You're my sweet charade

what you need; i hope it finds you


are you a clever boy?


gonna live forever boy?


maybe someday you'll get it right




>>an ode to maybe<<



i dont know why but recently i am just lvin' the third eye blind lyrics.
they're so ... i dont know. expressive? maybe thats the word i'm looking for.

I've never been so alone
And I've never been so alive
Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by
Cigarette ash flies in your eyes
And you don't mind
And you smile
And say the world doesn't fit with you
I don't believe you
You're so serene
Careening through the universe
Your axis on a tilt
Guiltless and free
I hope you take a piece of me with you.


ok, and now onto one of the most gorgeous songs in the entire world. tell me if you can figure out what its about.

Every fault that I repent

There's another chip you haven't spent

And you're cashing them all in

Where do we begin

To get clean again

Can we get clean again

I walk home alone with you

And the mood you're born into

Sometimes you led me in

And I take it on the chin

I can't get clean again

I want to know

Can we get clean again

The God of Wine comes crashing through the headlight of a car that

Took you farther than you thought you'd ever want to go

We can't get back again

You can't get back again

SHE TAKES A DRINK AND THEN SHE WAITS

THE ALCOHOL IT PERMEATS

AND SOON THE CELLS GIVE WAY

AND CANCELES OUT THE DAY

I can't keep it all together

AND THE SIRENS SONG THAT IS YOUR MADDNESS

HOLDS A TRUTH I CAN'T ERASE

ALL ALONE ON YOUR FACE

Every glamorous sunrise

Throws the planets out of line

The star sign out of whack

A fraudulent zodiac

And the God of Wine is crouched down in my room

You let me down

I said it

And now I'm goin' down

And you're not ever around

And I said “no…”

And i cant keep it all together

And there's a memory of a window

Looking through I see you

Searching for something I could never give you

And there's someone who understands you more than I do

A SADDNESS I CAN'T ERASE

ALL ALONE ON YOUR FACE.


>> that one is called God Of Wine. care to share your thoughts on what it may be about? i wan't to see if you pick up on the hints. i left specific things capitalized.






i have had such a wierd day. like. i dono, just wierd.
for instance i've felt soo terid all dayk, but soo full of energy cuz of everyone coming over. also, it was boring now that i think of it, we all hardly ever did anything, but then again the things we did do were great. also, there were a lot of awkward moments. i mean like.. just wierd uncomfortable ones. like say when you make a joke nad no one laughs. thas what i mean. where you feel all stupid and stuff. well, it really wasnt the circumstance of a joke. it just that same kind of feeling. i don't know what i mean. forget it. i'm tierd and i want to think about some things. and i am so going to try as hard as i possibly can to sleep late tomorrow. i have to talk to a couple people online, but they will just have to bear with me and save the convo for tomorrow afternoon.


lately i have had sooo much trouble getting to sleep it's insane. i've tried almost everything.
-counting sheep= didnt work cuz they jump too fast before i can count them.. i dont know why. like.. at all. but its too overwhelming
-tea= i stay up to have the taste still in my mouth cuz i like it so much
-reading= after i put the book down i can't stop thinking about it, and my mind is racing way too much to think about going to sleep
-warm milk= i don't like milk
-spray stuff= don't like the smell
-counting= i have an awful memory and can never remember what number i'm on, and after having to start over so many times, it's too frusterating

ANY ADVISE? FEEL FREE TO COMMENT.







i had a great day love,

<3 racheyy