You're my sweet charade

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when youre falling apart
no clue where you are
ripping at the seems
loosing sight of dreams
fading out of sight
need to scream and fight
breaking SO far down
just about to drown
slapped in the face
losing hope for grace
lost and confused
abused and so misused
questioning your needs
commiting immoral deeds
dont know youre self at all
just about to hit a wall
just about to crumble
to dive, trip and stumble
longing for some love
anything, to rise above
shout out loud
stand tall and proud?
not, thats not me
nor could it ever be
not ready to move on
or reach out for the dawn
just need to sit and stare
to move? i wouldnt dare
one slip may spell doom
i'd just go "kaboom"
it'd all come rushing out
my eyes- a water spout
drowing in my tears
confessing all my fears
all my faults and sins

i could never.



where have you placed your mask, my darling?
did you leave it by the door?
might you need to go buy more?
has it solely been misplaced?
surely it's not on your face.

ive never seen you dressed down, my darling..
did you drop it by the stair?
put it down while at the fair?
could it lie under the bed?
oh dear, you look so dead.

we shall go buy you a new one, my darling..
do you like being a mess?
bogged down by so much stress?
pretending gets so hard, i know
but, on must go the show

we all depend upon you, my darling..
that smile kept us going
you need to keep it showing
pardon all our greed
such a pleasing act indeed

Spinning, laughing, dancing to
Her favorite song
A little girl with nothing wrong
Is all alone
Eyes wide open
Always hoping for the sun
And she'll sing her song to anyone
That comes along
Fragile as a leaf in autumn
Just fallin' to the ground
Without a sound
Spinning, laughing, dancing to her
Favorite song
A little girl with nothing wrong
And she's all alone
Crooked little smile on her face
Tells a tale of grace
That's all her own
Spinning, laughing, dancing to her
Favorite song
A little girl with nothing wrong
And she's all alone

what is that bible verse about when god says that if a man slaps you give him your other cheek to slap as well, or when a man takes the shirt off your back give him more, and however else it goes..

crappp, do comment if you think to you know, please!

love conquers all.

so how much do you sacrifice to help another? how much of yourself do you give our pour out for the benefit of somebody else?
we are called to serve god and to serve others, but where do you draw the line between lifting someone up and pushing your own self down.. is the second part even necessary to successfully complete the first?

REMINDER TO SELF: you are fulfilling gods call to serve others when and only when you are glorifying him through your servitude. god must remain the center of all things, then others, then yourself.

i want to know some good bible verses to help me out with this topic, where do i draw the line? i have a habit of living for others so much so that i no longer am living for myself, and, i dont think thats what we're called to do, i mean, maybe it is, but it sure hurts like hell.

Exodus 23:20
See, I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared.

Mark 12:33
To love him with all your heart, with all your understanding and with all your strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself is more important than all burnt offerings and sacrifices.

there will most likely be more added to this entry, or an entire other entry after this one haha, we'll see..

gaah i really really want to write that essay i've been thinking about.. perhaps i'll start it later because i couldn't possible start it now- i have approx 15 minutes till my dad gets here to pick me up for dinner

and im very very excited for bible study tonight considering we're going to be talk about how to serve others in love, and use our gifts and talents and qualities that god gave us to "fan them into flame and use them boldly to serve God's people" (scott Poblenz, in the email)

so i'll probably want to write about how that goes :) i'm thinking about not driving my car to the church in order to converse gas and oil (both of which i need very, very badly right now) and money (which im realized is very, very valuable)

and i really like jonathan taylor rose a lot www.myspace.com/jonathantaylorrose as well as jake coco :) ♥
gods blessing + peace + love

1 pete 3:8,9
8Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. 9Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing.

galatians 5:13,14
13You, my brothers, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the sinful nature[a]; rather, serve one another in love. 14The entire law is summed up in a single command: "Love your neighbor as yourself."

psalm 6
a psalm of david

1 O LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger
or discipline me in your wrath.
2 Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am faint;
O LORD, heal me, for my bones are in agony.

3 My soul is in anguish.
How long, O LORD, how long?

4 Turn, O LORD, and deliver me;
save me because of your unfailing love.

5 No one remembers you when he is dead.
Who praises you from the grave [b] ?

6 I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.

7 My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of all my foes.

8 Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the LORD has heard my weeping.

9 The LORD has heard my cry for mercy;
the LORD accepts my prayer.

10 All my enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;
they will turn back in sudden disgrace.

psalm 57: 7-10
my heart is stead fast O God my heart is steadfast
i will sing and make music
awake, my soul!
awake, harp and lyre!
i will awaken the dawn

i will praise you, o lord, among the nations
i will sing of you among the peoples
for great is your love, reaching to the heavens
you faithfulness reaches to the skies

psalm 56: 3,4,13
when i am afraid, i will trust in you
in god, whose word i praise
in god i truswt; i will not be afraid
what can mortal man do to me?

for you have delivered me from death,
and my feet from stumbling,
that i may walk before god in the light of life

psalm 57: 1-3
have mercy on me, o god, have mercy on me
for in you my soul takes refuge.
i will take refuge in the shadow of your wings
until the disaster has passed.
i cry out to god most high.
to god, who fulfills his purpose for me
he sends from heaven and saves me.
rebuking those who hotly pursue me
god sends his love and his faithfulness.

ruth 1:16-17
"...where you go, i will go, and where you stay i will stay. your people will be my people and your god my god. where you die i will die, and there i will be buried. may the lord deal with me, be it ever so severly, if anything but death seperates you and me."

hebrews 1:14
are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?

revelation 6:12-
there was a great earthquake, the sun turned black like sackcloth made of goat hair, the whole moon turned blood red, and the stars in the sky fell to earth... the sky receeded like a scroll, rolling up, and every mountian and island was removed from its place

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