUMSTUCK UNDER ALL THE TABLES (I KNOW BECAUSE I EVERYDAY I SEE ANOTHER COLOR) AND I DONT KNOW WHY THE JANITORS DONT CLEAN IT UP CUZ ITS PROBABLYONEOF THE GROSSEST THINGSIN THE WORLD. BUT ANYWAY.. MOREON THE TOPIC,I HAVE TO GO.


MY DADDY SHOULD BE HERE IN APPROX 6 MINUTES! YES... TIME TO GO OUT FOR DINNER!

OK SO, I MAY BE A BAD PERSON BUT I DIDN'T GET ANYONE ANYTHING FOR VALENTINES DAY, SO OBVIOUSLY NO ONE GOT ME ANYTHING. OH WELL. I DONT REALLY CARE. NEXT YEAR! NEXY YEAR FOR SURE.



i never got to ask you if you'd be my valentine...
and you have no idea that i was going ot ask you. oh well.




with the need to go right-this-second, and anticipation for a lovley dinner with her father,

miss rachel e m

^ thats actually the title of a poem i was reading a couple minutes ago. now of course, me being the curious one, i clicked on it to see if it really was a short discussion about nothing. wow, i think they should change the title. of course from my view is was about nothing. it was about like.. some ancient roman or greek gods, and then got onto the topic of jupiter somehow. i dono, mayhe thats a god too. i cant remember back to seventh grade when we learned all this stuff. oh well.

this may very well end up being a short discussion about nothing; we'll see.

so today i took a history test. it wasn't too bad, i did really well on the essay i think (and hope) which totally makes up for the fact that i know i bombed the short answer things. haha i got the definition of renassance confused with enlightenment. i dont know how the heck i managed to do that, but i know i definetally did. i was so surre of it too. oh well. everyone, just to let you know, enlightenment is NOT a time period where the culture rises, people are'nt sick with a disease, and when wealthy people pay painters to do thier thing. i repeat that is NOT what enlightenment really is. (you need to know that for simms' test). we also took another test on the thirteen colonies. i aced that one. i know for sure.. even though origionally i filled MAINE in with M A I N E even though its supposed to be M A S S. i fixed it though just as i was turning it in. ya know how we had to do an essay? well i did mine... 6 pages. woot woot. no wonder my arm hurts. i had to sharpen my pencil like ten thousand times cuz the tip kept breaking. stupid thing.





oh yeah! SO, I WENT SKIING OVER THE WEEKEND!!! WE LEFT LAST THURSDAY AND CAME BACK YESTERDAY EVENING (haha i love using the word "evening".. it makes everything sound so professional) but anyway... WE WENT UP TO somewhere in VERMONT, AND WENT SKIING AND SNOWBOARDING AT someplace which i think was called MOUNT SNOW. ERICA decided to go and get hurt, in other words, she BROKE HER ARM. that was on FRIDAY when ERICA AND HER FRIEND CRISTINA WENT SNOWBOARDING AND TOOK A wicked wicked wicked short LESSON. IT WOULD HAVE BEEN a lot LONGER, BUT ERICA just HAD TO GO TO THE stupid FIRST AID BUILDING which was all the way across the mountian and was indeed a wicked long walk in ski boots. <<< notice if you only read the capitals, then it just gives a summary, so if you don't want to read the whole thing, just read the caps and skip over the little stuff. haha, i'm just so creative. ok well, i'm not going ot continue writing that way just to let you know cuz its wicked complicated and time consuming, so now you prob wont even see any caps. anyway... tehn on saturday we just lounged around the inn we were staying at (the horizon inn) which was pretty cool. dan went skiing still.. but we got to stay. the guy open up the game room early for us, and we played pool and ping pong and air hockey and pin ball for about 6 hours all day. that was wiicked cool considering these three wiiiicked hot guys were there too. [wink wink]. yeah, that was pretty neat. they were having ping pong match thing and i dono how it happened but they decided to take thier shirts off. hahaah that was wiicked funyn cuz the other guy at the other end of the table would like, pelt the ball at them. hahaa and then they started whipping eachother with rat tails. wich was absolutley HILARIOUS.. i mean like.. wet-your-pants-cuz-you're-laughing-so-hard kind of hilarious. especially when one of them got the othe rin the umm.. well.. [ahem] the sweet spot. i dont have to spell it out for ya, i thin you know what i mean. so, while that kid was lying down on the ground and like, swearing, we were just standing by and laughing our asses off. i mean like... it was wiiicked fun. so, anyway, after i kicked everyones butt at air hockey (ONE OF MY FAVORITE GAMES IN THE ENTIRE WOROLD) i wen tupstairs into the lobby area where there was a nice comfy couch, and layed down there for a while reading my harry potter boook. the next day i tried snowboaring, fell about 3 times, i mean like.. it was a good fall. like, a couple of those falls where you're lying there and think to yourself that you're never going to ever get up again and be able to walk cuz your butt hurts soo bad. yeah, those kind. haha. so then we drove home. anyway. yeah. that was that.


well i have four night of fricken homework to do and im STRESSING OUT ABOUT IT. stupid homework assigners>> that would be the teachers. oh well. i know it was coming. i KNEW that i'd have alot of make up work to do. oh well, i'm this close [holds thumb and index finger about a centimeter apart] to failing bio. suprise. i hate science. blah, it the wost thing ever invented on the whole planet.


ITS VALENTINES DAY AND I'M EXCITED! i didn't have anyone ask me if i would be their valentine though. that was pretty discouraging. oh well. maybe next year i'll either have a bf who'll get me some flowers, or bring money and buy some flowers for myself so i can get the deliverd to me. hahahha. no, i'm not that desperate. kati is though. shes away on vaca and couldn't even recieve the flower she sent herself. hahaha sucha silly girl. we all love her though.



but yeah. will you be mine, my valentine? cuz i don't have one. [smile, wink]


well i
m hungry, and demitras hungry and we both want some mac n cheese, so, if you pardon me for now, li have to go and make some before my stomach starts eating all my other organs.


with the need for a valentine, some mac and cheese, and a homework machine,
miss rachel. [SMILE]

it was rose
i was taking sips of it
through my nose.




third eye blind





haha i looooove that song. it's such an.. well... interesting song. it's soo incredibly random. but i love it so dearly. i lvoe those lines the best. i think that those lines are actually a really good example of good songwriting. i mean.. thats talent. who would have thought of explaining something that way??.. really. "the sky was gold, it was rose, i was taking sips of it through my nose" thats some creative stuff, man. "the sky was gold" that means like.. morning. cuz the sky is all gold colors and everything in the morning. "it was rose" now, this can be interperated in two ways. the first being "rose" as in an actual flower, a rose. he's comparing the sky to a rose. again.. it goes along with the whole color scheme thing. secondly, the sun rises in the morning. past tense, would be "rose." the sun rose up. i'm not quite sure which one they mean to use here, but both work! [tell me your opinions.. cuz i dono which one] "i was taking sips of it" thats just a fancy way to say "i was smelling" haha. interesting huh? "through my nose" just goes along with the whole "smelling" concept. taking sips of it through my nose. thats combining two sense right there. sips... what do we usually think of when someone says "i took a sip." drinks.. duh. so thats like, taste and stuff. and then "nose" is scent! see how strange they put it? THE SKY WAS GOLD, IT WAS ROSE, I WAS TAKING SIPS OF IT THROUGH MY NOSE. nice guys!




i really really do think thats such an amazingly creative way to say it!


ok well.. did you hear on the news about the train accident that took place at about 1 this morning?? somewhere in western mass two people were sturck by a train and killed. now,, since i don't watch the news i dont know the full story. however, i will do my best to explain.
- i was on the bus this morning and was listening to the radio [which was of course the most dreadful thing in the world- the news]
- as i was gettin goof i heard them mention that there was a train accident that involved a man and a woman
- the man was 20, attending college
- the woman was unable to be identified
- not able to be identified?? are you serious?? you know that means that the destruction was pretty bad. i mean... they cant even tell who it is.
- it happened at one o clock this morning. that means that at that time that i was listening to it [7:30 approx.] they'd had already been working on the case for about 6 and a half hours. and still.. they couldn't figure out who the woman was.
- well, being myself, a short attention spaned student i didn't really think anything of it. after all, it wasn't my buisness, i was focusing on getting into school ontime and without tripping, and i had a biology test during my first class that i needed to direct my thoughts too.
-ok, so.. the whole day went by.. yadda yadda yada...
- then comes history class
- there was an announcement made at about 1:30 over teh intercom, our principal was speaking.
- he said something to the effect of: "im sure some of you may have heard about the tragic accident that occured out in western ma this morning. there was a train that hit two college aged students. one was a boy, and the other; a girl. The girl, Molly _________ graduated from this school only a year ago. She was in the senior class of 2004, an excellent student, and now, we are grieeing the loos fo her life. If anyone needs too, they may visit the guidence office for support. I would like to take a moment of silence for all of us to honor her death, thank you. [moment of silence] again, the guidence office is open, you are free to talk to anyone you need too, i'm sorry that you all have to hear this, i know we will all always miss her and care for her, and her life will be part of us forever. thank you"
- umm.. excuse me? did you say she was here? she walked these very halls laughing and smiling just last june?


this was probably the most sobering-up thing i've heard in a while. i mean.. its so close to home. i never expeced to hear that. i feel bad now that i overlooked it earlier this morning. i mean.. i really do. i feel guilty. wow, death is so amazing. it really is. i mean, i know one of my friends cousins was friends with Molly. i can only imagine what it must have been like for her to recieve a phone call telling what happened. or maybe she found out by watching the news... who knows.
i mean like.. in a split second, everything can change. you never get to say goodbye. and suddenly you're wishing you had taken more advantage of all the time you spent together.. or didn't spend together. you never told them how much you loved them, or appreciated them. you never said enough "thank yous." all you have left are those moments, those memories. thats it. never again will you laugh with them, or cry with them. i mean really... its one of the saddest things people have to go through. death. losses. saddness.


i want to be in the mood. the mood to write. because this is such a facinating topic. and im so frusterated that i like.. i don't know. i'm not in the "zone" wow. how corny does that sound?? really corny. cheesey in fact. haha interesting how all of those words refer to food. CORNY and CHEESY. wow... somebody who made those up must have been hungry or something.

please don't tell me i'm the only one who notices these things.. cuz like.. i mean.. i can't be the only observative person around here!

*make any wierd observations lately? i'd love to know what they are.. ya know.. just out of curiosity. it gives me something to think about.a nd USUALLY something to write about. except for today and i odn't know why that is. maybe it's cuz im tierd. yeah.. thats gotta be it. my eyes are closing right now. like.. you know how when you blink, your eyes like, close and then snap right back open? well, mine aren't doing that right now. they close for about 5 seconds and then open back up all foggy and stuff.





so.. i am going on a ski trip!! you see.. i'm leaving tomorrow afternoon and and going to be gone till sunday night. im not going to be in school on Friday. as well as tomorrow. everyones saying we're going to have a snow day tomorrow but i highly doubt it. i mean like.. it's not snowing at all and it's wayyy to warm for it to snow. im guessing rain rain rain. but, hey, i dont watch the news so i just hear stuff from other people. allll of my teachers today said that they think we;re not going to have school tomorrow. pft. yeah right. i wish. i'm not going tomorrow anyway, even if we do have school. i'm tierd, and i have to pack. yeah.. thats going ot take me all day [wink wink]. i don't want to have ANOTHER ay to make up so i say "YES PLEASE LET THERE BE SCHOOL OFF TOMORROW" even though i HIGHLY DOUBT it'll be cancelled. i dont know where we are going skiing.. somewhere about 3 hours away thuogh. so like... northern Vermont, NH or Maine. its the family reunion!!! yayayayay! i have to rememebr to bring my camera. which, i will most likley forget to do because... thats typical me. i feel sooo bad that im not gonna be here on friday cuz i have child development class. and for that, my be [miss kerry lowell] and i go to Doyon Elementary and help out in the kindergarten class. well, we go on friday but i'm not gonna be there. so she has to handle all of tehm by herself! IM SORRY BE!! i'l be there on tuesday and wednesday and friday next week though! i PROMISE!

and i promise you, i don't make promises that i don't keep. [smile]





well... so... this whole "being single" thing is really quite fun. i forgot how fun it was actually. i looove to flirt [smile]


wow, i don't know why i just told you that, but oh well! you're just going to have to deal with my pointless ramblings for a while because i'm not going to stop.


AHH MY COMPUTOR IS METAL RIGHT? WELL, ITS OVER HEATING! CUZ I CANT TURN THE DAMN THING OFF [CUZ I DONT KNOW HOW] IT JUST KEEPS GETTING HOTTER. AND ITS A LAPTOP, SO THAT MEANS THE KEYBOARD IS METAL TOO. SO NOW MY FINGERS ARE BURNING UP. FREEKING THING.


well, i'm going to go to bed early tonight. well, sort of early. late for usuall time. early for the past few days. its 10:22 now, and i'm sick of typing.


so, here is where we go our seperate ways. part, my friend.





WITH THE LOVE FOR FLIRTING, ART CLASS, MY MICHELLE BRANCH CD, FAMILY REUNIONS, MENTAL HEALTH DAYS, AND BALLET SHOES,
MISS RACHEL ELISE



ps. the ballet shoes thing was thrown in there cuz next week i'm getting new ones!!!! {gigantic smile]
pps. the michelle branch thing was thrown in there cuz i'm listening to that cd right now. and singing along. and dancing along.
ppps. the art class thing was thrown in there cuz thats the class taht the kindergarteners have on friday athat i am going to miss, but miss be will not miss cuz she'll be there! .. or, at least i think she will.
pppps. tomorrow is what i call a mental health day, so thats why i threw that in there
ppppps. i've never done this many "ps." things in my life before

ok so, here you go:

today i hung out with kati
we saw the movie "the wedding date"
it was cute
i liked it
then we ate at the cafe zabaglionie
or however you spell it
i had a delicious desert
i don't know what it was exazctly: except that it was made out of chocolate
then she dropped me off

it's final; i now have a mac
a notebook to be specific
its really a comp though
pretty coolo if oyu ask me
i'm pumped
i also have to go now to watch a movie
with my mom
its called
wimbeldon
update later!


LOVE YOU DEARLY,
with the need to go cuz her moms calling her,
RACHEL. E. MILLER.

thats the song i was listening to about 15 minutes ago when i started typing an entry for today., the the comp decided to be retarted. so it exed out and i have to start allll over again, which in fact, i am not going ot do. cuz i typed like.. an essay. but instead of telling you how much i type3d im going to just move on.

anyway, i had alll the lyrics to that song in here origionally, an di've decided not to re type those.

actually, scratch that, i love the song so much that im going to.
i mean... i really do love it.
dearly.
honestly.


welcome to the planet
welcome to existance
everyones here
everyones here
everybodys watching you now
everybody waits for you now
what happens next
what happens next
i dare you to move
i dare oyu to move
i dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
i dare you to move
i dare you to move
like today never hapepned
todcay never happened before
welcome to the fallout
welcome to resistance
the tension is here
the tension is here
between who you are
and who you could be
between how it is
and howit should be
i dare you to move
i dare you to move
i dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
i dare you to move
i dare you to move
like today never happened
today enver happened...
maybe redemption has stories to tell
maybe forgivness is right where you fell
where do you run to escape for yourself
where you gonna go
where you gonna go
SALVATION IS HERE

anyway.. thats it!
mi amor.

ok so anyway whats been new?
hmm.. track stuff... school stuff... new teachers and stuff
have i updated since the switch?
hmm i cant remember
at all..
well simms is goin good. i have that mona lisa story due tomorrow
its coming along nicely
child development is alright. i go to doyon with be and we work in.. i think its mrs.lampron's class. but anyway i found out yesterday that i'm "wierd." yup.. thats what one of the lovley kindergarteners told me. such dear, sweet things. these are the next generation of kids! LOVELY.

blah
so i love how in that class the kids are soooo cute. they all want to be your friend. theres this one girl kia. well.. shes attached to me. im talking like.. attatched... like at the hip. i wasn't like that in kindergarten. i was the one crying the corner who wanted to go home.

wierd huh?

i grew up since then. i'm now the one COMFORTING the little girl in the corner. [smile]. well, i want to talk to you all about children some more but this is sorta making me really dizzy and i feel REALLY sick right now. im only making it worse.


but theres Julia and another girl; the cutest things i've ever seen in my life. well they do writing that class. and then they have to share what they wrote with everyone. well, i learned that they both want to go to a place where theres fairies everywhere and an enchanted waterfall. remember how we were then? everything was big bright and beautiful to us. our little minds that thought up ideas like playing with fairies under waterfalls. i mean really... what happened? when exactly did we loose all of this innocence?? i'd love to know when it was when i stopped believeing the easter bunny and santa claus.when i realized that faires didn't exist.when i found out there was infact no such thing as a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. now, this is quite interesting. the rainbow. such a magnificant thing. colorful yet strangleyhaunting. it tunrs out it has more to do with science than with the imaginaiton. think for a moment... now, science is said to be the reason for many things we beleived in when we were little. groups of dust particals in the air. not fairies. now... our imagination was that rainbow. it was colorful and full of life. it was beautiful. we all admired it. it was entertainment and everything! then we come to find out none of it real. everything we thought, everything we believed in. all of the stories. not real. none of it. a rainbow is not some pathway to a pot of gold. santa clas is really mom and dad. so isn't the easter bunny. theres no such thing as magic. you can't ahve an enchanted waterfall. how could peopl lead us to believe such madness when they kjnew one day outrr entire world would all fall apart. wouldn't it be safer and easyer if they had knwn the truth in teh first place? rather than have them build up everything only to then knock it all down? it is things like these we have to consider when we have a child or work with children. as the child, we love being optimistic. it came naturally. our mind was forming this by the movies we watched. the t.v. shows we watched. now look at us. look at the stuff we watch now. when we watched Snow White we believed it was true. yet it was alla lie. now we watched 24 and Law and Order. only to find out it is infact the truth! what? what is happening? the shows we watched when we were little were misleading us. the shows we watch now inform us of what really happens. where was the transition? and why do we not still watch those shows? are we supposed to turn into pessimists? is that some level of maturity we have to reach before we become an adult? or can we still continue to watch those shows we watched when we were little but only for entertainment. and is it reallly even fair to do that to ourselves? should we re visit all this only to have a different outlook on it? yet we praise these shows for making our children learn. would they not learn otherwise if they hadnt thrown all of this fantasy in it? at age 4 could they not grasp teh ABCs and 123s if a fairy didn't teach them how to on PBS? it is so they would pay attention? i'm not sure.. because how would we know if they wont pay attnetion to other things if they only immediatly go into the fantasy world? i mean.. really. our imagination is a ranbow that takes us anyway, it takes us to a pot of gold: HAPPINESS. that is our gold. however, we want gold gold, we want money. and when we found out that the pot og gold wasn't what we thought it was, we left it behind and found the truth. that a rainbow is not in fact what we had thought. am i the only one who thinks about these things?

i want to hear your thoughts, so place eitehr comment or write about it your blog or journal. because i wanna know if anything i just said made any sense at all. i want to continue talking so bad it hurts not too but i really am dizzy and i have to finish that mona lisa story.
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please expand upon everthing and make me feel my writing is worth it. please do.



i love you all more tahn you could ever grasp,
with love, maddness, and probably one of few still with an imagination like a rainbow,
miss rachel