9.13.2005
desperate for changing
starving for truth
i'm closer to where i started
chasing after you
i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all ive held on too
i'm standing here untill you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you
i'm living for the only thing i know
im running and i question where to go
i dont knwo what im tapping in to
im hanging by a moment here with you
theres nothing else to lose
theres nothing else to find
theres nothing in the world that could change my mind
:D me gusta. i miss spanish. i really really really really wish i had it both semesters. bummer.
but noo i have chemestry, english and math. hmm, not quite cuttin it.
so we had a ridiculus amount of english home work today. we're reading the play "twelve angry men" and i absolutley love it. i'm honestly really gettin in to it. i'm man number three cuz we're acting it out in class. haha i'm the asshole. oh well. i like getting to yell at everyone, i say "dont even start with me" and "shut up" to jack rose, yesssah. its so much fun.
so this past weekend i had to the time of my life. or, rather, one of them. tina came over at about 1 on saturday, and we watched that "while you were out show" to be dorks, even though i secretly really enjoyed it. and then be decided to join us at 4, an hour after she said she would be here. oh well. and then we went up to my room and talked for quite a while and sorted out the basics and then planned to leave to go to cumbys to get junk food in "five minutes" well in those next "five minutes" be and i looked at deerwander pictures, sharing every single experience and detail of teh trip with tina, who was wicked annoyed but oh well. and then we maganed to sneak in looking at my eight grade trip scrapbook and reliving that experience was a complete blast cuz there were just so so so many things to talk about. it was one of those pee-my-pants moments talking about the day at the amusement park. so after tina commented on our severe ADD, we left about 30 minutes after we planned. but still,, thats "five minutes" for be and i. on the walk to cumbys we had a nice little adventure collecting weeds and throwing the piles at eachother. this would be repeated on the way back, because we were just THAT cool. when we got there be asked if this was where i had trippe and dropped all my change that day, making me late for school and i, of course, patiently and collected said "no" and pointed out where that spot was, reminding her i wasn't THAT late for school, and i tripped over a rug, not over my own feet. we ended up buying: 2 bags of m&ms, a package of cookies, oreos, marshmellows, some milk, and sweedish fish. 13 dollores worth of candy. yum yum. on our way back, by the time we had gotten to my house, actually, which was about a mile away, we had thrown numerous weeds at eachother and eaten a bag of m&ms. when we walked in the door we immediatly got down to buisness baking a cake. a yellow actually. so i handed out aprons, tina an ipswich one, be dove for the grilling one and i had a rainbow striped one. tres cool. be and i did the eggs, tina did the water and oil, and be did the pouring the powder stuff in part and i preheated the oven. then we put it in. then be asked if i had greased the pan. oops. hey, she didnt remind me before we had already put the stuff int he pan, oh welll. and then, for a final, personal touch, we poured in the second bag of m&ms haha. while it was baking we ate the whole bag of cookies, which actually, tina mainly ate haha. then the cake was done and we had a piece each. MAN WAS THAT DELISH. after we finished we sat at the table for a while and tlaked about ghosts and creepy conversational stuff like that. may i also mention tina and i are completely beside ourselves with fear when it comes to these things. so then we migrated upstairs and i dono WHAT we did for a while. just talked i suppose, but then we put on white oleander. have you ever seen white oleander? what a fantastic movie. just jaw dropping. so after 2 cries, a bag of sweedinsh fish, and "shhhh"-ing tina half a dozen times it ended, unfortunately and we moved on with our lives. then we talked for quite the while. then we played the "mad max magazine game" one of my personal faves. ever heard of that one? or played it, possibly? what a game. so yeah.. we never ended up finishing it. note to self: never hide money under board- result: getting all the rest of the money thrown at you. just a heads up. after that game ended we were all ridiculuously out-of-it. i dont even knwo what we did. talked, talked online to kristy about how she should not be thinking about what she's thinking about doing. ahem. and then we put that away, and layed down on my floor and talked. then, simutaniously we had a silent resolution to just stop talking cuz we were that tierd. so as we're drifting off to sleep, what do we hear but a lovely silent shattering BA DA DA DUM BA DA BA DUM BA DA DA BA DA DUM techno cell fone ring, and be mumbling "what the heeeck?" who was on the other end of that fone but mike. mike who was bored and had nothing better to do mike. THEN we finally went to sleep. in the morn tina left early to go home, and be and i, wrapped up in each our own down white comforters, like cocoons, practiced running and throwing ourselves onto the airmattress-on-the-futon bed downstairs which was there for no reason, and actually did quite well. occasionally she'd fall off and i'd get stuck in the crack between the wall and the bed, but for the most part it was quitte relaxing. we just layed there and talked about random things and then my mom was like "its 9:13 ya know" and we scrambled around getting changed, packing up, brushing our teeth and everything because be's mom was coming at 9:20 to bring both of us to sunday school. we made it on time- it's alllll good. then i had a bagel, actually, half a bagel cuz be really wanted a cinnamon raisin and i let her have half of mine. :D and so then sunday school began and thank goodness it was with john who makes it interesting. and then when that ended a bunch of u stayed up in that room just chillin. i was playing around with elliots ipod which was waaaay confusing and i kept pressing the wrong buttons so then i just threw it back to him cuz its not like i could do anyhting with it anyway haha, plus he was listening to the music. and be and ryan were on the other couch and i snagged some of be's gum which is basically addicting. then church began and we all made our way downstairs. i had to leave early for church though. is that a sin? i needed to ge tto my dance place at 12, so i left church at about 15 of and went straight there, waited for 2 hours and then FINALLY got my pointe shoes. (first ones ever: im pumped out of my mind) i did get to see lauren in the parking lot though. and her mom kept asking my opinion on what was good to buy! hah it was pretty funnay. and i feel so bad cuz i made my dad sit in the car for an hour it toko so long. i feel completely awful! but after he picked me up we went to BK (not taco bell.. i know... but i hadnt been there in a while and he let me chose!) and i got a delish cheeseburger. a nice fattening greasy burger with crispy fries. and then we went back to his house and i did my math hw while watching the red sox game which, for some reason, i was totally pumped for. and then, out of the blue, BRETT SHOWED UP! my cousin brett whom i hadn;t seen in forever, honestly, and who had, or so it seemed, completely left our family. but hes back now. and it was somethign jsut so incredible and so awesome that i've been praying for for wuite a while. and it actually happened! i cant express in word my gratitude, how thankful i am. and then we had a lovely dinner, and some cheesecake for dessert and i've decided that i'm going to the cheesecake factory at teh burlington mall for my birthday!! no kidding my whole fams going. yessahh. it was either that or massiminos which is a little resturaunt in boston, and i def chose cheesecake. my auntie made some jewelery for me! earrings and a necklace. i loove them. she made them out of rocks and wire. little rock bead things. very coool. then on the way home, my dad and i listend to "THE TURTLES" whom i've come to adore, he gave me their cd lol saweeet. but yes, do listen to them for some oldies but goodies. i know you know their songs...
and that was my weekend!
im wicked pumped for this football game on friday. i love football games. wooo. i think i'm selling bracelets or something though. i hope i dont have to do it for the whole game. because though i'd be getting money for my class... i'd be missing the game. but anyway, i'm going to go to all the home games just as i did last year. rain or shine. be wont be there though! and thats practically a tradition. :0 stupid work.
will i see you there? please please come. i forget how much it is to get in. whatev.
ok well i have a crap load of homework tonight and i should probs get it done so i can watch white oleander again. :D
yours, rachel
i'm closer to where i started
chasing after you
i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all ive held on too
i'm standing here untill you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you
i'm living for the only thing i know
im running and i question where to go
i dont knwo what im tapping in to
im hanging by a moment here with you
theres nothing else to lose
theres nothing else to find
theres nothing in the world that could change my mind
:D me gusta. i miss spanish. i really really really really wish i had it both semesters. bummer.
but noo i have chemestry, english and math. hmm, not quite cuttin it.
so we had a ridiculus amount of english home work today. we're reading the play "twelve angry men" and i absolutley love it. i'm honestly really gettin in to it. i'm man number three cuz we're acting it out in class. haha i'm the asshole. oh well. i like getting to yell at everyone, i say "dont even start with me" and "shut up" to jack rose, yesssah. its so much fun.
so this past weekend i had to the time of my life. or, rather, one of them. tina came over at about 1 on saturday, and we watched that "while you were out show" to be dorks, even though i secretly really enjoyed it. and then be decided to join us at 4, an hour after she said she would be here. oh well. and then we went up to my room and talked for quite a while and sorted out the basics and then planned to leave to go to cumbys to get junk food in "five minutes" well in those next "five minutes" be and i looked at deerwander pictures, sharing every single experience and detail of teh trip with tina, who was wicked annoyed but oh well. and then we maganed to sneak in looking at my eight grade trip scrapbook and reliving that experience was a complete blast cuz there were just so so so many things to talk about. it was one of those pee-my-pants moments talking about the day at the amusement park. so after tina commented on our severe ADD, we left about 30 minutes after we planned. but still,, thats "five minutes" for be and i. on the walk to cumbys we had a nice little adventure collecting weeds and throwing the piles at eachother. this would be repeated on the way back, because we were just THAT cool. when we got there be asked if this was where i had trippe and dropped all my change that day, making me late for school and i, of course, patiently and collected said "no" and pointed out where that spot was, reminding her i wasn't THAT late for school, and i tripped over a rug, not over my own feet. we ended up buying: 2 bags of m&ms, a package of cookies, oreos, marshmellows, some milk, and sweedish fish. 13 dollores worth of candy. yum yum. on our way back, by the time we had gotten to my house, actually, which was about a mile away, we had thrown numerous weeds at eachother and eaten a bag of m&ms. when we walked in the door we immediatly got down to buisness baking a cake. a yellow actually. so i handed out aprons, tina an ipswich one, be dove for the grilling one and i had a rainbow striped one. tres cool. be and i did the eggs, tina did the water and oil, and be did the pouring the powder stuff in part and i preheated the oven. then we put it in. then be asked if i had greased the pan. oops. hey, she didnt remind me before we had already put the stuff int he pan, oh welll. and then, for a final, personal touch, we poured in the second bag of m&ms haha. while it was baking we ate the whole bag of cookies, which actually, tina mainly ate haha. then the cake was done and we had a piece each. MAN WAS THAT DELISH. after we finished we sat at the table for a while and tlaked about ghosts and creepy conversational stuff like that. may i also mention tina and i are completely beside ourselves with fear when it comes to these things. so then we migrated upstairs and i dono WHAT we did for a while. just talked i suppose, but then we put on white oleander. have you ever seen white oleander? what a fantastic movie. just jaw dropping. so after 2 cries, a bag of sweedinsh fish, and "shhhh"-ing tina half a dozen times it ended, unfortunately and we moved on with our lives. then we talked for quite the while. then we played the "mad max magazine game" one of my personal faves. ever heard of that one? or played it, possibly? what a game. so yeah.. we never ended up finishing it. note to self: never hide money under board- result: getting all the rest of the money thrown at you. just a heads up. after that game ended we were all ridiculuously out-of-it. i dont even knwo what we did. talked, talked online to kristy about how she should not be thinking about what she's thinking about doing. ahem. and then we put that away, and layed down on my floor and talked. then, simutaniously we had a silent resolution to just stop talking cuz we were that tierd. so as we're drifting off to sleep, what do we hear but a lovely silent shattering BA DA DA DUM BA DA BA DUM BA DA DA BA DA DUM techno cell fone ring, and be mumbling "what the heeeck?" who was on the other end of that fone but mike. mike who was bored and had nothing better to do mike. THEN we finally went to sleep. in the morn tina left early to go home, and be and i, wrapped up in each our own down white comforters, like cocoons, practiced running and throwing ourselves onto the airmattress-on-the-futon bed downstairs which was there for no reason, and actually did quite well. occasionally she'd fall off and i'd get stuck in the crack between the wall and the bed, but for the most part it was quitte relaxing. we just layed there and talked about random things and then my mom was like "its 9:13 ya know" and we scrambled around getting changed, packing up, brushing our teeth and everything because be's mom was coming at 9:20 to bring both of us to sunday school. we made it on time- it's alllll good. then i had a bagel, actually, half a bagel cuz be really wanted a cinnamon raisin and i let her have half of mine. :D and so then sunday school began and thank goodness it was with john who makes it interesting. and then when that ended a bunch of u stayed up in that room just chillin. i was playing around with elliots ipod which was waaaay confusing and i kept pressing the wrong buttons so then i just threw it back to him cuz its not like i could do anyhting with it anyway haha, plus he was listening to the music. and be and ryan were on the other couch and i snagged some of be's gum which is basically addicting. then church began and we all made our way downstairs. i had to leave early for church though. is that a sin? i needed to ge tto my dance place at 12, so i left church at about 15 of and went straight there, waited for 2 hours and then FINALLY got my pointe shoes. (first ones ever: im pumped out of my mind) i did get to see lauren in the parking lot though. and her mom kept asking my opinion on what was good to buy! hah it was pretty funnay. and i feel so bad cuz i made my dad sit in the car for an hour it toko so long. i feel completely awful! but after he picked me up we went to BK (not taco bell.. i know... but i hadnt been there in a while and he let me chose!) and i got a delish cheeseburger. a nice fattening greasy burger with crispy fries. and then we went back to his house and i did my math hw while watching the red sox game which, for some reason, i was totally pumped for. and then, out of the blue, BRETT SHOWED UP! my cousin brett whom i hadn;t seen in forever, honestly, and who had, or so it seemed, completely left our family. but hes back now. and it was somethign jsut so incredible and so awesome that i've been praying for for wuite a while. and it actually happened! i cant express in word my gratitude, how thankful i am. and then we had a lovely dinner, and some cheesecake for dessert and i've decided that i'm going to the cheesecake factory at teh burlington mall for my birthday!! no kidding my whole fams going. yessahh. it was either that or massiminos which is a little resturaunt in boston, and i def chose cheesecake. my auntie made some jewelery for me! earrings and a necklace. i loove them. she made them out of rocks and wire. little rock bead things. very coool. then on the way home, my dad and i listend to "THE TURTLES" whom i've come to adore, he gave me their cd lol saweeet. but yes, do listen to them for some oldies but goodies. i know you know their songs...
and that was my weekend!
im wicked pumped for this football game on friday. i love football games. wooo. i think i'm selling bracelets or something though. i hope i dont have to do it for the whole game. because though i'd be getting money for my class... i'd be missing the game. but anyway, i'm going to go to all the home games just as i did last year. rain or shine. be wont be there though! and thats practically a tradition. :0 stupid work.
will i see you there? please please come. i forget how much it is to get in. whatev.
ok well i have a crap load of homework tonight and i should probs get it done so i can watch white oleander again. :D
yours, rachel
// posted by RACH @ 5:02 PM 
