10.31.2004
Did you write the book of love?
And do you have faith in God above
If the Bible tells you so?
Now do you believe in rock and roll?
Can music save your mortal soul?
And can you teach me how to dance real slow?
Tonight I went to Bret's dad's house in Newburyport!!! He picked me up around fiveish or something, and I was watching Zoolander on TBS... Such a GREAT movie. Ok so he picked me up, then we drove and got Joey's friend Derek at his house across town, and then we were on our way to Newburyport. Bill was the green teletubby hahahahaha. How unique! and joey was manny Ramirez, he wore a big fro haha. That was great. and Derek was Johnny Damon, he wore a long wig so he loked like him. Joey's face had brown smudged paint on it, so that he could pretend that he was black. aaand Bret drew a beard and a mustache on Derek's face to look more like Johnny. It was coooool.
so then we alll went to Newburyport, and Bret and I walked to the pizza factory to pick up 2 large pizzas that had already been ordered. His dad lives sooooo close to downtown its craaazy. So then we went back home and ate pizza which by the way was reaaallyy good. Really hot, but realllyyy good. After that, jen, bill, joey, Derek, Bret and I all started walking down following the trick or treaters (joey and Derek)then Bret and I broke off from the rest of the crew and walked downtown. we walked and walked and walked, and the breeze felt soooo gooooddddd. cuz it was PREFECT weather tonight. I followed him down to the warf which is GIANT....
it was soooooo nice, just, gorgeous there. So we walked around there for a while, passed only a few people who were lingering down there amoung the two of us. there was a Really cute little girl that kept yellling haha. and I was walking on the edge of the warf dock thing, fifteen feet above the water, and it would have been nasty if I fell into the cooolllldd water. theennnnn we walked around all the fishing boats and stuff like that, and found our way to this spot near a biiig bulding that had a bunch of big rocks. So we walked on top of those by the weaters edge and found a comfy spot to watch the stars. I tryyyed to find constelations but I cant remember anything from fourth grade haha. the moon looked sooo awesome tonight. It was really low, right on top of the horizon, and it was BRIGHT orange.. It was soooo pretty, and there was a few clouds that blocked it.. like.. just blocked out a dark line right through the center of it.i really liked just being there. It was soo quiet and all we did was talk. I would be down there everyday if I could. but ofcourse, all good things come to an end, and we had to walk back to his house.
when we got back, we all left to go to a haunted house nearby. I guess they do it evvvery year. It was reaaalllly good. there was a bunch of guys that all got together and made up one of their houses with sooo many decorations, they had blinding strobe lights hahaa. and at the end, some guy like.. jumped out and followed you with a real chain saw on. hahaa.
so, after that, jen, Bret and I drove back to the house (yet again haha) and we listented to music on his dads mp3 player, which I wish I had. and that was pretty cool, just.. relaxing. then Derek and joey showed up and ruined the peace.... but whatareyougonnado?
soon after, we left to go home, and OFCOURSE I got dropped off first *frown* but on the way home, we listened to the radio, and tried to figure out who sang what. I looved all teh songs we listened too haha. It was like.. a big singalong! That hardly anyone sang to cept for me and sometimes Bret.
so then we got to my house, and walked to my porch. rexchanged our "goodbyes" "goodnights" and "thank yous" and then, his dad "wasnt as forgiveing" as his step dad... haha. I didnt catch it at first. but now that I think about I do. So... any way...
then I came in and ate five reeses, now I feel like a giant pig. like.. eww I feel gross.. wicked full and stuff.
I gave be the googoo dolls "dizzy up the girl" cd for her birthday!! I couldnt hold out any longer.. I was anticipating her getting it SOOO bad that I was like.. ya know what? here ya go be! happy birthday, even though her birthdays on saturday. te he.
Tonight I went to Bret's dad's house in Newburyport!!! He picked me up around fiveish or something, and I was watching Zoolander on TBS... Such a GREAT movie. Ok so he picked me up, then we drove and got Joey's friend Derek at his house across town, and then we were on our way to Newburyport. Bill was the green teletubby hahahahaha. How unique! and joey was manny Ramirez, he wore a big fro haha. That was great. and Derek was Johnny Damon, he wore a long wig so he loked like him. Joey's face had brown smudged paint on it, so that he could pretend that he was black. aaand Bret drew a beard and a mustache on Derek's face to look more like Johnny. It was coooool.
so then we alll went to Newburyport, and Bret and I walked to the pizza factory to pick up 2 large pizzas that had already been ordered. His dad lives sooooo close to downtown its craaazy. So then we went back home and ate pizza which by the way was reaaallyy good. Really hot, but realllyyy good. After that, jen, bill, joey, Derek, Bret and I all started walking down following the trick or treaters (joey and Derek)then Bret and I broke off from the rest of the crew and walked downtown. we walked and walked and walked, and the breeze felt soooo gooooddddd. cuz it was PREFECT weather tonight. I followed him down to the warf which is GIANT....
it was soooooo nice, just, gorgeous there. So we walked around there for a while, passed only a few people who were lingering down there amoung the two of us. there was a Really cute little girl that kept yellling haha. and I was walking on the edge of the warf dock thing, fifteen feet above the water, and it would have been nasty if I fell into the cooolllldd water. theennnnn we walked around all the fishing boats and stuff like that, and found our way to this spot near a biiig bulding that had a bunch of big rocks. So we walked on top of those by the weaters edge and found a comfy spot to watch the stars. I tryyyed to find constelations but I cant remember anything from fourth grade haha. the moon looked sooo awesome tonight. It was really low, right on top of the horizon, and it was BRIGHT orange.. It was soooo pretty, and there was a few clouds that blocked it.. like.. just blocked out a dark line right through the center of it.i really liked just being there. It was soo quiet and all we did was talk. I would be down there everyday if I could. but ofcourse, all good things come to an end, and we had to walk back to his house.
when we got back, we all left to go to a haunted house nearby. I guess they do it evvvery year. It was reaaalllly good. there was a bunch of guys that all got together and made up one of their houses with sooo many decorations, they had blinding strobe lights hahaa. and at the end, some guy like.. jumped out and followed you with a real chain saw on. hahaa.
so, after that, jen, Bret and I drove back to the house (yet again haha) and we listented to music on his dads mp3 player, which I wish I had. and that was pretty cool, just.. relaxing. then Derek and joey showed up and ruined the peace.... but whatareyougonnado?
soon after, we left to go home, and OFCOURSE I got dropped off first *frown* but on the way home, we listened to the radio, and tried to figure out who sang what. I looved all teh songs we listened too haha. It was like.. a big singalong! That hardly anyone sang to cept for me and sometimes Bret.
so then we got to my house, and walked to my porch. rexchanged our "goodbyes" "goodnights" and "thank yous" and then, his dad "wasnt as forgiveing" as his step dad... haha. I didnt catch it at first. but now that I think about I do. So... any way...
then I came in and ate five reeses, now I feel like a giant pig. like.. eww I feel gross.. wicked full and stuff.
I gave be the googoo dolls "dizzy up the girl" cd for her birthday!! I couldnt hold out any longer.. I was anticipating her getting it SOOO bad that I was like.. ya know what? here ya go be! happy birthday, even though her birthdays on saturday. te he.
yeah, so.. I had a fantastic evening.
now I have to look foward to doing all my homework! YES.
im glad I didnt get candy from going trickortreating, cuz its not like erica and demitra arent going to share with me, or, at least they cant expect me to not share thier candy with myself.. haha...
[sagapo. missrachel]
halloween time!
im watchin gilmore girl's right now... i loooove this show. *smile*
today is halloweeeeeen!!!! well actually tonight is.
the party was good last night. there was lotsss of food, and i feel like a giant. ew gross.
be and i... goodness... where do i begin? mummy wrapping involves a LOT of toilet paper. sooo be and i were downstairs and we walked into the kitchen, and ended up lying on the kitchen floor on the major mound of toilet paper. *sigh* great times be. i cannot WAIT to get a copy of those pictures!!
so . .we woke up this morning at seven o clock. and we could NOT get back to sleep. oh yeah and anna just HAD to call be's cell at 2 45 in the morning haha. that was pretty bad. soo anyway, we split an enligh muffin, and then watched the movie Alice In Wonderland! what a great movie. i hadnt seen it in sooo long. and then after that, her mommy picked us both up and i got to go to her chuuuuurch!
ok, it is sooo much fun. im gonna like.. compare hers and mine ok?
MINE BE'S
2 and a half hours long 1 hour long
dress up WICKED fancy jeans and a t shirt
no laughing, talking, cell singing, clapping, shouting out, laughing joking
phones, clapping, distractions
commenting
chior/opera live band, singalongs, happy songs
catch my drift? i loove rh church, everyone is sooo friendly. i got to go to sinday school with her tooo!!! that was really neat. im not in sunday school anymore. they have sunday school classes for ALLLL ages. adults have them too! my church doesbnt have that.
it was wickkkked fun. so then after wards, after hanging out with all her cool friends, like castro, sy, ryan, and deb, i got dropped off at home!
tonight im goin into newburyport with bret. that should be fun. i dono what we're planning on doin though. ill update later on.
i dont wanna type no more.
.bye.bye.bye.
today is halloweeeeeen!!!! well actually tonight is.
the party was good last night. there was lotsss of food, and i feel like a giant. ew gross.
be and i... goodness... where do i begin? mummy wrapping involves a LOT of toilet paper. sooo be and i were downstairs and we walked into the kitchen, and ended up lying on the kitchen floor on the major mound of toilet paper. *sigh* great times be. i cannot WAIT to get a copy of those pictures!!
so . .we woke up this morning at seven o clock. and we could NOT get back to sleep. oh yeah and anna just HAD to call be's cell at 2 45 in the morning haha. that was pretty bad. soo anyway, we split an enligh muffin, and then watched the movie Alice In Wonderland! what a great movie. i hadnt seen it in sooo long. and then after that, her mommy picked us both up and i got to go to her chuuuuurch!
ok, it is sooo much fun. im gonna like.. compare hers and mine ok?
MINE BE'S
2 and a half hours long 1 hour long
dress up WICKED fancy jeans and a t shirt
no laughing, talking, cell singing, clapping, shouting out, laughing joking
phones, clapping, distractions
commenting
chior/opera live band, singalongs, happy songs
catch my drift? i loove rh church, everyone is sooo friendly. i got to go to sinday school with her tooo!!! that was really neat. im not in sunday school anymore. they have sunday school classes for ALLLL ages. adults have them too! my church doesbnt have that.
it was wickkkked fun. so then after wards, after hanging out with all her cool friends, like castro, sy, ryan, and deb, i got dropped off at home!
tonight im goin into newburyport with bret. that should be fun. i dono what we're planning on doin though. ill update later on.
i dont wanna type no more.
.bye.bye.bye.
10.30.2004
should i start this song off with a question?
let me pause to clarify
Because I'm sure you're asking why
I stand before you and proudly claim
To belong to what this song complains
I'm part of the problem,
I confess
But I gotta get this off my chest
Let's extinguish the anguish
For which we're to blame
And save the world from
going down in flames.
oh what a lousy excuse for a car
one mile to go, but i cant push it that far.
stuck on the side of the road, emotion over load,
tonight is el dia despues el dia despuese el dia de muertos! partaay. ok so, erica and demitra are havin a halloween partty, and there 20 kid invited, and i got be coming over tonight!!!
we made sooo much food.. its great.
brownies
cookies
pickles
a veggie thing (my mom just HAD to throw that in there)
RAMEN NOODLES
popcorn
nachos
cheese curls
chocolates
sweets
yum yummmm i loove junk food. *smile* and sooo we're gonna haaang out, and porobably end up watching a movie cuz.. thats usually what happens when ppl sleep over my house. ericas got a BUNCH of people come, and demitra has twice as many people than that. i hung up lights, and spider webs, and streammmmmers. (orange and white) yeah.. so.. im pumped. not as excited as be is, seeing as though i dont have that "jumping in my pants" excitement. hahaha. oh and yeah.
so we've decided that we're going to be bumblebees. were gonna wear yellow and black, and make stingers and wings out of paper. HECK YES. we're gonn have the most shnazzyist costumes EVER. you know it.
im listening to relient k, that may be why you recignise some of the things in here. i wouldnt "rather nottttt"
thundercats. thundercats. THUNDERCATS
i am the greatest thundercat of them all.
those words are not enough.
hey, ya know what? i think im in the mood for josie and the pussycats. maybe maybe maybe!
what have you been doing lately> your life could use improving greatly. i just wanted to know what going on when everything that goes is going wrong.
pardon me while i throw up, i guess some people never grow up, it breaks my heart to see how much you've changed...
you're smooth, and good with talking. come with me to the sadie hawkins?
how i adore you, those words are not enough.
should i end this song off with a question?
Because I'm sure you're asking why
I stand before you and proudly claim
To belong to what this song complains
I'm part of the problem,
I confess
But I gotta get this off my chest
Let's extinguish the anguish
For which we're to blame
And save the world from
going down in flames.
oh what a lousy excuse for a car
one mile to go, but i cant push it that far.
stuck on the side of the road, emotion over load,
tonight is el dia despues el dia despuese el dia de muertos! partaay. ok so, erica and demitra are havin a halloween partty, and there 20 kid invited, and i got be coming over tonight!!!
we made sooo much food.. its great.
brownies
cookies
pickles
a veggie thing (my mom just HAD to throw that in there)
RAMEN NOODLES
popcorn
nachos
cheese curls
chocolates
sweets
yum yummmm i loove junk food. *smile* and sooo we're gonna haaang out, and porobably end up watching a movie cuz.. thats usually what happens when ppl sleep over my house. ericas got a BUNCH of people come, and demitra has twice as many people than that. i hung up lights, and spider webs, and streammmmmers. (orange and white) yeah.. so.. im pumped. not as excited as be is, seeing as though i dont have that "jumping in my pants" excitement. hahaha. oh and yeah.
so we've decided that we're going to be bumblebees. were gonna wear yellow and black, and make stingers and wings out of paper. HECK YES. we're gonn have the most shnazzyist costumes EVER. you know it.
im listening to relient k, that may be why you recignise some of the things in here. i wouldnt "rather nottttt"
thundercats. thundercats. THUNDERCATS
i am the greatest thundercat of them all.
those words are not enough.
hey, ya know what? i think im in the mood for josie and the pussycats. maybe maybe maybe!
what have you been doing lately> your life could use improving greatly. i just wanted to know what going on when everything that goes is going wrong.
pardon me while i throw up, i guess some people never grow up, it breaks my heart to see how much you've changed...
you're smooth, and good with talking. come with me to the sadie hawkins?
how i adore you, those words are not enough.
should i end this song off with a question?
10.28.2004
Look aroun everywhere you turn is heartache
It's everywhere that you go [look around]
You try everything you can to escape
The pain of life that you know [life that you know]
When all else fails and you long to be
Something better than you are today
I know a place where you can get away
It's called a dance floor, and here's what it's for, so
Come on, vogue
Let your body move to the music [move to the music]
Hey, hey, hey
Come on, vogue
Let your body go with the flow [go with the flow]
You know you can do it
All you need is your own imagination
So use it that's what it's for [that's what it's for]
Go inside, for your finest inspiration
Your dreams will open the door [open up the door]
It makes no difference if you're black or white
If you're a boy or a girl
If the music's pumping it will give you new life
You're a superstar, yes, that's what you are, you know it
Beauty's where you find it
Not just where you bump and grind it
Soul is in the musical
That's where I feel so beautiful
Magical, life's a ball
So get up on the dance floor
Vogue, [Vogue]
Beauty's where you find it [move to the music]
Vogue, [Vogue]
Beauty's where you find it [go with the flow]
Greta Garbo, and Monroe
Deitrich and DiMaggio
Marlon Brando, Jimmy Dean
On the cover of a magazine
Grace Kelly; Harlow, Jean
Picture of a beauty queen
Gene Kelly, Fred Astaire
Ginger Rodgers, dance on air
They had style, they had grace
Rita Hayworth gave good face
Lauren, Katherine, Lana too
Bette Davis, we love you
Ladies with an attitude
Fellows that were in the mood
Don't just stand there, let's get to it
Strike a pose, there's nothing to it
Vogue, vogue
Oooh, you've got to
Let your body move to the music
Oooh, you've got to just
Let your body go with the flow
Oooh, you've got to
Vogue
You try everything you can to escape
The pain of life that you know [life that you know]
When all else fails and you long to be
Something better than you are today
I know a place where you can get away
It's called a dance floor, and here's what it's for, so
Come on, vogue
Let your body move to the music [move to the music]
Hey, hey, hey
Come on, vogue
Let your body go with the flow [go with the flow]
You know you can do it
All you need is your own imagination
So use it that's what it's for [that's what it's for]
Go inside, for your finest inspiration
Your dreams will open the door [open up the door]
It makes no difference if you're black or white
If you're a boy or a girl
If the music's pumping it will give you new life
You're a superstar, yes, that's what you are, you know it
Beauty's where you find it
Not just where you bump and grind it
Soul is in the musical
That's where I feel so beautiful
Magical, life's a ball
So get up on the dance floor
Vogue, [Vogue]
Beauty's where you find it [move to the music]
Vogue, [Vogue]
Beauty's where you find it [go with the flow]
Greta Garbo, and Monroe
Deitrich and DiMaggio
Marlon Brando, Jimmy Dean
On the cover of a magazine
Grace Kelly; Harlow, Jean
Picture of a beauty queen
Gene Kelly, Fred Astaire
Ginger Rodgers, dance on air
They had style, they had grace
Rita Hayworth gave good face
Lauren, Katherine, Lana too
Bette Davis, we love you
Ladies with an attitude
Fellows that were in the mood
Don't just stand there, let's get to it
Strike a pose, there's nothing to it
Vogue, vogue
Oooh, you've got to
Let your body move to the music
Oooh, you've got to just
Let your body go with the flow
Oooh, you've got to
Vogue
10.27.2004
time is never time at all
you can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
and our lives are forever changed
we will never be the same
the more you change the less you feel
believe,
believe in me,
believe that life can change,
that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same,
we're different tonight
tonight, so bright tonight
and you know you're never sure
but you're sure you could be right
if you held yourself up to the light
and the embers never fade in your city
by the lake the place where you were born
believe,
believe in me,
believe in the resolute urgency of now
and if you believe there's not a chance tonight
tonight, so bright tonight
we'll crucify the insincere
tonight we'll make things right,
we'll feel it all tonight
we'll find a way
to offer up the night
tonight the indescribable moments of your life
tonight the impossible is possible
tonight believe in me as i believe in you, tonight
the smashing pumpkins. yeah, you know what im talking about.
such a touching song. i got tears in my eyes when i heard it. you wanna know wher ei got it from? look at this slide show http://www.reilystudios.com/gosox.html its just... its soooo good. i want you all to hear it. even if you are against the red sox, (which by the way in that case you would deserve a slapping).
dance class was ok today. my knee wickedddd hurts. i got to lead in EVERY SINGLE CLASS today.. *SMILE*. jazz, ballet, jazz and hip hop. i looooved it. i love being a good dancer haha. aaaand miss patti, my teacher, said theres this class on saturdays from like.. 11 to 12 or 12 to 1 or something like that, and its for people who realllyy want to excel in ballet. im thinking of taking it. like.. im seriousy considering it. i might go to college for this stuff. shes already got me teaching classes, and today, since she usually doesnt do hip hop, (miss sara does) she couldnt do anything cuz iof her knee, its broken or something, and like, she had to substitue for miss sara who was reaallyy sick. but since miss patti couldnt do anything, she had me teach the class. and said i did an excellent job *SMILE* aaaand she said that sooner or later all she would need to do is call up me and have me substitute so she wouldnt even need to come at all.. but thats later on. i will get to someday though. i'd be sooo great to make my career as a dance teacher at this place. im lovin it. i hope she wasnt kidding haha. its only.. 17 more months till i can drive, thats IT.. thats... ONLY 459 days! so then i could driiiive myself to work.. and when i get there and have allll the little kids say "Miss Rachel, Miss Rachel, can you show me the step one more time?" *sigh*.. it'd be soooo great.
and PLUS i really like the other teachers there. yeah so anyway, theres my goal for ya'll.
barbizon called me and invited me to this thing coming up on sunday, i realllyy wanted to go, but i cant cuz its allll the way in BURLINGTON. yeah, like im gonna, no wait, like my MOM is gonna drive me all the way out there. i wonder what its fooor anyway. they say they're doing a talent search. moreen or however you spell it called me, she sounds realllyy nice. too bad i had to call her back today and tell her i cant go. *frown* its on HALLOWEEN. like people are gonna go to something on a holiday. well i can see why they would. but still, Barbizon is a reaaaally expensive top class place. the tuition is about $2,000 and thats CRAAAZY. $2,000??? are they out of thier MINDS? i cant even afford chap stick from brooks, much less classes from this place. man oh man.
math test tomorrow. i hate math. it realllly sucks. i fucking hate geometry. i dont see aaany point to it at ALL. when am i EVER going to use the base angle theorm in real life huh? tell me that much. and its at the end of the day. which is the worst possible timing cuz its one thing that i dont pay attention in math, and its another that i NEVER pay attention in last class cuz im too busy thinking ahead about how my afternoon is going to go. so... two negatives put together equals a stupid pointless geometry test. see? thats all the math i'll ever need to know. addition. and subtraction.
RED SOX ARE IN THE WORLD SERIES. can i get a "hell yeah"?i like.. totally messed up the whole thing i wrote about them not being in the series yet. i wrote that in... my second to last entry i think? oh well. haha. ok, so im not a baseball wiz. but that doesnt mean anything...
my lips are chapped, oh which reminds me, i have to get miss be some lip gloss for her birthday!!! and im getting her .................................................................................................!!! isnt it GREAT? i cant wait..!
ok im tierd, goodnight bye.
and our lives are forever changed
we will never be the same
the more you change the less you feel
believe,
believe in me,
believe that life can change,
that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same,
we're different tonight
tonight, so bright tonight
and you know you're never sure
but you're sure you could be right
if you held yourself up to the light
and the embers never fade in your city
by the lake the place where you were born
believe,
believe in me,
believe in the resolute urgency of now
and if you believe there's not a chance tonight
tonight, so bright tonight
we'll crucify the insincere
tonight we'll make things right,
we'll feel it all tonight
we'll find a way
to offer up the night
tonight the indescribable moments of your life
tonight the impossible is possible
tonight believe in me as i believe in you, tonight
the smashing pumpkins. yeah, you know what im talking about.
such a touching song. i got tears in my eyes when i heard it. you wanna know wher ei got it from? look at this slide show http://www.reilystudios.com/gosox.html its just... its soooo good. i want you all to hear it. even if you are against the red sox, (which by the way in that case you would deserve a slapping).
dance class was ok today. my knee wickedddd hurts. i got to lead in EVERY SINGLE CLASS today.. *SMILE*. jazz, ballet, jazz and hip hop. i looooved it. i love being a good dancer haha. aaaand miss patti, my teacher, said theres this class on saturdays from like.. 11 to 12 or 12 to 1 or something like that, and its for people who realllyy want to excel in ballet. im thinking of taking it. like.. im seriousy considering it. i might go to college for this stuff. shes already got me teaching classes, and today, since she usually doesnt do hip hop, (miss sara does) she couldnt do anything cuz iof her knee, its broken or something, and like, she had to substitue for miss sara who was reaallyy sick. but since miss patti couldnt do anything, she had me teach the class. and said i did an excellent job *SMILE* aaaand she said that sooner or later all she would need to do is call up me and have me substitute so she wouldnt even need to come at all.. but thats later on. i will get to someday though. i'd be sooo great to make my career as a dance teacher at this place. im lovin it. i hope she wasnt kidding haha. its only.. 17 more months till i can drive, thats IT.. thats... ONLY 459 days! so then i could driiiive myself to work.. and when i get there and have allll the little kids say "Miss Rachel, Miss Rachel, can you show me the step one more time?" *sigh*.. it'd be soooo great.
and PLUS i really like the other teachers there. yeah so anyway, theres my goal for ya'll.
barbizon called me and invited me to this thing coming up on sunday, i realllyy wanted to go, but i cant cuz its allll the way in BURLINGTON. yeah, like im gonna, no wait, like my MOM is gonna drive me all the way out there. i wonder what its fooor anyway. they say they're doing a talent search. moreen or however you spell it called me, she sounds realllyy nice. too bad i had to call her back today and tell her i cant go. *frown* its on HALLOWEEN. like people are gonna go to something on a holiday. well i can see why they would. but still, Barbizon is a reaaaally expensive top class place. the tuition is about $2,000 and thats CRAAAZY. $2,000??? are they out of thier MINDS? i cant even afford chap stick from brooks, much less classes from this place. man oh man.
math test tomorrow. i hate math. it realllly sucks. i fucking hate geometry. i dont see aaany point to it at ALL. when am i EVER going to use the base angle theorm in real life huh? tell me that much. and its at the end of the day. which is the worst possible timing cuz its one thing that i dont pay attention in math, and its another that i NEVER pay attention in last class cuz im too busy thinking ahead about how my afternoon is going to go. so... two negatives put together equals a stupid pointless geometry test. see? thats all the math i'll ever need to know. addition. and subtraction.
RED SOX ARE IN THE WORLD SERIES. can i get a "hell yeah"?i like.. totally messed up the whole thing i wrote about them not being in the series yet. i wrote that in... my second to last entry i think? oh well. haha. ok, so im not a baseball wiz. but that doesnt mean anything...
my lips are chapped, oh which reminds me, i have to get miss be some lip gloss for her birthday!!! and im getting her .................................................................................................!!! isnt it GREAT? i cant wait..!
ok im tierd, goodnight bye.
10.26.2004
so you think you can tell heaven from hell?
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?
We're just two lost soulds
swimming in a fish bowl
pink floyd
today... i got a 71 on my math wuiz. that kinda SUCKED.
but in englihs i got an A+ on everything! im telling ya... this class is waaaaay to easy for me.
um yeah, people can be major assholes. today i took the responsability for trying to shut up some really inconsiderate people. mark and mark found enjoyment in viewing a picture on funny junk. it was a picture of a cat on the side of the road, adn someone posted a sign that said "free cat" and an arrow pointing to it. what the fuck is so funny about that? its sick. the whole philosophy is sick. saying "that guts are too smushed to be a kittens" WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE THESE DAYS? is this what america is comeing to? no wait, i mean the world. its this what we want to pass on to our children? "hey honey, lets laugh and crack jokes about the stupid dead cat lying over there on the road" WHAT THE FUCK? i dont know wheere to being in explaing how fucking dissapointed i am in everyone righ tnow. GOODNESS/
ohhh now im happy cuz be might be coming over on saturday!!!! woot woot. and sleep over, and thennnnn her mom will pick us up on sunday morning to go to her church!!! im pumped... i hope her mommy says yesssss!
ok we're haveing a halloween party on saturday. so far.. bes coming (maybe). its kind of wayyy to short notice to ivnite people.
yeh so i sort of.. broke my knee. it wicked hurts and thereshuge black and blue marks alll over it. i have no idea what happened. i just wok eup this mornign and was like "shoot my knee really hurts" but didnt think anything of it. and then tonighta few minutes ago i told my mom about it and she noticed all the black and blue. shoot and i have dance calss tomorrow, 4 classes. strenuous.
i have to go and draw three pictures for english class. bye.
no one is getting out alive this thime i've really lost my mind and i dont care so close your eyes and kiss yourself goodbye adn think about the times you've spent and what they've meant, to me its nothing
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?
We're just two lost soulds
swimming in a fish bowl
pink floyd
today... i got a 71 on my math wuiz. that kinda SUCKED.
but in englihs i got an A+ on everything! im telling ya... this class is waaaaay to easy for me.
um yeah, people can be major assholes. today i took the responsability for trying to shut up some really inconsiderate people. mark and mark found enjoyment in viewing a picture on funny junk. it was a picture of a cat on the side of the road, adn someone posted a sign that said "free cat" and an arrow pointing to it. what the fuck is so funny about that? its sick. the whole philosophy is sick. saying "that guts are too smushed to be a kittens" WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE THESE DAYS? is this what america is comeing to? no wait, i mean the world. its this what we want to pass on to our children? "hey honey, lets laugh and crack jokes about the stupid dead cat lying over there on the road" WHAT THE FUCK? i dont know wheere to being in explaing how fucking dissapointed i am in everyone righ tnow. GOODNESS/
ohhh now im happy cuz be might be coming over on saturday!!!! woot woot. and sleep over, and thennnnn her mom will pick us up on sunday morning to go to her church!!! im pumped... i hope her mommy says yesssss!
ok we're haveing a halloween party on saturday. so far.. bes coming (maybe). its kind of wayyy to short notice to ivnite people.
yeh so i sort of.. broke my knee. it wicked hurts and thereshuge black and blue marks alll over it. i have no idea what happened. i just wok eup this mornign and was like "shoot my knee really hurts" but didnt think anything of it. and then tonighta few minutes ago i told my mom about it and she noticed all the black and blue. shoot and i have dance calss tomorrow, 4 classes. strenuous.
i have to go and draw three pictures for english class. bye.
no one is getting out alive this thime i've really lost my mind and i dont care so close your eyes and kiss yourself goodbye adn think about the times you've spent and what they've meant, to me its nothing
10.24.2004
comin' down the world turned over
and angels fall without you there
and i go on as you get colder
or are you someone's prayer...
baby's black balloon makes her fly
i almost fell into that hole in your life
and you're not thinking about tomorrow
cause you were the same as me
...but on your knees
black balloon.
mehhh someone shoot me, or at elast smack me. i ate a cheeseburger at mcdonalds. ewwwy. i feel so gross. i was doing so well with eating healthy foods and stuff. and then we just HAD to stop at mcdonalds and i just HAD to get a stupid calorie stuffed cheeseburger... EWW.
i need to do some like.. sit ups or crunches or something. yuck. now before you jump to conclusions, you have to understand that my mom is a HEALTH FREAK. healthy healthy healthy, picky picky picky. so i always feel guilty when i eat omething gross. adn she raised me to like... be against mcdonalds, and kfc. so... yuck. and i goal is to eat healthy. yes EAT HEALTHY. thats it, im not like, one of those people who counts calories and is obsessed and all that, i just like to be aware. ya know what i mean? i dont think theres anything wrong with that.gosh, no wonder im in the fat club with be and meark.
red sox won last night? yahoo! we're just, on a rolllll!
i have so so so so so soo much home work to do right now. gosh, im such a good procrastinator.
i have two stupid bug bites that itch like helllllll. i mean, what the heck? there arent any bug out anymore? this doesnt make any sense...
oh i saw that movie "the forgotten" if oyu want to see it, then skip over this next paragraph, cuz idont want to be held responsible for ruining the ending (which by the way does not make any sense). ook you see... at the beginning, the movie had a TON of potential. like... it was a great plot that was being layed out in front of it all, but then you see... where the heck do all the missing people go?? ya know? and what are these other things? aliens? it never says what they are, or where they're from, or where the people actually go. and like... when they get sucked out of the air, do they die? thers just sooo mayn unanswered questions; oh and at the end, the guy is alive again! and they have their kids back. ok so she runs up and finnaly gets to have sam back. is it a dream? or is it for real? is it one of those memories that she has? and when she goes to sit next to the guy on the swings (were still talking about the end), and she introduces herself, he says something like "we';ve already met" or something like that. does he remember alllll they went through to get their kids back? or is she the only one? like.. is that code for "i know i know, you and i just had the adventure of a life time rescuiing our kids from whos know where"? and like... that stalker guy, the one who the lady telly keeps seeing, he says that its all an experiment, what are they experimenting for? he says that "we cant understand the emotional attachment that parents have with their children" so he was trying to find out what exactly? if they ARE emotionally attacheted? and like... also, when everyones memory is erased, and the lady is trying to explain to them about her son, and they other people are like "What are you talking about" what do they think she has been doing for the past 11 years of her life? shes been raising a kid has she not? apparently they think she wasnt, so what DO they think she was doing? i dono.. it was just.. wicked weird. my dad is so pissed that he doesnt get it , he was liek "ahh rach that was such a rip off, it was suposed to be good!" oh well...
just tell me if you go and see it!!
ok.. the sox game is on. .... what the heck am i going here typing?
math sucks. it relly does. this proof thing is realy killin me. it relly is.
hello hello?
goodnight, i need my chap stick, like... wicked bad. no joke.
sagapo, miss rachel
and i go on as you get colder
or are you someone's prayer...
baby's black balloon makes her fly
i almost fell into that hole in your life
and you're not thinking about tomorrow
cause you were the same as me
...but on your knees
black balloon.
mehhh someone shoot me, or at elast smack me. i ate a cheeseburger at mcdonalds. ewwwy. i feel so gross. i was doing so well with eating healthy foods and stuff. and then we just HAD to stop at mcdonalds and i just HAD to get a stupid calorie stuffed cheeseburger... EWW.
i need to do some like.. sit ups or crunches or something. yuck. now before you jump to conclusions, you have to understand that my mom is a HEALTH FREAK. healthy healthy healthy, picky picky picky. so i always feel guilty when i eat omething gross. adn she raised me to like... be against mcdonalds, and kfc. so... yuck. and i goal is to eat healthy. yes EAT HEALTHY. thats it, im not like, one of those people who counts calories and is obsessed and all that, i just like to be aware. ya know what i mean? i dont think theres anything wrong with that.gosh, no wonder im in the fat club with be and meark.
red sox won last night? yahoo! we're just, on a rolllll!
i have so so so so so soo much home work to do right now. gosh, im such a good procrastinator.
i have two stupid bug bites that itch like helllllll. i mean, what the heck? there arent any bug out anymore? this doesnt make any sense...
oh i saw that movie "the forgotten" if oyu want to see it, then skip over this next paragraph, cuz idont want to be held responsible for ruining the ending (which by the way does not make any sense). ook you see... at the beginning, the movie had a TON of potential. like... it was a great plot that was being layed out in front of it all, but then you see... where the heck do all the missing people go?? ya know? and what are these other things? aliens? it never says what they are, or where they're from, or where the people actually go. and like... when they get sucked out of the air, do they die? thers just sooo mayn unanswered questions; oh and at the end, the guy is alive again! and they have their kids back. ok so she runs up and finnaly gets to have sam back. is it a dream? or is it for real? is it one of those memories that she has? and when she goes to sit next to the guy on the swings (were still talking about the end), and she introduces herself, he says something like "we';ve already met" or something like that. does he remember alllll they went through to get their kids back? or is she the only one? like.. is that code for "i know i know, you and i just had the adventure of a life time rescuiing our kids from whos know where"? and like... that stalker guy, the one who the lady telly keeps seeing, he says that its all an experiment, what are they experimenting for? he says that "we cant understand the emotional attachment that parents have with their children" so he was trying to find out what exactly? if they ARE emotionally attacheted? and like... also, when everyones memory is erased, and the lady is trying to explain to them about her son, and they other people are like "What are you talking about" what do they think she has been doing for the past 11 years of her life? shes been raising a kid has she not? apparently they think she wasnt, so what DO they think she was doing? i dono.. it was just.. wicked weird. my dad is so pissed that he doesnt get it , he was liek "ahh rach that was such a rip off, it was suposed to be good!" oh well...
just tell me if you go and see it!!
ok.. the sox game is on. .... what the heck am i going here typing?
math sucks. it relly does. this proof thing is realy killin me. it relly is.
hello hello?
goodnight, i need my chap stick, like... wicked bad. no joke.
sagapo, miss rachel
10.23.2004
white hearts [my heart is WHITE]
they told me so. and they never lie, they told me that too.
today i had a TON of fun. i really did. *smiles* even though i couldnt hang out with be, meark, tina, and reaney, i still had fun cuz i got to hang out with bret! lets see...
my mom woke me up this morning from a dead cold sleep. and she made me get up to go to demitras soccer game which started at 10. that was pretty fun. she lost *tear* but it was still agood game. ahh it was sooo cold this morning, i was wearing tons of layers, a hat, and gloves and everything andi was STILL cold. this stupid NE weather is crrraaaazyy. then i came home, and trieddddd to make plans with be, meark, tina, reaney and bret to all go to bradley palmer, but they thought it was gonna be crappy weather so wwe didnt all hang out together. tooo bad. aaand ummm.. yeah. then i made plans with bret!
on his way to a barn thats near my house, bret and his mom picked me up. there, we walked around alookat at alllll the horsess there. they were GORGOUES. and then we went for a walk to a barn two houses away which was where they kept maestro, him mom brendas horse. man is he pretty. hes like.. rick chocolate brown and has a white spot on his forhead. its soooo prettyyy, and i got to feed him a carrot. yup yup. then we walked further down old right road, untill we got to my street, and then we turned around and walked back to the first barn, where his mom was cleaning out stalls. sooo after that we went to bret's house, and his mom took a shower and him and i just hung out for a while. then we left to go to the first church in ipswich, the one where his family belongs too. aaaaand on our way we went to Marini's cuz we were planning on doing a bit of pumpkin carving. and of course, bret picked out a giant pumpkin that him and i were suppsoed to carve. 42 lbs. haha. and then we went to his church.
i had only been there a few times before, for random things. and we went there because they were hosting a ham and bean dinner as a fund raiser to pay for a tradgedy involving two of the church's members. lonng story. other peoples buisness should not be advertised online. if you want to check out about it. read the ipswich chronicle. ok so aaaanyway. joey, bret, their mom, and i all helped out by serving witcked cute old people for 2 hours. clearing their plates. taking drink orders. passing out bread baskets. giveing people plates of food. it was sooo much fun. i got to wear an apron and everything! Brenda made brownies and rice krispy treats and everything for dessert. ahh the brownies were soooo gooooddddd. there was like.. caramel and chocolate and like.. ahh they were just delicious. she is a GREAT coook. fantastic. sooo that was fun. we got there early, and stayed there late. after everyone left, there were TONS of people that came. we helped clean up and put away all the chairs and throw away trash left on the tables. it was realllly cool.. i love helping people. i just.. i love volenteering my time because its soooo rewarding. paul, a guy there, he said that bret and i could get credit for doing community service! bret has to do that now, i get to wait till second semester. i believe its six hours of community serivce that needs to be completed. and we both put in two! i reaaaaly enjoyed that. i would have never participated in that if i hadnt hung out with bret today. it was really neat. i'm sooo overwhelmingly glad that soo many people showed up. the outreach from the community was just.. incredible.
after that we went back to his house, and while bret took a shower, i played joey's red sox baseball video game. it was pretty neat, im wicked bad at hitting though. i had derek lowe out on the mound pitching and he was doing GREAT. i hadent played video games in sooooo long. i used toplay with my dad alllll the time. i dono why he stopped. i guess he finnaly grew up haha. i really did like that though. and then joey and i shot some hoops. then i got realllyy cold and went up stairs which was perfect timing cuz thats when bret finished taking a shower! ok so then.... we were supposed to carve pumpkins but we all just got so wrapped up in the so game to do anything else. haha. and andrew is soooooo cute. hes joey's and bret's hlaf brother i believe.... yeah. i thin thats it. ahh hes a handful, but hes cute. i wish i had a little baby brother. he can walk and all, but he cant talk yet. all i could underrstand was "no" haha. oh and i got to have some apple cider.. ilove that stuff.. i hadent had in waaaayyy to long, so long i cant rememebr drinking it, tasting it in my mouth. so then at about 9 45 keith drove me home...
it was realllyyy fun, i had a great day. im sooo happy that im a volenteer.
in my spare time, tahts really what i like to do. work for free. i used to think people were crazy when they did that. but i just.. i love it! i worked at habitat for humanity over the summer. heck, i had to in a way PAY to do that. that was realllyyyy coool!
man oh man. i wanna do that again sometime. for career day, i checked off community service. i can twait.. i hope i get that. i forget the other thing i checked off.
umm yeah. i have to go and watch the red sox games. im writing this during the seventh inning. sox are up, score is 9 7 sox. WOOT WOOT. oh yeah by the wayt we're playing the Cardinals. we're going to the world series baby... i can FEEL it. technically this is not the world series. this is still the american leauge champion ships. because the world seres is the american vs the national. so the winner of this mini series is going to be in the world series. haha. wicked confusing. yeah so WERE NOT IT THE GODAMN WORLD SERIES people. come on. this is not the WS. we'll get there eventualyl dont you worry your pretty little heads.
comment on all this. please. i want ot hear your opinion on how you think its going to turn out!!
love you, love you all...
[rachey]
you tantalize
today i had a TON of fun. i really did. *smiles* even though i couldnt hang out with be, meark, tina, and reaney, i still had fun cuz i got to hang out with bret! lets see...
my mom woke me up this morning from a dead cold sleep. and she made me get up to go to demitras soccer game which started at 10. that was pretty fun. she lost *tear* but it was still agood game. ahh it was sooo cold this morning, i was wearing tons of layers, a hat, and gloves and everything andi was STILL cold. this stupid NE weather is crrraaaazyy. then i came home, and trieddddd to make plans with be, meark, tina, reaney and bret to all go to bradley palmer, but they thought it was gonna be crappy weather so wwe didnt all hang out together. tooo bad. aaand ummm.. yeah. then i made plans with bret!
on his way to a barn thats near my house, bret and his mom picked me up. there, we walked around alookat at alllll the horsess there. they were GORGOUES. and then we went for a walk to a barn two houses away which was where they kept maestro, him mom brendas horse. man is he pretty. hes like.. rick chocolate brown and has a white spot on his forhead. its soooo prettyyy, and i got to feed him a carrot. yup yup. then we walked further down old right road, untill we got to my street, and then we turned around and walked back to the first barn, where his mom was cleaning out stalls. sooo after that we went to bret's house, and his mom took a shower and him and i just hung out for a while. then we left to go to the first church in ipswich, the one where his family belongs too. aaaaand on our way we went to Marini's cuz we were planning on doing a bit of pumpkin carving. and of course, bret picked out a giant pumpkin that him and i were suppsoed to carve. 42 lbs. haha. and then we went to his church.
i had only been there a few times before, for random things. and we went there because they were hosting a ham and bean dinner as a fund raiser to pay for a tradgedy involving two of the church's members. lonng story. other peoples buisness should not be advertised online. if you want to check out about it. read the ipswich chronicle. ok so aaaanyway. joey, bret, their mom, and i all helped out by serving witcked cute old people for 2 hours. clearing their plates. taking drink orders. passing out bread baskets. giveing people plates of food. it was sooo much fun. i got to wear an apron and everything! Brenda made brownies and rice krispy treats and everything for dessert. ahh the brownies were soooo gooooddddd. there was like.. caramel and chocolate and like.. ahh they were just delicious. she is a GREAT coook. fantastic. sooo that was fun. we got there early, and stayed there late. after everyone left, there were TONS of people that came. we helped clean up and put away all the chairs and throw away trash left on the tables. it was realllly cool.. i love helping people. i just.. i love volenteering my time because its soooo rewarding. paul, a guy there, he said that bret and i could get credit for doing community service! bret has to do that now, i get to wait till second semester. i believe its six hours of community serivce that needs to be completed. and we both put in two! i reaaaaly enjoyed that. i would have never participated in that if i hadnt hung out with bret today. it was really neat. i'm sooo overwhelmingly glad that soo many people showed up. the outreach from the community was just.. incredible.
after that we went back to his house, and while bret took a shower, i played joey's red sox baseball video game. it was pretty neat, im wicked bad at hitting though. i had derek lowe out on the mound pitching and he was doing GREAT. i hadent played video games in sooooo long. i used toplay with my dad alllll the time. i dono why he stopped. i guess he finnaly grew up haha. i really did like that though. and then joey and i shot some hoops. then i got realllyy cold and went up stairs which was perfect timing cuz thats when bret finished taking a shower! ok so then.... we were supposed to carve pumpkins but we all just got so wrapped up in the so game to do anything else. haha. and andrew is soooooo cute. hes joey's and bret's hlaf brother i believe.... yeah. i thin thats it. ahh hes a handful, but hes cute. i wish i had a little baby brother. he can walk and all, but he cant talk yet. all i could underrstand was "no" haha. oh and i got to have some apple cider.. ilove that stuff.. i hadent had in waaaayyy to long, so long i cant rememebr drinking it, tasting it in my mouth. so then at about 9 45 keith drove me home...
it was realllyyy fun, i had a great day. im sooo happy that im a volenteer.
in my spare time, tahts really what i like to do. work for free. i used to think people were crazy when they did that. but i just.. i love it! i worked at habitat for humanity over the summer. heck, i had to in a way PAY to do that. that was realllyyyy coool!
man oh man. i wanna do that again sometime. for career day, i checked off community service. i can twait.. i hope i get that. i forget the other thing i checked off.
umm yeah. i have to go and watch the red sox games. im writing this during the seventh inning. sox are up, score is 9 7 sox. WOOT WOOT. oh yeah by the wayt we're playing the Cardinals. we're going to the world series baby... i can FEEL it. technically this is not the world series. this is still the american leauge champion ships. because the world seres is the american vs the national. so the winner of this mini series is going to be in the world series. haha. wicked confusing. yeah so WERE NOT IT THE GODAMN WORLD SERIES people. come on. this is not the WS. we'll get there eventualyl dont you worry your pretty little heads.
comment on all this. please. i want ot hear your opinion on how you think its going to turn out!!
love you, love you all...
[rachey]
you tantalize
10.22.2004
you're everywhere to me
and when i close my eyes i see
you everything that makes me believe
im not alone
tonight there was a football gaaaameeee!
JV played away against Amesbury's JV team and kicked their BUTTT's, and then V Amesbury team came to play us at home and they kicked our buttt's. oh well. JV is like.. wicked good. i dont care what everyone says. cuz.. they're lying. i definetally think that there should be cheerleaders for the JV games. yeah, most definetally.
ummmm.. yeah. im honestly considering going out for the cheering squad next year. i dont care what people say, they can just shut up about all the crap they talk about. i want to see them try and do better. i mean sure if they're cheers were louder and more.. upbeat then it'd be a plus, but hey at least they're trying. i'm up there on the stands screaming their cheers. heck, i think im gonna try out. i just dont want to be talked about behind my back. screw those people that are so stupid and retarted to go and do that. plus the cheerleaders go to like.. state and county competitions, and its a lot of work. do you know how often they practice? and it shows that they are flexible, and persistent and coordinated. i mean... come on people. show some fucking credit.
i dont mean to swear but i dont know how else to get my point across.. ya know? you ever feel so strongly about something that you just.. you dont even know where to begin when you try to explain it to other people. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i wanna scream. just .. scream at the top of my lungs. i dont want anyone to hear me though. its not one of those screams for attention. its one of those screams to like.. release your anger, and get rid of all teh stres of everything.
oh yeahhhhh for my dance studio, i got a sweatshirt! its like.. white/grey.. you know.. one of those. and it has a zip up the front, and on the left sleeve it says my name.. "Rachel" and i wicked should have gotten "Miss Rachel" cuz thats what they call me there. but only now, when i saw it, did i just realize that. and on the back it says "Northshore Preforming Arts Center: and it has the picture logo. its pretty coooool.. i wish i had gotten it in black though. i didnt know we could get it in black, i found out AFTER i had ordered the white/grey one. i believe we order them from JUngle Outlet downtown. i looooove that place. i want everything there... just... EVERYthing. Kayla's mom works there.. the lucky duck.
u,mmmm yeah, i gave Kayla her birthday present. a picutre. of a retarted dog. a chuiwawa. i cant spell for beans. i wouldnt spell for beans anyway. i don oif she liked it. but i found it while i was cleaning out my drawrs in my umm.. well im not even going to try to attem,pt to spell it, but the place where you fold you clothes and then you put them in the drawers. yeah, that thing. that word is wicked retarted. i think its french. it starts with a B and has like.. every single ovwel in it or something. what the heck?
ok and yeah, im gonan go to sleep. cuz my neck hurts from holding my head up all day. and i know that sounds wicked weird, but, it does. it must be because i have so much stuff in my head cuz im so wickedly smart, and i learned a lot today, so its just.. weighing me down. yeah, thats it.
and by the way, i wicked missed ms.be lowell. cuz shes in maine (so i heared) with youth group ( i know that for sure). i know shes only there for like.. tonight, but shes ALWAYS at the gamess.... playing her lovely flute! and i buy her a water and a twisler and she wasnt there so it fellt.. sooo weird. shes a big piece in the puzzle of my life. she'll be back tomorrow though. *smile*
tomorrow i think im going with be, mark, bret, tina, and reaney to bradley palmer state park cuz its SOOO beautiful there, and we'll just like.. hang out. i guess. but i cant finalize our plans cuz ms be isnt even HERE. goodness me.
ok yep, my head is definetally falling off my shoulders... *plunk* there it goes. on my carpet floor. shoot.
love you, so much.
i'm gonna go scream now. scream at my head thats lying on the floor next to me.
you everything that makes me believe
im not alone
tonight there was a football gaaaameeee!
JV played away against Amesbury's JV team and kicked their BUTTT's, and then V Amesbury team came to play us at home and they kicked our buttt's. oh well. JV is like.. wicked good. i dont care what everyone says. cuz.. they're lying. i definetally think that there should be cheerleaders for the JV games. yeah, most definetally.
ummmm.. yeah. im honestly considering going out for the cheering squad next year. i dont care what people say, they can just shut up about all the crap they talk about. i want to see them try and do better. i mean sure if they're cheers were louder and more.. upbeat then it'd be a plus, but hey at least they're trying. i'm up there on the stands screaming their cheers. heck, i think im gonna try out. i just dont want to be talked about behind my back. screw those people that are so stupid and retarted to go and do that. plus the cheerleaders go to like.. state and county competitions, and its a lot of work. do you know how often they practice? and it shows that they are flexible, and persistent and coordinated. i mean... come on people. show some fucking credit.
i dont mean to swear but i dont know how else to get my point across.. ya know? you ever feel so strongly about something that you just.. you dont even know where to begin when you try to explain it to other people. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i wanna scream. just .. scream at the top of my lungs. i dont want anyone to hear me though. its not one of those screams for attention. its one of those screams to like.. release your anger, and get rid of all teh stres of everything.
oh yeahhhhh for my dance studio, i got a sweatshirt! its like.. white/grey.. you know.. one of those. and it has a zip up the front, and on the left sleeve it says my name.. "Rachel" and i wicked should have gotten "Miss Rachel" cuz thats what they call me there. but only now, when i saw it, did i just realize that. and on the back it says "Northshore Preforming Arts Center: and it has the picture logo. its pretty coooool.. i wish i had gotten it in black though. i didnt know we could get it in black, i found out AFTER i had ordered the white/grey one. i believe we order them from JUngle Outlet downtown. i looooove that place. i want everything there... just... EVERYthing. Kayla's mom works there.. the lucky duck.
u,mmmm yeah, i gave Kayla her birthday present. a picutre. of a retarted dog. a chuiwawa. i cant spell for beans. i wouldnt spell for beans anyway. i don oif she liked it. but i found it while i was cleaning out my drawrs in my umm.. well im not even going to try to attem,pt to spell it, but the place where you fold you clothes and then you put them in the drawers. yeah, that thing. that word is wicked retarted. i think its french. it starts with a B and has like.. every single ovwel in it or something. what the heck?
ok and yeah, im gonan go to sleep. cuz my neck hurts from holding my head up all day. and i know that sounds wicked weird, but, it does. it must be because i have so much stuff in my head cuz im so wickedly smart, and i learned a lot today, so its just.. weighing me down. yeah, thats it.
and by the way, i wicked missed ms.be lowell. cuz shes in maine (so i heared) with youth group ( i know that for sure). i know shes only there for like.. tonight, but shes ALWAYS at the gamess.... playing her lovely flute! and i buy her a water and a twisler and she wasnt there so it fellt.. sooo weird. shes a big piece in the puzzle of my life. she'll be back tomorrow though. *smile*
tomorrow i think im going with be, mark, bret, tina, and reaney to bradley palmer state park cuz its SOOO beautiful there, and we'll just like.. hang out. i guess. but i cant finalize our plans cuz ms be isnt even HERE. goodness me.
ok yep, my head is definetally falling off my shoulders... *plunk* there it goes. on my carpet floor. shoot.
love you, so much.
i'm gonna go scream now. scream at my head thats lying on the floor next to me.
10.20.2004
They told me you had been to her
And mentioned me to him:
And gave me a good character,
But said I could not swim.
He sent them word I had not gone
(We know it to be true):
If she should push the matter on,
What would become of you?
I gave her one, they gave him two,
You gave us three or more;
They all returned from him to you,
Though they were mine before.
If I or she should chance to be
Involved in this affair,
He trusts to you to set them free,
Exactly as we were.
My notion was that you had been
(Before she had this fit)
An obstacle that came between
Him, and ourselves, and it.
Don’t let him know she liked them best,
For this must ever be
A secret, kept from all the rest,
Between yourself and me.”
The White Rabbits Evidence
Alice In Wonderland
And gave me a good character,
But said I could not swim.
He sent them word I had not gone
(We know it to be true):
If she should push the matter on,
What would become of you?
I gave her one, they gave him two,
You gave us three or more;
They all returned from him to you,
Though they were mine before.
If I or she should chance to be
Involved in this affair,
He trusts to you to set them free,
Exactly as we were.
My notion was that you had been
(Before she had this fit)
An obstacle that came between
Him, and ourselves, and it.
Don’t let him know she liked them best,
For this must ever be
A secret, kept from all the rest,
Between yourself and me.”
The White Rabbits Evidence
Alice In Wonderland
10.18.2004
They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew
And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway
Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here unknown
And your mother loves your father
'Cause she's got nowhere to go
And she wonders where these dreams go
'Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying
Nothing's changing anyway
They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you're falling anyway
And you know I see right through you
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screamin'
You're not listening anyway
Acoustic #3
can you say c.a.s.c.a.d.e. ...
i dedicate this poem to every person i have ever met throughout my life, you know who you are.
Together we've been through everything,
Some good times and some bad.
Some things have made us happy,
Others made us sad.
But no matter what has happened,
Through our tears and our mistakes,
You've always been here for me
To fix my heart before it breaks.
We've gone from heartaches to headaches,
Gone from fights to fears.
But I've always seen you by my side,
To pick me up and dry my tears.
Through the rain or sunshine,
Whether it may be wind or snow,
I can always count on you to be there
Wherever we may go.
Even through our different troubles,
The won'ts the can'ts the will's,
You'd travel any distance,
Mountains, roads or hills.
Announcements or secrets,
Whatever they may be,
I'll always be here to lend an ear,
You can always count on me.
We've shared our secrets with each other,
And it continues going strong.
We've stayed best friends through decisions made
Whether they be right or wrong.
As our lives change back and forth,
From one thing to another,
We will always stay in contact,
Be best friends forever.
Through the years we've grown so close,
And I wish for hundreds more.
But if you need help then I'll be here
...Because that's what friends are for.
i wonder what your thinking
and everything your chasing
...it seems to leave you empty.
Dear diary,
so pen in hand i sneak it out
spreading this shame across the page
soundlessly sharing this poisonous painful secret
breaking the
strangling
murderous
silence
i wish i coudl save the world... like supergirl
CHECK YA LATER PEEPS. haha, love you,
its like a private joke... just meant for us to know
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew
And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway
Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here unknown
And your mother loves your father
'Cause she's got nowhere to go
And she wonders where these dreams go
'Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying
Nothing's changing anyway
They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you're falling anyway
And you know I see right through you
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screamin'
You're not listening anyway
Acoustic #3
can you say c.a.s.c.a.d.e. ...
i dedicate this poem to every person i have ever met throughout my life, you know who you are.
Together we've been through everything,
Some good times and some bad.
Some things have made us happy,
Others made us sad.
But no matter what has happened,
Through our tears and our mistakes,
You've always been here for me
To fix my heart before it breaks.
We've gone from heartaches to headaches,
Gone from fights to fears.
But I've always seen you by my side,
To pick me up and dry my tears.
Through the rain or sunshine,
Whether it may be wind or snow,
I can always count on you to be there
Wherever we may go.
Even through our different troubles,
The won'ts the can'ts the will's,
You'd travel any distance,
Mountains, roads or hills.
Announcements or secrets,
Whatever they may be,
I'll always be here to lend an ear,
You can always count on me.
We've shared our secrets with each other,
And it continues going strong.
We've stayed best friends through decisions made
Whether they be right or wrong.
As our lives change back and forth,
From one thing to another,
We will always stay in contact,
Be best friends forever.
Through the years we've grown so close,
And I wish for hundreds more.
But if you need help then I'll be here
...Because that's what friends are for.
i wonder what your thinking
and everything your chasing
...it seems to leave you empty.
Dear diary,
so pen in hand i sneak it out
spreading this shame across the page
soundlessly sharing this poisonous painful secret
breaking the
strangling
murderous
silence
i wish i coudl save the world... like supergirl
CHECK YA LATER PEEPS. haha, love you,
its like a private joke... just meant for us to know
acoustic #3
They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew
And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway
Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here unknown
And your mother loves your father
Cause she's got nowhere to go
And she wonders where these dreams go
'Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying
Nothing's changing anyway
They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you're falling anyway
And you know I see right through you
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screamin'
You're not listening anyway
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew
And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway
Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here unknown
And your mother loves your father
Cause she's got nowhere to go
And she wonders where these dreams go
'Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying
Nothing's changing anyway
They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you're falling anyway
And you know I see right through you
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screamin'
You're not listening anyway
