10.17.2004
i dare you to move
i dare you to lift yourself up of the floor
i dare you to move
like today never happened
today never happened before
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
iris:
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now
And all I could taste is this moment
And all I can breath is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't comming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
*sigh* i wrote in my journal last night, 4 pages worth, it was pretty sad. it was then when i was in the middle of writing when i realized how badly i have no life. i just.. blanked out. forgot what i was writing. i hate it when that happens. your writing and writingand writing, or sometimes talking, adn theres sooo much you have to say and it all just goes "POP" right out of your head. i hate that. so i had to just like... think for a second.. well i tried to anyway, my brain was completely dea.d it was turned o.f .f . and i didnt turn it off, it just shut it self down without consulting me first. stupid thing. it should be smarter than that.
sooo today is sunday. bret's in NY visiting family. my dads at the Red Sox game at Fenway. My step sister Erica is at her mom's in boston.Dan's home tearing the house apart. everyone seems to have a plan. what the heck?
my plan for the day, is to come up with the plan for my day.
this might take a while. maybe i could catch up on some old hobby or something. i know, i'll make a scrap book. i already have one started from the NY trip last spring.. i just took a bunch of picutres too, i wonder if i can post them up on a site or something so everyone can see them... yeah, thats what i'll do.
i love being a computor geek all day.
you know.. i was thinking this morning, this lazy sunday morning, about how im always helping people with thier problems. every single person on my moms side of the family has a career in therapy, or phcology, or whatnot. its nuts. so im baisically destined to become an occupational therapist. YES. but like... i dont want to. i like helping and all that, but, i dont want to HAVE to. people should think of ways to solve things on thier own. im not being disrespectful at all, (i just read that last sentance and was liek ohhh no i sound mad, im not really). i want everyone to be happy. so i help them out. i dono. maybe i will become someone like my mom, or my yiayia, or my papou, or maybe my aunti, or my uncule, or maybe... i seem to be pretty good at it. i saved a relationship last night. no names, please. that was pretty gratifying.
i just reflected back on my week it went pretty good. i love being part of such a comfortable community.
did you hear about that poor poor kid who got hit by a train in beverly? ... so saddd... he was riding his bike and didnt know the train was coming. the bar, that usualy comes down, wel, it was broken, i mean, god forbid they fix the thing for saftey precautions. and he was out riding with his sister and his mom i think it was. by the time they caught up to him, they couldnt even recignise him. he would have known it was coming if the fucking peole hadnt voted to disalarm the dinging sound when the train cam einto their neighbor hood. can you believe that? "hey i think that ding ding ding sound is annoying, i dont like it, lets have a vote to turn it off" "ok" well nice goin stupid people. i betcha feel a bit guilty now dont ya. well you should. a poor little kid just died due to your selfish actions. sometimes you knw... i just want to smack people. just give them a giant reality check. no one should ever have to bury their children. im fucking tierd of pain. it has nothing to do with me and its pissing me off.
oh yes, if i could, i would just like to say a few words about a boy named joel. be, joel is your frien.d you care a lot about him. im sorry that he has to go through so much drama, and im sorry you do as well. joel, a great guy, should never have to live with what hes going through. no one should. if i could change it all, i could. joel, you dont know me, but that doesnt mean anything. i dedicate this message to anyone suffering from anything. sickness, disease, heartbreak, everything. i wish i could make the world a better place. i really do. be, i want to congratulate you and your family for taking on the responsability of taking care of joels sister, how ever agravating she may be, your a good person. a great person. people can always count on you. and i love it.
that is basically my sermon for the day. everyone hope joel makes a safe and sound recovery.
whoa, that took a lot out of me, my eyes started watering up again. oh dear.
you know... maybe i'll go write a book. yeah, thats what ill do.
i'll check back in later maybe.
eventaully...
love you all, even if i dont know you, you still deserved to be loved. rach/be
i dare you to move
like today never happened
today never happened before
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
iris:
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now
And all I could taste is this moment
And all I can breath is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't comming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
*sigh* i wrote in my journal last night, 4 pages worth, it was pretty sad. it was then when i was in the middle of writing when i realized how badly i have no life. i just.. blanked out. forgot what i was writing. i hate it when that happens. your writing and writingand writing, or sometimes talking, adn theres sooo much you have to say and it all just goes "POP" right out of your head. i hate that. so i had to just like... think for a second.. well i tried to anyway, my brain was completely dea.d it was turned o.f .f . and i didnt turn it off, it just shut it self down without consulting me first. stupid thing. it should be smarter than that.
sooo today is sunday. bret's in NY visiting family. my dads at the Red Sox game at Fenway. My step sister Erica is at her mom's in boston.Dan's home tearing the house apart. everyone seems to have a plan. what the heck?
my plan for the day, is to come up with the plan for my day.
this might take a while. maybe i could catch up on some old hobby or something. i know, i'll make a scrap book. i already have one started from the NY trip last spring.. i just took a bunch of picutres too, i wonder if i can post them up on a site or something so everyone can see them... yeah, thats what i'll do.
i love being a computor geek all day.
you know.. i was thinking this morning, this lazy sunday morning, about how im always helping people with thier problems. every single person on my moms side of the family has a career in therapy, or phcology, or whatnot. its nuts. so im baisically destined to become an occupational therapist. YES. but like... i dont want to. i like helping and all that, but, i dont want to HAVE to. people should think of ways to solve things on thier own. im not being disrespectful at all, (i just read that last sentance and was liek ohhh no i sound mad, im not really). i want everyone to be happy. so i help them out. i dono. maybe i will become someone like my mom, or my yiayia, or my papou, or maybe my aunti, or my uncule, or maybe... i seem to be pretty good at it. i saved a relationship last night. no names, please. that was pretty gratifying.
i just reflected back on my week it went pretty good. i love being part of such a comfortable community.
did you hear about that poor poor kid who got hit by a train in beverly? ... so saddd... he was riding his bike and didnt know the train was coming. the bar, that usualy comes down, wel, it was broken, i mean, god forbid they fix the thing for saftey precautions. and he was out riding with his sister and his mom i think it was. by the time they caught up to him, they couldnt even recignise him. he would have known it was coming if the fucking peole hadnt voted to disalarm the dinging sound when the train cam einto their neighbor hood. can you believe that? "hey i think that ding ding ding sound is annoying, i dont like it, lets have a vote to turn it off" "ok" well nice goin stupid people. i betcha feel a bit guilty now dont ya. well you should. a poor little kid just died due to your selfish actions. sometimes you knw... i just want to smack people. just give them a giant reality check. no one should ever have to bury their children. im fucking tierd of pain. it has nothing to do with me and its pissing me off.
oh yes, if i could, i would just like to say a few words about a boy named joel. be, joel is your frien.d you care a lot about him. im sorry that he has to go through so much drama, and im sorry you do as well. joel, a great guy, should never have to live with what hes going through. no one should. if i could change it all, i could. joel, you dont know me, but that doesnt mean anything. i dedicate this message to anyone suffering from anything. sickness, disease, heartbreak, everything. i wish i could make the world a better place. i really do. be, i want to congratulate you and your family for taking on the responsability of taking care of joels sister, how ever agravating she may be, your a good person. a great person. people can always count on you. and i love it.
that is basically my sermon for the day. everyone hope joel makes a safe and sound recovery.
whoa, that took a lot out of me, my eyes started watering up again. oh dear.
you know... maybe i'll go write a book. yeah, thats what ill do.
i'll check back in later maybe.
eventaully...
love you all, even if i dont know you, you still deserved to be loved. rach/be
// posted by RACH @ 10:57 AM 
