You're my sweet charade

two-just want to be with you
three-boy it's plain to see that you're the only one for me
four-repeat steps one two three
five-make you fall in love with me
if ever i believe my work is done... then i'll start back at one

^back at one, brian mcknight. i love that song. i first heard it at a wedding. it was seventh grade, and my dad and i went down to tennesee and virginia and he was the best man or something and i was the junior bridesmaid, and it was for my cousin who was getting married to this wicked gorgeous girl. aw they were soo cute. when we were getting ready she was liek "oh boy, do i look alright?" she was such a cutie. but anyway, that was their first dance as husband and wife.

so, yes, thats going to be my wedding song. i lvoe it so much i dont care what my husband thinks, because i'll love it enough for the both of us.


a seperate peace test was today. i think i A-ced that one. and the history one which was the study guied haha. it was exactly the same thing! talk about easy...

so i've decided to take psycology next year. have to talk to the office to change my schedual cuz we already signed up for electives for next year but, oh well.

I AM SO GLAD WE HAVE A THREE DAY WEEKEND!!!! this is great. we had a really really really moving ceremony today during directed and first class for memorial day, and i almost started crying listening to the speech class and watching the powerpoint. i would go into further detail but i dont feel like it.

so i might teach mel how to play guitar once she gets one- WOO HOO!! [smile] i dono chords thuogh... thats a work in progress. hezzy caught me today loooking up guitar tba snad chords during bio. hahah. oh welllll. i talked my way out of it. she is so persuesive and so funny, i love it! theres kind of a down side to it tough, cuz she gets waaaaayy off topic during class. ohw ell. so speaking of bio, we' were working on our ecology projects today and ali, of course, said we still needed to classify ten orgasms right in front of hezzy. haha. it was sooo funnyyy. i hope hezzy didnt notice considering she was just talking about how billy is so immature cuz he loves peacocks cuz of teh second half of the word. haha, anyway..

so i better hang out with kris this weekend or else i will go INSANE. i cant do this. i am never ever going to go more than 2 weeks, much less SEVEN, without seeing him. i dont think i can take it. i miss him tooo much. [sad face] and talking on the fone doesn't cut it. (even though i totally love it haha)

swo so so sso soo. ya know how i dont like commitment? to anything? well i've decided to look at it different. rather than looking as it as a commitment (whatever IT may be) it is now: stability. i need stability and consistency in my life, and its easyer to handle things in that point of view. i am so proud i was able to change my state of mind like that. [proud smile]

so, too bad everyones turning into pot heads. people used to be so great, i cant understand what the hell is going on anymore. i was in the library with kristina and jenny the other day and i made up a motto, its wicked corny but it gets my point across. "don't get high to get a 'hi'" and i put "HIGH (does not equal sign) HI". the does not equal sign is really =, but with a cross through it. and its talking about peer pressure, and how you shouldnt do stuff to be in with the crowd. and thats the only reason why people start that stuff anyway, cuz its secoind nature to want to be noticed or liked. i have yet to meet someone who genually does not want to be seen, does not want to stnad out EVER, who dresses to make them selves look bad or ugly if someone else is not involved. i coudl be completely off, tell me if i am. we all want the attention, and at some point are most likley going to have to answer that defineing question, "want one?" or "want some?" i say defineing because you can tell so much from a person about how they answer that. it defines your character, how emotionally storng you are, how curious you are. it really does mean a lot people. think about it. please. wow i cant wait to take psycology.

so i'm listening to 104.1 wbcn, and this great song just came on. the guys voice isnt that great, but i looove the music. its so powerful. so energetic. heres the lyrics:

Standing in the rain with his head hung low
Couldn't get a ticket, it was a sold-out show
Heard the roar of the crowd, he could picture the scene
Put his ear to the wall, then like a distant scream
He heard one guitar, just blew him away
He saw stars in his eyes, and the very next day
Bought a beat up six-string, in a second-hand store
Didn't know how to play it, but he knew for sure
That one guitar felt good in his hands, didn't take long to understand
Just one guitar, swung way down low
Was a one way ticket, only one way to go
So he started rocking, ain't never gonna stop
Gotta keep on rocking, someday gonna make it to the top
And be a juke box hero got stars in his eyes, he's a juke box hero
He took one guitar juke box hero - stars in his eyes
Juke box hero stars in his eyes, he'll come alive tonight
In a town without a name, in a heavy down pour
Thought he'd passed his own shadow by the backstage door
Like a trip through the past, from that day in the rain
That one guitar made his whole life
Now he needs to keep rocking, he just can't stop
Gotta keep on rocking, that boy has got to stay on top
And be a juke box hero got stars in his eyes
He's a juke box hero got stars in his eyes
Yeah a juke box hero got stars in his eyes
That one guitar, stars in his eyes, he'll come alive, come alive tonight
(FANTASTIC GUITAR SOLO HERE)
Yeah, he's gotta keep rocking, he just can't stop
Gotta keep on rocking, that boy has got to stay on top
And be a juke box hero got stars in his eyes
He's a juke box hero got stars in his eyes
And just one guitar juke box hero put stars in his eyes
Now he's just a juke box hero
Juke box hero, juke box hero, he's got stars in his eyes
Stars in his eyes

omg that hes an INSANE guitar solo. aahhhhh, now you DEF have to hear it.

well i'm bored out of my mind tonight. if anyone reads this today, its friday, and is bored out of their mind as well, gimmie a call and maybe we can hang or something. that'd be cool. anythings better than this, no offense or anything.

so, simms's marines stories are getting old, i'm siiiick of him talking about his past.and i am so fucking sick of kate mackinnon, i dont care if she reads this or not. it is physically painful for me to even sit next to her during history. i cant stand it. she does everything little thing she can think of to get attention. she'll shout out "THE SUN IS OUT" in the middle of one of simms' lectures and its like "SHUT THE HELL UP OK?" and she rags on joe so much, i feel sooo bad for him. and he comes back with wicked great comebacks and shes like "omg joe that was so stupid it doesnt make any sense" just cuz 1. she didnt get it or 2. she knows that was a good one and cant come up with anything better. GET A LIFE. i'd gladly knowck some sense into her sometime, somes got to, and i KNOW i'm not the only one. so i'mjust sitting there listening and she is SOO distracting, tapping her pencil, sighing really loud to make people look over, stairing at people, including me (thats the creepyest) and today i was paying attention and i feel her touching my earrings. FOR GODS SAKE- WHO DOES THAT? shes like "hum hum hummm" and like, yanking the thing. iwas like "KATE WHAT ARE OYU DOING?" and shes like "just looking at your earrings " adn i wa sliek "they kinda hurt" so lets go and just turns foward and doesnt say anything to me. i wa slike "whoa wat was that for" i didnt say it outloud cuz i dont likeher to know that she gets to me. oh yeh and also, today she was SCREAMING "lets play 7 up! lets play 7 up! i wanna be one of the people to stand up in front" and were like "kate, where the hell did you get that idea? we're in trhe middle of learning about something, why should we just drop everything and play a stupid game like taht" except, maybe like, 5 people were thinking that, only the mature people. and everyone else was like "omg yeahhhh!! we should" leading her on and stuff. thats why she thinks she has friends. no one likes her. shes not pretty, shes not smart, shes not civilized, has no manners, and has no friends, someones got to let this poor kid know. i feel bad, honestly, because shes so immature and cant find any other way than getting attention. and she asked for chocolate at least 10 times today. "whoo hoo i got a question right! cani have some chocolate simmS?" and its like.. everyone got that question right, youre not an exception kate, face it. and she was yelling ath simms the other day and was like "you dont like me at all" and we had this twenty minute debate on her he's not fair TO HER. i was like "kate, you should be happy he doesnt kick you out of the fucking room cuz youre so abnoxios, THIS IS HIM BEING NICE TO YOU, appreciate it" sorry, this is really a touchy topic for me. i ahte her. and thats saying something. in a way i kinda want her to read this. she should know that people talk about her behind her back,. i know, i just made myself look like a horible person. but i had to vent, really really REALLY bad.

well, i want to go watch a movie. brit loaned me national trasure, so i'm gonan put that in and watch it.


KUDOS! and p.s. you do not spell the spanish word for hi o-l-a-h... trust me.

with love, more than you think,
<3 rachel