You're my sweet charade

flea fly
flea fly floo
... [im not even going to try to repeat that abnoxious song]

so, kayla said the funniest thang to me today.

our phone conversation:

me: lots of kids cut their bangs when they're little though

kayla: no but, she went emo on her bangs

me: hahahahah i cant believe oyu just said that

kayla: she told her mom her brother did it

me: haha

kayla:... i don't think she even has a brother


hahahahahaaaa we're talking about an expierience at EDP at Doyon. looove it.

work was AWESOMEEEE today. i love working with kids! they're all seven years old.. what a blasst!
aaand i get to work with steve veiga, which is great, and we're both working there all summer together.
there were only 5 little girls there today. sydney, saskia (what an interesting cool name :D), becca, carina, and michaela (mc-kayla.. i've never seen it spell that way)
there were 9 boys there though, including 4 johns, 2 chris', a will, a sam, and an eric. holy craaap
i am soo happy i get to be incharge of a group, at least i'm not by myself (well.. except for like.. 1% of the time) with all the little rascles, i like having another person there, it's soo much less intimidating knowing that someone else is there too to share the responsibility with.

after camp, steve convinced me to go to the fitness room and get buff haha. i ran a mile, rode a bike 3 miles, then did 70 crunches. then i met back up with steve and stretchhhhed.
afterwards we were both waiting for our parents out in the lobby area and met up with spence and one of his friends.
it was pretty funny cuz spence is soooo smart that he bragged about how terrible he is at basketball.
haha
and then my dad came to pick me up and everyone was making fun of me telling me to show up tomorrow, cuz they all know now that id idnt show up yesterday and i told them to shut up and i was gonna be late haha.

then my dad and i went as got gas, we almost went to the place with the perverted people downtown, but lucky that place was 15 cents more expensive than cumbys- where we ended up going. theeen we had chinese, my faaavorite.
then i came home.

i called kayla and we talked on the fone for god knows how long about eeeeverything. i love doing that..
camp
edp
"the talk" in fifth grade
other people working at the camp
what the little girls were saying today
her boyfriend
something that happened when she was ten

it was wonderrrful.

ahhh so tomorrow steve and i along with brendan and some other girl are going ot be in a skit. oh maaaan, i cant believe i said yes. i'm not all that stressed... sort of. i have noo i dea what im suposed to do though. we were going to do it at lunch today for the kids, but then it got postponed to the end-of-the-day tree time, but then it got postponed AGAIN to tomorrow tree time.. ahh. i just sorta want to get it over with. supposibly it has something to do with baking a cake and someone dying. i'm "the frantic person who runs in and screams, and then calls for a doctor", steves the director, who has to tell us we're horrible actors and comes up with other ways to do it (ex- silent film, karate style, soap operaish.. ya know.. ) , brendan is the doctor.. i think, and the other girl is i dono.. the one who dies? who knows... brendan didnt really explain it al that well, either that or i wasnt paying attention.

soo it's wicked wicked wicked hot in my room. ridiculusly hot.

i'm gonna hit the sack because i'm exausted after my first day of reallll work.

TOMORROW IS THE BEST FUCKING DAY EVERRRRR- i can't tell you why though.. not yet anyway. : D : D : D
who can sayy "freedom"???

the little girls in my group decorated one of the pages in my binder thing.. oh goooosh. it says "rachel rocks everything" on it in bublle letters. and then it says "rachel is the best camp cowncaller ever" ahhhh who can say CUTEST THING YOU'VE EVER SEEN IN YOUR ENTIRE LIFEE???

love, really, rachellll

p.s. fucking freedomm. cutest thing you've ever seen in your entire lifee.

where have you gone?




ahhh it's so nice out and i'm soo bored. i wish i had a basketball pump. i think i'm going to walk across the street to the neighbors house and ask if i can borow theirs, mainly, because sitting here is killing slowly but surely.

i was supposed to go into work today. oopsehh. they didn't call me, or even mail me my schedual for the summer. thanks guys. i feel like the love. i still dont know which age group i'll be working with. i can't wait to find out. really.

i really want to hang out with a bunhc of people and have a bon fire on the beach. do you know how much fun that would be? i guess you need a permit or something? whhyy?

i went to a bridal shower yesterday, it was coool. no wait, it was saturday never mind. i got to see my cousins, which was fun. i'm wicked pumped cuz zach said he'd take me out driving once i can! i get my permit in september.... thats not too far off, right? and plus tehy live only in beverly so it's relativley near-by. i didn't get to see ang, my love, cuz shes away living with the indians. i think it'd be pretty cool to do that- go away for a month or so and live in an entierly different culture. she better have taken poictures or else i'll be very, very disappointed in her little adventurous self.

i have to babysit today for lack of being at work, so i better go make sure the two little cute-as-a-button dumplings don't burn the house down or anything. yeah, cute. pffft. time to go swimming! i love having a poool.

oh yea, and play some basketball. whup erica's buttt.



the pictures we lok the best in are the ones where we're making fools out of ourselves. wouldn't you agree? it shows personality.



much <3 [love], rachaay

oh baby it's impossible
for me to love you
this way
it's impossible
if youre making it this way
impossible to make it easy
if you're always trying to make it so damn hard

i love cristina aguilera. well, obviously. her stripped cd is greeaaat. some wierd form of pop/soul/latino.

today was tinas surpise party! and she was actually suprised! wooo!! andi, be, kerry, tina, and i were all there. it was funnn! we all went swimming about 4 or 5 times, i dono even know how many, and the water was SOO COLD. but thats ok, we had to cool off. at one point we were playing this badmitton form game.. i dono what its called, but tehres different rackets and an actual ball, and it was in the water.. oh goodness. we tried playing frisbee with these mini frisbees the size of coasters and that was.... not effective at all. we gave up. we ende dup going for a walk, the five of us, and ran into mark maney, mark kozazcki, and mike krathwhol. actually.. they astarted pegging a tennis ball at us. after kerry ended up getting thrown into the water a couple times and we traded holding teh skittles about 20 times cuz no one wanted to hold the bag, we managed to get ahld of the tennis ball. haha. mike was flirting with everyone, which was wicked cute and soo entertaining, as usual. everyone i think ended up in the water, and we were all throwing dirt and sand and SEAWEED (ew.. gross) at eachother, mark maney started it. ehhh i hate seaweeeed. i cant ewven handle it... not the seaweed.. anotehr concept that i dont really feel belongs advertised online. umm. yah.. soo. then i threw the ball into the sand dunes and people actually ran for it, though theyre endangered or something and youre not supposed to walk on them. oh wellll. so.. that was a whole lot of fun. and when we got back to our spot, mark mark and mikes spot was right nearby, and mike managed to snag one of our coolers and him and mark maney took out the pringles or something. oh and mark thought it'd be a good idea to try and throw skittles into mikes mouth.. who was about 30 feet away in the water. i dont think mike caught any. btu it was a compelete waste of a wicked lot amount of skittles. it was funny to watch their stupidity though. eventualyl we ghot around to having icecream cake.. mm mm goood. then we left and deb gave everyone a ride home.

oh yeah.. and on wednesday was kati's partaay!! oh god.. well, i walked there.. almost all the way there anyway, but then ms.killian, my spanish teachers sister in law/classroom aid in ms.lamprons class/one of my jazz students mothers saw me walking and pulle dover and from about 100 feet away screamed "RACHY!? IS THAT YOU?" hahha so i ran over and shes like "oh gosh! i thought it was you! here here get in where are you going, i'll give oyu a ride" hahahaa. it was the coolest thing ever! shes soo nice! i loove her to death. and i got to see my little madison too! shes the cutest little dancer you've ever seen. awwww i love the fam. but anyway she totally paused her daily schedual and gave me a ride to katis house, someone whom shes never met before. hahaa. turns out ms.killians my neighbor!!! how cool is taht> they're definetally a family i'd like to stay in contat with. DEFINETALLY. buty anyway.. i got there and there were already some people there. so once more peopl arrived we went out front and played four square.. cuz we're wicked cooll. and then once all the boys got there we went outback and played baseballl, well.. wiffle ball, frisbee, hung around, did ya know, stuff. and thenn eventually we went inside and had cake and everything, but then we went ou back outside and started agame of FUCKING MAN HUNT. well.. i hate the dark. actually. ilm terrified of the dark. i CRY in the dark. so, bret and i were partners and we were the ones being hunted so we were hiding behind trees together and stuff, and he got way ahead of me at one point and OMG I was like waaaaat are you doing!? and we totally wierded julie out cuz shes like "guys? is someone back there? whos behind those trees!? hello!??!" and i wa sliek "BRET DONT SAY ANYTHING SHH" and by now peopel had said the game was over and we should come out. and when we didnt, julie turns around from being like.. 15 feet away and was like "omg guys, i've been talking to a tree" and bret had to go and rtuin it and was like "no acutally. we're here haah:" it was funneh though. buttt anyway, then we had to be the people who were gaurding stuff, and i volunteered to be the jail gaurd, cuz the last thing i wanted to do in the middle of the night was run around in creepeh bushes and trees. so i was standing tehre, minding my own buisness, and then i heard this wierd hissing sound. and i rememberd how kati said there were snakes in her yard. so, my first though "snakes.. oh nat, i dont mind a snake" but then it hit me that i was all alone in the ark and tehre were people who had no idea what was going on so i screaming "OMG THERES A FUCKING SNAKE OUT EHRE AHHHHH" and i screamed for about ten minutes. meanwhile, tehre was a hissing noise coming from the other partt of the lawn. so there was one about 5 feet from me, and another 10 feet awa and they kept getting louder, so OBVIUOSLY they must have been coming closer. so i screamed and screamed and screamed and i ran over to pam's truck, climbed into the back, where kati was and was like "OMG WHAT DO WE DO OMG OMG" and i was like. shaking her shoulders, and shes like "RACH, STOP. STOP. STOP. STOP. be quiet, theres nothing to worry about." ... turns out Bob thought it'd be funny to turn the sprinkler system on. WHAT? BOB FOR GODS SAKE.holy fuck i was scared out of my mind from a sprinkler. BUT SINCE WHEN DO SPRINKLERS HISS? and it definuetalyl wasn't shooting water. omg. aaahhhhhhh I HATE MAN HUNT. so then i decided that i wasnt going to gaurd the jail anymore, and moved to the goal where there were already people. so, i was pacing back and forth trying not to cry and trying to keep myself occupied and focused on the task at hand when there was this sudden CLICK HUM BANG. so obviuosly i jumped out my skin, whipped aroun and screamed.. again. i had no idea what the heck could make a noise liek that... turns out it was the AC. and i mean a big one, its outside and sits on the ground by the house. OMFG. it was like the entire concept of man hunt was against me. and of course the peopel atanding at the goal with me were laughing their asses off. ashley paquin, jamie linquist aaaand i forget who else. yeah.. NOT COOL. so then i was even more freaked out and i couldnt tell in the dark who was who, so every five secods i pointed and said "WHOS THAT!?" and i'd hear tehm say "nate " or "andi" i had to have asked andi about 20 times. but tehn someone comes runnign by behind me so i spun around and slapped them, tagged them, and nate goes "OWWWW" and i was liek oh sorry. but then he klept doing it and i didnt know it was him at all so i'd keep tagging him, but it freaked me out cuz he'd run out of the bushes suddenly and i was liek "AHHHH" cuz i didnt know it was anyone. oh goddd. and then, when we switched again, my team was outback talking and we were all huddled into this little circle, and once i had heard the plan i spun right around and tehre was this THING there. and i was liek "AHHHHHHHH" .. turns out it was sam. he goes "..all i wanted to do was ask to make the circle bigger." but omg.. it was soo creepy. cuz i just turned around and there was this PERSON there. i had no idea who it was and i didnt know they were there. i wouldve like. shoved him over if i turned around any faster. oh goddddd.. but then, randomly people starting running out from everywhere and it didnt make any sense cuz it couldnt ahve been the other team cuz they were def not counting yet, and i started running around screaming cuz i thought peopel were like.. attacking. i was soo fucking stressed out that night i cant even explain it. so i ran right into jack cuz i was too busy being scared out of my mind to watch where i was going. so then i decided i was NOT playing this game ever again. so went and sat down in the jail, the front steps, and i put my head in my hands and waited for it to be over. i hate man hunt, it's took intense for me.

sometimes i wonder if i had some kind of tramua when i was little to make me so afraid of the dark.

but anyweay, so after teh guys left, us girls got ready for bed and talked untill.. god knows when. but i was only in there half the time. i brought one of those feather comforters, which are sooo comfortable. except allt he feathers were like... at the edges so there was no padding on the hardwood floors at all and i just decided to go into the other room, alone, to sleep on the couch. theres french doors in between the two rooms so it wasnt dark or anything, i just didnt like the fact that there was a door right next to me that went out to the porch too. i was too tierd to really care though. but i still coudnt get to sleep though cuz everyone was talking, adn even though it wasnt an interesting convo at all, i couldnt zone away from it. ya know? i try to ignore things and get my mind on something else but i just couldnt, something was tugging me into the other room to listen. i stayed on the couch for about 2 1/2 hours just laying there and eventually i fell asleep and i woke up early, about 8:45 and i couldnt get back to sleep, as usual,so i layed there for almost an hour. then all us girls got up and had a splended breakfast, hmm, cinnamon bagles and cinnamon scones and it was deliiish. and then everyone started leaving, and i was the last one to be picked up, so while kati got ready for teh day i hung out with pam and we talkeddd and stuff. then dan came to pick me up and i hung out with dem the rest of the day.

whoa that took a whole lot out of me.

this sunburn fucking kills. ahhh

ive been playing my guitar a lot lately. i love my guitar. i want an electric. any donations??

ok, so, it's about time i give everyone an update. kris and i are no longer goin out or any of that, cuz it was turning out to be a little pointless. i mean.. it was cometpley sudden and i didnt see it coming at all and obviuosly i was way dissapointed, [sad face] and i dont like this at all. but, kris is right, we never ever ever get to see eachother, so it wasnt worth it really. i like this though, i feel sort of.. free. i mean. sumemrs coming, and i'm gonan be out and about and now i dont have to worry about having that little vioce in the back of my head tell me "rachell. stop.. you ahve a boyfriend" cuz.. i dont have one!

lovely.

i love summer woo hooo it still hasnt really hit me though, like. it just hasnt but it will!.. i hope.

i have soo many people i wanna hang out with this summer. i dont have any timeee!! but i do want to have a busy summer, not like last year, last year was BOOORING. but now, i know more people, high school has done me some good. i met some wicked cool peopel from other grades, so now it's not just my close friend si hav eto hang out with,. i can go out on a limb or two, this is gonna be great. call the cell anytime if you have the number, leave a message WITH YOUR FONE NUMBER please even if i dont answer. i like to know that i'm thought about. [smile] it boosts my self esteem and grants you a rain date to hang out. either way, it's all good!

i cant wait to get my work schedual in the mail! I CANT FUCKING WAIT for anything that has to do with work! woo hoo. i am a working woman. sweet. i liek that title, but i've deicded i dont' want to work the whole sumemr ever ever ever again, i know that now and i havent even started working yet. thats how sure of it i am. i want to have time for friends, plus next year i'll be driving myself around, and im def gonan be driving myself to the beach and to everyones houses next summer. YESSS I LOVE THIS. I LOVE THE HIGHSCHOOL YEARS> not so much highschoo... but eerything that happens DURING the time spent in highschool. ya know what i mean.

ok.. im exausted, and iw anna get to bed soon, and i want this sunburn to just stop burning, whenever i move its like getting an indian suburn.ahh. THE PAINN

at least it'll turn into a kick ass tan [smile]!

ok, im tierd. GOODNIGHT MY LOVERS. CALL ANYTIME.

love you all with all my heart, racheyy <3

He called me one morning into his chamber, where he was confined by the gout, and expostulated very warmly with me upon this subject: he asked me what reasons, more than a mere wandering inclination, I had for leaving my father's homeland and my native country, where i might be well introduced and had a prospect of rasing my fortune by application and industry, with a life of ease and pleasure. He rold me it was for men of desperate fortunes on one hand, or of aspiring syoerior fortunes on the other, who went abrod upon adventures, to ride by enterprise, and make themselves famous in undertaking of a nature out of the common road; that these thingswere all either too dar above me, or too far below me; that mine was the middle state or what might be called the upper sation of low life, which he had found by long experiences was the best state in the world, the most suited to human happiness, not exposed to the miseries and hardships, the labour and sufferings of the mechanic part of mankind, and not embarrassed with the pride, luxury, ambition, and envy of the upper part of mankind. told told me, i might judge of the happiness of this state, by this one thing, namely, that this was the state of life which all the other people envied; that kinds have frequently lamented the miserable consequences of being born to great things, and wish they had been placed in the middle of the two extremes, between the mean and the great; that the wise man gave his testimony to this, s the just standard of true felicity, when he prayed to have neither poverty nor riches.

he bade me observe it, and i should always find, that the calamities of life were shared above the upper and lower part of mankind, but that the middle station had the fewest disasters, and was not exposed to so many vicissitudes as the higher of lower part of mankind; nay, they were not subjected to so many distempers and uneasinesses either of body or mind, as those were who, by vicious living, luxury, and extravagencies on one hand, or by hard labour, want of necessaries, and mean or insufficient diet on the other hand, bring distempers upon themselves by the natural consequences of their way of living; that the middle station of life was calculated for all kind of virtues and all kind of enjoyments; that peace and plenty were the handmaids of a middle fortune; that temperance, moderation, quietness, health, society, all agreeable diversions, and all desirable pleasures, were the blessings attending the middle station of life, that this way men went silently and smoothly through the world, and comfortably out of it, not embarrassed with the labours of the hands or of the head, not sold to the life of slavery for daily bread, or harassed with the perplexed circumstances, which rob the soul of peace, abd the body of rest ; not enraged with the passion of envy, or the secret burning lust ambition for great things; but in easy circumstances sliding gently through the world, and sensibly tasting the sweets of living without the bitter, feeling that they are happy, and learning by everyday's experiences to know it more easily.




-Robinson Crusoe. by Daniel Defoe.

thats part of the book i'm reading for summer reading. its the o9nly one of the five i have to read that i actually own. yesss. might as well get started on it a.s.a.p.

i just posted that part in here (WHICH TOOK FOREVER TO TYPE BY THE WAY) because i thought it was pretty neet. sympathise for those les fortunate than you. the ones above and below you.


ok, well, it is time for me to go shopping for birthday presents. lovley.


wheres my mom? she was supposed to pick me up a while ago! oh well

with lots and lots of reading ahead, gahh,

<3 <3 <3 rachayy

1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house...they run
around in their underwear just like we do.

2. Don't cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each
other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and
you will get your ass kicked.

3. Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of
them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them
wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.

4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.

5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at
you, it's because they're jealous.

6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.

7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out
with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your
arms.

8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you
did. // If you DO sleep with them, don't tell your friends that you
did.

9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not
offended by it...

10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales.

11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do
discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your
girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your
friends will know you're a bitch. // Do you honestly need all your
money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!

12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend-
a stuffed animal, one of his shirts/sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring.
Even if it's not a serious relationship.

13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're
dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her
off, call to be sure she's home safely.

14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the shit out of him.

15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16. Never ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if
she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something,
never make any gestures back.

17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you
enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents
and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to
their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.

19. Don't flirt with their moms...that's just freaky.

20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does
make them feel like shit, so be understanding.

21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.

22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your
friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.

23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to
be with you.

24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.

26. Memorize their god damn birthdays. You forget her birthday and
you're basically screwed for life.

27. Don't marinade the cologne

28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or
Valentine's Day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be
meaningful. Jewlery is always nice.

29. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really
have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts
you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than
you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that
kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

30. Don't ever do anything wrong. Girls remember things for life and
anything you did wrong will be used against you in the future.

31. Never ever tell your girlfriend you are going to need a break when
she's on vacation.

32. And don't tell a girl you'll love them unless you really mean it
because if you're lying it'll just hurt them even more.

33. Don't tell your girlfriend she's hott. Tell her she's beautiful.
Hott = wanting to only bang her.
Beautiful = you are actually interested in her






i love that! honestly. guys.. read that. all the way through. for the most part it's true.

i came across that just looking at random peoples sties and was thinking "hey... this is prettaay neat"

i also came across this:

Are you hott? by evildj23
First Name
Age
Guy or Gal
Your hottness is	10...WOW! ARE U SINGLE?!?!
Quiz created with MemeGen!

lovleyy. and, no, i'm not single. i'm happily taken. :-D

i just didnt know that i might
peel away and chose to see
with such a different sight

and i will never see the sky the same way
and i will learn to say goodbye to yesterday
and i will never cease to fly if held down
and i will always reach too high cause i've seen
... cuz i've seen twilight

AS THE SUN SHINES THROUGH IT PUSHES AWAY
AND PUSHED AHEAD
IT FILLS THE WARMTH OF BLUE
AND LEAVES A CHILL INSTEAD AND
I DIDNT KNOW THAT I COULD BE
SO BLIND TO ALL THAT IS SO REAL
BUT AS ILLISION DIES,
I SEE THERE IS SO MUCH TO BE REVEALED.








<3 twilight

she woudl suffer, she would fight, and compromise
she's been wishin on the stars that shine so bright
for answers to questions that will haunt her tonight
---*
and if she runs she fears she wont be followed
what could be worse than leaving something behind?
and as the depth of the ocean slowley becomes shallow
it's lonliness she finds- "if only he was mine"
---*
how she'd be soothed, how she'd be saved if only he could see
she needs to be held in his arms to be free
but everything happens for reasons that she will never understand
-> 'till she knows that the heart of a woman will never be found in the arms of a man


i love that song. i love it. rinse. vanessa carlton.

enough said.

dont you leave me
i have been saving smiles for you



miss kris. i havent seen him in .. i dono how long, i dont want to know. i was going to hang out with him tomorrow, but something came up on my end of the rope. tomorrows his moms birthday, happy birthday to you, krissie!

will you please stop being ssuch an asshole? you have NO i dea how many times i wanted to scream that at some certain people today. im gonna burst, i cant take it anymore. get and stay the fuck away.

i feel sooo bad, three people invited me to their birthday partys... and theyre all on the same day. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? i'm already taking a day off from work that day. one of the partys starts at ten, the other starts at nooon, and the other starts at 5:30. only, the one that starts at ten is a trip somewhere, TO a place, i could make a wuick appearence at it, but i'd feel bad saying that i have to go ten minutes later. aaahhhh CANT YOU JUST SWITCH YOUR PARTIES EVERYONE? they're the day after school gets out. oh man oh man oh man.

well, today was the last day of school.. sort of.. in the actually-supposed-to-be-learning sense. we just reviewd the whol day in most of the classes. oh , and ya know how i was so pissed of at the way my art project was going? cuz i kept loosing all my stuff? well, i gave up. i said i wasnt going to do it anymore, it was too much for me and wasn't worh tit at all. if you have no clue whatsoever about what im talking about, let me fill you in
-carman assigned this project that we had to do, and it involved talking about either a song or a clip from a movie, adn pointing out how its art and what its message is and all this...
-i decided iw as going to do schindlers list, and was going to present on the following wednesday
-the following wednesday came and i didnt want to go, and it was fine to not go, i jsut picked another day, the wednesday about 4 weeks later.
-in the inbetween time, between the following wednesday and the wednesday four weeks later, i had come across a wonderful song by creed, mi amour, and decided i was going to do that
-the wednesday four weeks later came, and i packed my cd in my bag
-art class, second period came, and i had lost my cd. fuck. not only was i not able to present, but i lost one of my favorite favorite favorite cd's ever, human clay
-i talked to carman, and said that i was gonna go on the following monday
-monday came, and over the weekend i had watched ym favorite movie, one of them, actually, six days seven nights (ITS A MUST SEE FILM ON MY LIST) and decided i was going to talk about that one, and packed it in my bag
-broght it to art with me, but carman said i should present the next day, tuesday
-the next day, tuesday, came.
-art, second period began, and i went to my locker to find my movie. that didn't work out as i planned. my movie was completely gone and i had no idea where the hell it was. i still dont know.
-went back to art, and told carman the bad news, i also told him i give up and i'm refusing to the the fucking art project. i was done with it. sick of trying to accomplish something and failing.. miserably, and losing two of my most favorite things in the entire world. i still havent recoverd them.
-carman told me it didnt matter what i felt, but that i had to do it. not doing it wasn't an option.
-thusday came soon enougha nd i brought in chigaco, another mustsee film , and yes, one of my favotires. carman said i couldnt present that day because he didnt have the dvd player, but told me to leave it with him so it'd be safe. (he knows me all too well by now)
-friday came, today, and i skipped down to art with the biggest smile on my face finally having the outlook that YES I WAS GETTING THIS FUCKING PROJECT DONE. that didn't work out as i planned. he said he didnt have the dvd player, again and told me to go around to the teachers that did have it and find out if they needed it the entire period.
-they did.
-told carman.
-carman said that theres nothing he can do, and i cant present without showing the clip to my class, and that the next day we were going otbe havingclass was final day and we're busy the entire period.
-i blew up. became bitter. because even more pissed. mainly, because i had already decided that i was DONE with it,. no more. thats it. end of the show. yet, carman TOLD me i had to do it. NOW HES TELLING ME THERES NO WAY I CAN DO IT. hey buddy, i went that extra mile for you, so dont even give me this shit right now. I HATE IT. I WITH MORE PASSION THAN YOU COULD EVER POSSIBLY KNOW IN YOUR LIFE.

so thers the scoop, and thats the reason why i am THE most pessimistic person in my art class. hope you enjoyed the rant. i sure did. (sarcasm)

i have been studying my ass of for this history final. i love how he gave it to us as our study guide. i love it! the only thing about that though, is that he's going ot expect so so so much more from us, because he gave us alll the questions. english, i'm not worried about at all. i have a 95.something in that class, and plus i payed attention, did all the work, did it all well, and i loove english anyway! not worried. art, we just have those art history things. bio however, i'm screwed and i know it. LOVELY. i cant remember anything from anytime during that class, i wasn't paying well enough attention. somehow (and i am totally lovin this) i have an A in the class. YESSS. i havent done some of the work, and it says so right on my progress report, but i have an A, what do i care? science is one of those clases that as long as i pass, i'm good. as long as i have well, at least a C, i am all set. cant wait for honors next year, i'll be even more screwed. we played jepordy today! and my team lost both rounds.. and when i mean lost i mean LOST. badly. but thast ok, GOOD EFFORT, GUYS. it was just a reminded to me that i'm a dork and don't know anything that has to do with science, and trust me everyone, saying the same answer over and over again for multiple questions is not effective AT ALL. unless your ben, of course, who only answers booger. eh, what a wierdo, hes funny though. i cant wait to get out of this class, i cant stgand the people.. well.. thats not true. i cant stand 93% of the people. all they do is flip out at eachother, throw stuff, scream out random stuff, disrespect everyone, make hezzey slip out and go on a rant about how important detention is for 25 minutes (no joke.. i timed it once, there was nothign else to do) . where do i even begin? oh and some stupid fucker, he doesnt need to be named, puts on some gross rap crap, but its like.. slow rap so i dono what thats called and sings along. well, you can hardly call it singing. but anyway, he does it after class almost everyday and it s KILLING me. i dont know how much longer i can take some guy moaning and groaning about how horny he is, and how much he likes pussies. thanks, but i think i'll pass on hearing that.

eh. grosss.

i need to watch some court tv. i havent watched it in soooo long. court tv is practically my savior. seeing other people under worse circumstances is good for me. i like watching murder cases and watching shows where you're on the investigating side. or documentaries. yessssss. hah, what a loser, i know, but i love it! i cant wait to take criminology. woo wooo partaay.

i cant wait to take psychology too. i looove learning about that stuff. human nature and development, its weird yeah, but its so interesting. and you learn so much about everyone, we're all the same,really. im bound to be a social worker when i grow up, did you know that every single person on my moms side of the family is a social worker? even the people not direectly related, and only in this fam through marraige! do you have any ieda what its like at familiy reunions? coming from a greek social workers family, i know people. first of all, we;re greek,. thers like a bagillion relatives, and the last thing i want to hear at christmastime is how their clients are doing. "i saw my client yesteerday and we talked about the meds hes on" "the group im running for adults with dui's is goin good" "my boss at hes is assigning me a new client this week, i looked over her papers and it seems..." HEY HELLO IM FIFTEEN, I DONT CARE, REMEMBER?

i read psychology stuff in my spare time. thats how interesting it is. my mom tells me im gonna be a social worker even if i dont want to, she says i'll be dragged into it just because i'm good at people stuff. i understand people so well, it's creepy. i understand them more than they understand themselves. and i love it.

im learning some more chords on my guitar, and its KILLING my fingers. really. annnd just ask be, i dont have a pick. so afer a while of playing, my thumb goes numb from strumming the chords. its wiiiierd. i've started using a joker card though. i fold it in half. hey, it gets the job done. just trust me, it's gonan be allll the rage. it'll be the new thing. i'm as sure of that as the fact that i'm gonna be a social worker.

so i've been getting that numb feeling again recently, not physically numb, but mentally numb. that fee,ing you get when you cant think, nor want to, when you cant pay attention, and cant really smile unless you tell yourself too. you should never have to remind yourself to smile. ever. it's suposed to be something that just happens naturally.

well, i just walked away from my computor about a half hour ago to answer my fone and i spent the entire time talking to be!!! i love it when she calls, whe talk about the most random things. her mom i guess, bough tme flip-flops. hahaha I LOVE NANCE. shes the greatest. i wish my mom was so like... i dono.. caring hah. she was like "should we get another pair for rach?" i guess haha thats what mybe said. awww, nance is to sweeeet, and she wont let me reimburse her. i'm so glad i met this family. i am so thankful.

june 29th is just about my favorite day of the entire year. i've decided that. at 8:30. yup. it's a suprise. (TEHE)

i need a car. badly. nd i need the license age to get lowerd to 15 and ten months. that would be wonderrful. i need to be able to drive myself around places! i dont have a life! i hat eit. either that or i need to get money from somewhere for doing nothing and hire a chofur or however you spell it. that'd be the life. i could be like "bes house. tinas house. boogs house. kris' house (all the way in rockport)"and they'd know exactly where to go. yessss.

i'm gonna get my belly button pierced. my moms completely fine with it. good good. i just dont know of any places to get it done. any reccomendations? not the mall. eh, please no. i dont even know if they do that there, but no. i refuse.

did i tell you aobut my orientation on wednesday? i cant remember, i know i meant too, really, i think i did. i hope i did. i dont want to have to explain that all over again.

so, the directed clue is no longer existing, considering we dont have directed anymore. bummer, i liked doing nothing but talk and laugh the whole time, it was fun. bye for noe rog and spence. haha and you pronouce those [rog= rawj] and [spence=sp-en-s]. mhm. it was fun while it lasted.

k well i am absolutley exausted from all of this typing. this is ridiculusly long, i know, and i have no idea what i was thinking when i typed all this, except that i neeed to scream, i still need to scream, except i cant right now. not with everyone home. my mom would think the house was on fire or something like that. and that my friends, would not be good=bad. very, very bad.

goodnight, sleep tight, dont let the bed bugs bite,

i'm off like a light switch. [smile- how creative is that?]

<3<3 rachayy

p.s. I CANT WAIT FOR THE FUCKING SIXTH HARRY POTTER BOOK. and i dont care how dorky i am, i love those books and i've read them all multiple times, and would gladly do so again. yessssss. [HUGE SMILE]

another little piece of my heart now, baby

GUESS WHOS BORED OUT OF HER MIND, BUT HAS SOOO MUCH FUCKING STUFF TO DO??

( ) smoked
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
( ) been in love
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of your parent's house
(X) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(X) lied to a friend
(X) had a crush on a teacher
( ) been to Europe
( ) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your Myspace friends
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(X) been on a plane
( ) seen the Rocky Horror Show live
( ) thrown up in a bar
(X) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
(X) been snowboarding
(X) met someone in person from the internet
(X) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(X) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
(X) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(X) made a snow angel
(X) had a tea party
(X) flown a kite
(X) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
(X) played dress up
(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
(X) gone sledding
(X) cheated while playing a game
(X) been lonely
(X) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake ID
(X) watched the sunset
( ) felt an earthquake
(X) touched a snake
(X) slept beneath the stars
(X) been tickled
(X) been robbed
(X) been misunderstood
(X) pet a reindeer/goat
( ) won a contest
( ) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
(X) been in a car accident
(X) had braces
(X) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) had deja (CONSTENTLY)
( ) danced in the moonlight (I WANNA THOUGH)
(X) hated the way you look
(X) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(X) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
(X) been to the opposite side of the country
(X) swam in the ocean
(X) felt like dying
(X) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
(X) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(X) sung karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) danced in the rain
(X) written a letter to Santa Clause
( ) been kissed under the mistletoe
( ) watched the sunrise with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach (I WICKED WICKED WANT TO THOUGH-ANYONE COME WITH?)
( ) crashed a party
(X) gone rollerskating
(X) had a wish come true
( ) worn pearls
(X) jumped off a bridge
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
( ) kissed a mirror
(X) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
(X) had a dream that you married someone
(X) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(X) worn the opposite sex's clothes
(X) sat on a roof top
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs
(X) done a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(X) stayed up all night
(X) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(X) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(X) are scared to watch scary movies
(X) believe in ghosts
( ) have more than 60 pairs of shoes
(X) worn a really ugly outfit to school
( ) gone streaking
(X) played ding-dong-ditch
(X) played chicken
( ) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) pushed someone else into a pool with all their clothes on
(X) broken a bone
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( ) caught a butterfly
(X) laughed so hard you cried
(X) cried so hard you laughed
(X) had someone moon/flash you
(X) cheated on a test
(X) forgotten someone's name
( ) slept naked
( ) grown a beard

THERE YA GO.

k, my eyes hurt soooo bad from looking at the comp screen, and this allergy medicine is just not working at all.

we had an english test today on the book that we read and we're supposed to write a five paragraph essay and i only got like.. the outline thing done. and we have to make a rough draft too. its gonna take the rest of the week... YESS.

ok, my mom tld me that i HAD to clean my room right when i got home and now it is.. 4:03. i've been home for an hour.

maybe i'll go tanning tghis afternoon... ? that would be funnnn.

ok ahhhhh this fucking sucks i hate homework. GO DIE. i am SO FUCKING SICK of school.

we're carving out our names
round here
we all look the same


i find it interesting that we're all trying to be indivialus. real unique guys, real unique.

because i currrently dont have that much of a life. i figured i'd prove it to you by filling out one of those pointless, time consuming, interesting surveys where you all get to lezrn everything about me. woo hoo.

lets be wierd and see how long it takes me. ok, its 8:39:10 now.

ABOUT YOU
Your full name: rachel miller
Age: 15 >16 in 3 mo.
Height: 5'4 ish
Natural hair colour: blonde
Eye colour: brown
Number of siblings: 2 (one half and one step)
Glasses/contacts?: i never ever wear my glasses, and i hate contacts (they huuurt)
Piercings: my ears, 2 in each
Tattoos: nope
Braces?: .. yah. but not for long!
FAVOURITE
Colour: gold and red
Band: where to begin... rock and punk are my fav kinda of music, so any band that falls under that caragory should fit.
Song: ...
Stuffed animal: monk-monk. ever since i was little.
Video game: i havent played since i was like.. 8. then, it was grand turismo, i love car games. haha. you get to drive real fast.
TV show: anything on court tv
Movie: ...
Book: ...
Food: ...
Game on a cell phone: snake! i loove it!
CD cover: haha what a wierd question. i havent a clue.
Flower: daisy... i think.
Scent: hawiian ginger. mmmm
Animal: dog, lemur, i dont even know.
Comic book: hmmm.. archie, or betty and veronica, or somethign with those characters
Cereal: coca chrunchies? is that what those flinstones thigns are called? the chocolate ones.
Website: www.leoslyrics.com (i looove it) i think its great how i have a particular website that i go to about 5 times a day, at least.
Cartoon: jimmy nutron.. or is it neutron?
DO YOU
Play an instrument?: clarinet, violin, recorder (who cant?), GUITAR, piano
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: never, i havent watched tv for weeks
Like to sing?: constently
Have a job?: camp counsiler!! i love kids
Have a cell phone?: yes
Like to play sports?: whenever i can
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yesss :-D
Have a crush on someone?: yesss
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: not yet. i cant wait to leave this place.
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: only 4
Have any special talents/skills?: i've lost count... haha
Excercise daily?: yes. i have to. or else i feel gross and depressed.
Like school?: at the beginning of the year. but by about the 6th month im ready to drop out and scream a everyone
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?: yes, i practice all the time hhaa
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: not comfortabley
Speak any other languages?: mhmm espanol! i can speak a little bit of greek and i can count to ten and say cheese omlette in french. haha.
Go a day without food?: probably
Stay up for more than 24 hours?: i doubt it haha. or at least, not without being your worst nightmare the next day, i get sooo cranky.
Read music, not just tabs?: nope. i love reading tabs though! i cant even read the chord things without seeing them set up as tabs.
Roll your tongue?: yess
Eat a whole pizza?: riverview pizza-YESS
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?: not yet.. hah
Cried to get out of trouble?: no haha its a good idea though
Gotten lost in your city?: hell, i get lost on my street.
Seen a shooting star?: no, i saw a twinlkeing one though!
Been to any other countries besides the united states?: not yet
Had a serious surgery?: not serious
Stolen something important to someone else?: nope. i dont think so.
Solved a rubiks cube?: i wish
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: of course! cumbys must think i'm homeless or something
Cried over a girl?: my best friend, yes
Cried over a boy?: yes
Kissed a random stranger?: haha no, do you know how sketchy that is?
Hugged a random stranger?: nope
Been in a fist fight?: mhmm
Been arrested?: nope
Done drugs?: never
Had alcohol?: yes
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: it wasnt milk ahhh
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: haha noo
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: no thank god
Swore at your parents?: no
Been to warped tour?: no
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: nope
Been in love?: i dont know.
Been close to love?: yes
Been to a casino?: haha yesss in las vegass
Ran over an animal and killed it?: no, i cant drive, and i look where i step when i'm walking... dur.
Broken a bone?: yes
Gotten stitches?: no thank goodness
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?: haha no
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?: eww no i dont like milk
Made homemade muffins?: yup blueberry
Bitten someone?: yes
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: yup! down in florida
More than 5 times?: nooo
Been to niagra falls?: no
Burped in someones face?: eww thats so gross
Gotten the chicken pox?: yes.. reluctently
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth: this morning
Went to the bathroom: hmm.. like 2 hours ago? i dono. i dont really rememebr these things
Saw a movie in theaters: i thiiink 2 weeks ago? when i saw star wars with my dad.
Read a book: 2 daysa go. for english class
Had a snow day: umm.. like 4 months ago in february
Had a party: 2 days ago, friday night
Had a slumber party: 2 days ago, friday night
Made fun of someone: about an hour ago. haha i love my sisters, i swear
Tripped in front of someone: suprisingly, not for a while
Went to the grocery store: i dont ever go to the grocery store.
Got sick: currently. i get nausios and get headaches constently. i rarley ever go a day without one or the other
Cursed: not even ten minutes ago, i believe i did somewhere in this entry
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables: fruit
Black/white: black
Lights on/lights off: on
TV/movie: movie definetallyyy
Car/truck: truck
Body spray/lotion: body spray
Cash/check: cash
Pillows/blankets: ohh i dono. pillows i guess
Headache/stomach ache: i get them both toegether, so it doesnt matter. i gues stomachacha
Paint/charcoal: paint
Chinese food/mexican food: chinese!!!
Summer/winter: SUMMER
Snow/rain: i dono, rain, i guess, as long as its not a storm
Fog/misty: misty ooo creepehh
Rock/rap: rock DEFINETEALLY. i hate fucking rap
Meat/vegetarian: well i hate both veggies and meat. vegetarian i guess, as long as i dont have meat.
Boy/girl: i prefer boys hahah
Chocolate/vanilla: chocolate!!
Sprinkles/icing: oo icing
Cake/pie: depends what kind. pie mostly though.
French toast/french fries: toast. fries are soggy. eww gross
Strawberries/blueberries: strawberrys (pref. in chocolate- mybe!)
Ocean/swimming pool: swimming poool! but if the ocean includes the beach, then ocean
Hugs/kisses: kisses. but preferebly both.. how about.. at the same time?
Cookies/muffins: cookiesss!
Wallet/pocket: neither. purse. end of story. i dont have a wallet, and things get lost in my pockets, i forget to take things out.
Window/door: door
Emo/goth: emo
Pink/purple: oo this is a toughie. pass
Cat/dog: dog!
Long sleeve/short sleeve: short. actually.. tank top.
Pants/shorts: shorts
Winter break/spring break: i havent a cluee. i dont have either
Spring/autumn: autumn... i think. i like the smell of spring but the looks of fall
Clouds/clear sky: clear
Moon/mars: moon.. i gues
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?: .. not as much as i used to :-/
What are their names?: in case of forgetting one, im not gonna even begin haha.
Do you have a best friend?: hmm. yes
Have you ever liked one of your friends?: yup
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?: girls.
Have you ever lost a friend?: yes, and i miss her so much. and no, she didnt die.
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?: yup
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?: hahaha omg dont even get me started.

welll, i hope that was intriguing and you learned a thing or to.

ok, my back hurts and my fingers are tierd of typing. oh yeah and its 9:09:09 right now. hahaha wow what a coincidence. or however you spell it.

alright, its necessario para me leer mi libro porque hay una examin en mi clase de ingles manana. yesss. cant wait to fail.

I CANT BELIEVE WE ONLY HAVE SEVEN FUCKING DAYS TILL SCHOOL GETS OUT. and only five till finals. i know. just please dont remind me.

my goal by the way, is to make friends with someone who has a car. haha. i NEED someone who can drive me to the beach or SOMETHING during teh summertime. anyone?? you'd be payed by having the coolest person in the world as your friend, not by money, considering, i'm broke. thats my goal though.

just thought i'd let ya know.

ok, its time for met o read, as i mentioned before, and dream about buying sunglasses, lovely aviator sunglasses. mi amor.

maybe kris will call tonight. i'd looooove it if he would. i never liekt o call over there cuz i dono if his fams ever in teh middle of somethign and his cell isnt working. dammit.


love you <3 rach


p.s. IM GETTING A GODAMN BOAT!!! HOW SWEEET IS THAT?

i'm dreamin bout
those
dreamy
eyes.

th' KILLAS.



i cant remember the lasst time i updated. but what does it matter anymore anyway? mustwe rememebr those little details? i went to the beach for the first time alll season yesterday! will mybe. and man i cant even explain this weekend. erica had her birthday partay, and there was a bunch of 13 year old girls running about the house all night on friday. baaaaaaaah get outta here. and then on saturday we alllll (mybe, erica and her friends, my fam. and i) went out on the boat and then met up with my mom and dans friends who own a houseboat. and we unloaded everyone off. and while we were there not doin much, one of ericas frinends parents showed up on their boat and they were like"oh we're gonna swing by the beach" and my mom mentioned that be and i wanted to go to the beach so they gave us a ride. but on our way we wanted to stop for gas so we went to the yacht club dock to load up. it was wierd, cuz i had never been there. do you have to be a member to get gas there? i dono. i'll ask roger. he works there and be and i saw him, and i decided that i want his sunglasses. haha. im gonna buy a pair liek them. the aviator kind. yesssahhh. and then we went to fox creek i think its called. that spot in ipswich between the neck.. ya know that spot there? and well we had to walk alll the way to the beach from there. it was a long walk for us haha. and when we finally got to the beach after about a half hour of walking we finnally met up with walt, tina, and andi, and then shortly after, samtom. so we all went swimming and passed a tennis ball around for a while. and then everyone went their seperate ways. we walked alll the way back to where ericas friends parents were and metup with them again and it was perfecting timing cuz we left shortly after. so we got back to the house boat and my boat and loaded everyone up to head back home and be and i rode in the cabin which was fun, and ate a ton o\f chipetos. ahha. theyre like tostitos except cooooler. so when we got back to perleys marina in rowley, be and i had to stay with dan (blahh) and bring our boat back to its spot on the dock but we had to tow another litte motor boat behind us to get back to the main dock, cuz ours is on a seperate one. its complicatidad. and so when we finally got back after a painfull long awkward car ride, everyone went for a dip in the pool to get most of the sand off. after dinner, be and i started the best movie ever (one of them) SIX DAYS SEVEN NIGHTS and then turned it off to go to sleep at like.. 10 cuz we were just SOO tierd. and then this morning i took a shower downstairs and she took a shower upstairs after wehad bagels and cereal for breakfast. and then be got to come with me to my dads. we went to the revere fleamarket at the movie theatre and that was alright. i enjoyed seeing all the different stuff there, but it was like 90 degrees and the last thing i wanted to do was walk around and pray that i dont start sweating from the temp. haha. and so theennn after i found my aviator sunglass that i was looking for, and reluctently left without buying them for lack of money, my dad bought a safari hat, casmofluage, cuz hes THAT cool. hahaha. i love mi padre. and he got be and i slushes. mm mm good. then we went to the spirit game in lynn and watched that for over 2 hours. and then he dropped be and i off at my house and be and i went over guitr chords cuz she brought hers (THANK GOODNESS) and so now i know some. i know A E D G F and A minor. i have not idea why they have more than one A, why not just name it a differnet letter? shows how much i know about chords. i just ike plucking them individually. its nice. and now im sittin ghere in my ten thousand degree hot room.

oh yeah, on thursday we had a field trip for english and i got to see FAME. OMG IT WAS THE BEST FUCKING THING EVER. i loved it! love it.love it. i wanted to jut get up and start dancing th entier time. i LOVE musicals. i've seen the movie lord knows how many times and this was just as great, different though, but aweeeesome. i saw a bunch of people i knew because i auditioned to be in it, so i got to see who made it. that was pretty cool. annnnd then kreistina came over my house after and we went swimmin in the pool and such. and then on frida i had yet another field trip for bio and we went to pavilion and bradley palmer. at pavilion most of the time i stayed with hezzeys class and my group was with kerry arm and lexi cro and that was funn. and then after though i wen twith mr chumuras class cuz i got tierd of mine and everything and hezz freaked out cuz she didnt know anad she thought iw as lost on the beach haha. me and mark maney. and theenn we went back to the school had lunch and played four square which i am absolutley terrible at. aaand then i stayed with chumuras classes to go to bradley palmer. and the first part was borrrrringggg cuz all we did was figure out what kind of trees tehre were an dhow man yof each and stufff. but we did get to relax for a while in this big fierld and they started this huge ultimate frizbee game and by the end, just about every guy playing had taken off their shirt cuz they wanted to show off their 10 packs. hahaha. wow, guys will be guys. and then we went to a pond and that was a lotttt of fun. a bunch of poeple and i were catching frogs and stuff. and then bret got a snake (OMG) and that was awwwesome. i got to hold it and it was the wierdest feeliong cuz you can literally feeel all the muscles in it flexing and everything as it tries to slither and coil up. it was great. and then i got freaked out cuz some smart person told me, i think it was andi or sarah, that snakes have this stuff on them that you can get a diseaase from. lovely. and so then i decided that i was going to attened chumuras class instead of hezz's cuz tehy meet at the same time and i cant fucking stand my class. i hate it! i hate just about everyone in it. i only like about 5 people. and everyone else it seems, TRIES to piss me off, and ya know what? it works! i hate it. i cant even spend the last 7 days with them, so its off to chumuras class i go. but then we got back and after school i went over kristinas house and we walked around downtown and went to a couple banks cuz she had to tell them her address dchanged cuz she moved recently. aaaaaand then we tanned outside for a while haha. an dmy mom came and picked me up and we had to go out to the dollar store, family dollar actually and pick up goodie bags and then went home. there, i packed ericas goodie bags for her and awhen she came upstairs, she tierd to dump them out and i flipped on her cuz i just spent a wicked long tiem doing that for her and theres no way she was going to make all the works i did completely pointless. so after her and i swore at eachother for a little while, she went back downstairs thankgoodness and i finished putting peoples names on the bags. and then blah blah blah, they went somewhere, came back, opened presents, had cake, went to bed at about 12 and woke up on saturday. you know what happens from there.

ahhh. that was a hell of a lot of typing. and i am SO done with summer.

i cant believe i have to be bossing around little kids in 90 degree weather all summer. what the hell was i thinking? well, its too alte to back out now, an di need the money. craaap. all of it gonna go towards sun screen and sun glasses.

i love sunglasses. when i get enough money, i'm gonna go to the revere flea market and splurrrrge on them. i wanna have those aviator sun glasses soo bad hahaha. and while i was looking today, i saw a bunch of other wicked cool ones too!! i think theres a store in boston thats completely devoted to sunglasses. WOOT WOOT.

i love the beach. i LOVE the beach. we're gonna go out on the boat sooo much this summer. i cant possibly wait!! maybe we can pick up kris or him and his fam a couple of times? that would wonderfulllll.



well, its time for me to go practice my guitar if i ever wanna make it as a rock star. pft. i r3eally do wanna go play though.

love you all more than you could ever know...

<3<3<3<3<3 racheyy

but you can't succeed in taking my innner peace

i'm gonna carry on singing my song.




its been a heck of a time. i have 2 field trips this week. one on thursday to the show fame. and on friday to pavilion beach and to bradley palmer state park. i dont know what we'll be doing on friday, but whatever.

i had physical therepy today. it was strenuous. i was so tierd after. but then i went out to chinese with my dad. i love chinese food. its my favorite.

we had a really philosophical conversation, my dad and i. i never knew he we was so deep. we talked about evolution, religion, the extinction of the dinosaurs, how the church and darwins theory contradict eachother. it was really cool.

well im talking to kris on the fone, currently. and its really hard to think and type and everything at the same time. much less when you're talking to someone on the fone.

so, today was fucking ninety degrees. and i wore a long sleeved shirt and long pants. EXCUSE ME? stupid weatherpeople, always lying to me.. I HATE IT.

so, tomorrow i'm going over my be's house, and i cant wait. and i'm gonna go to her youth group too! i almost forgot. but i just remembered in the nick of time. and then on thursday, boog's coming over on thursday, and i guess it might rain but i'm keepin my fingers crossed, and we're gonna swim in my pool and tan on the deck. it'll be fun. i cant wait.

ok well, yup, time for em to go. i excersized today, so i'm feeling pretty good about myself right now. {smile}

k, goodnight my lovers.

rachel. e. miller.

p.s. i'm considering training myself to become a lefty.