5.08.2005
all your life
is such a shame shame shame
actually, no, it's not, i just felt like saying that
so its been basically forever since i last updated. oh well.
i realize now that everyone has been having a problem. this has been going on long enough and its time for it to stop. you know you have this probolem if you have the follwing symptoms:
-headache
-stomachacha
-dizzyness
-un-motivation
-lazyness
-random aches and pains
-the early signs of a cold
-anticipation for something- yet you don't have a clue what it could be
-procrastination
-depression
-complaining
-crankyness
-everything feels like it involves way to much effort- 3 times more than you have
this all adds up to something, i dont know what exactly, but its a big something. i know kerry, julie, kati kristina and i have all been having some of these symptoms. i hate it. i''m not getting any of my school work done, and i'm not cleanging my room, i find myself DELIBERATLY swtiching to another activity that i know i'm not suposed to be doing. and i feel like i will never be able to climb out of this rut.
so latley i have been getting these painful sotmachachas. no, not cramps, they're different, really. plus these are like.. near my ribs. sometimes theyre right underneath them, but usually theyre sort of off to the side right underneath where your ribcage ends. yup, that would be the intestines. so if anyone has any idea what it could be, do tell. i've been getting them for the past 2 weeks approx, and i am SO ready for themt o go away. and medicine doesnt help. well, only the kind that knock me out haha so i fall asleep. it better not be something serious. gosh, that would be horrrriblee!
i cant wait till summer. i hate this inbetween time .eww its just so like.. inconsistent.
so todays mothers day and i made my mom a necklace, it has sivler and diamonds in it and has letters that spell out "para madre" which means "for mom" in spanish. hah ai know i know.. hold the applause. i was getting a little creative i know, but my mom and i loooove to talk in spanish to eachother, so, its a symbol of our love. [smile]
i'm not even going to tell you what i did last night, but lets just say: i want to forget it ever happened. we're talkin, april, kati and i along with my mom and katis mom had to spend the night in this place in gloucester in this one room schoolhouse building... with SIX 10 year olds. blahh, WAY not cool.
so i hope next weeks better anyway, i mean like.. that would be convienent. i got a 0% on my bio quiz. actually, we had to write an essay instead of take a quiz, and sinc ei didnt write the essay its equivelent to a ) on a quiz. this is what i mean when i feel all unmotivated and crappy and blahh. only for like.. 2 and a half weeks. actualyl, ever since we got back from april vaca.
haha so, story: kristina and i spent friday afternoon together at the school. well, most of the time anyway, and at one point we ended up in the locker room for QUITE a while. well i ended up sitting in a locker, one of those big ones obviously and kristina was lying down on the bench in front of it and we were talking about how retarted we were and how messed up our lives were. so, that was interesting. i couldnt stop laughign for some reason and i think it waS CUZ I WAS WIIICKED overly tierd and it was one of those "look how pathetic we are" kind of laughs where you know your laughign at your self and the other person is like "uh.. ok, you do that" hahah and then at one point kristina was liek "i cant not do what other people do" an diw as like "that means you can" and we got into this convo about how when people say can't theyre really caying can not. so, i vowed that whenever i wanted to say "ain't" or "cant" i'd say it properly. so then said "are not yuou going to the mall today?" even though i knew the answert was an obviuos no and we both doubled over laughing and almost wet our pants. it was so great. and then we walked to dq in the freezing rain and she bought me a brownie blizzard thing and got one for herself. and then we ended up back at the school cuz thats the only place we could go and not get in trouble for loitering. so her blizzard was practically exploding so we had to go to the bathroom and get toilet paper as a napkin and while she was wiping all the chocolate icecream i got tierd of stan ding up and just sat down right there on the bathroom floor under the hand dryers and then once she was done she sat across from me leaning against that random part between the doors and the sink and we laughed at ourselves and then talked some more. we talked about our families a lot more and what we shuold do about them. i mostly listened which is good cuz i think kristina really needed to vent and hey, thats what i'm here for! so that was really really good and then we were talking about how her dad started talking about her going away to college and how he almost strrted crying and then in the bathroom right there kristina almost started crying and then onc ei was thinking about how everything is totalyl going to change and stuff i started crying like.. face turned red and eyes watering up. so then i realized, here we are, two little freshmen sitting on the floor of the downstairs bathroom at about 4:30 in the afternoon about to bawl our eyes out thinking about the future. it was theni decided the bathroom was not the best place to be. cuz i mean, its eaasyer to cry away from the public with your best friend there, and i did not want to start crying even as much as i wanted to, so i was like "ok, we wont cry if we're out in public, lets go out to the breezeway where theres people there" haha. so then we were sitting on these random desks that were out in the breezeway and i talked about how hard fifth and sixth grade was for me and all about the ADD stuff i was going through, which was great cuz i kinda had to vent too even though i've told that tons of times. but anyway that was out pathetic afternoon. especially when i realized we stayed after till 5 for NOTHING. great huh. actualyl.. it wasnt for nothing, it was some great girl bonding.
but anyway, that was my funfilled pathetic action packed friday afternoon!
well i'm off to eriks down the street.
with anticipation, a stomachacha, and a fucking history project
rachel
actually, no, it's not, i just felt like saying that
so its been basically forever since i last updated. oh well.
i realize now that everyone has been having a problem. this has been going on long enough and its time for it to stop. you know you have this probolem if you have the follwing symptoms:
-headache
-stomachacha
-dizzyness
-un-motivation
-lazyness
-random aches and pains
-the early signs of a cold
-anticipation for something- yet you don't have a clue what it could be
-procrastination
-depression
-complaining
-crankyness
-everything feels like it involves way to much effort- 3 times more than you have
this all adds up to something, i dont know what exactly, but its a big something. i know kerry, julie, kati kristina and i have all been having some of these symptoms. i hate it. i''m not getting any of my school work done, and i'm not cleanging my room, i find myself DELIBERATLY swtiching to another activity that i know i'm not suposed to be doing. and i feel like i will never be able to climb out of this rut.
so latley i have been getting these painful sotmachachas. no, not cramps, they're different, really. plus these are like.. near my ribs. sometimes theyre right underneath them, but usually theyre sort of off to the side right underneath where your ribcage ends. yup, that would be the intestines. so if anyone has any idea what it could be, do tell. i've been getting them for the past 2 weeks approx, and i am SO ready for themt o go away. and medicine doesnt help. well, only the kind that knock me out haha so i fall asleep. it better not be something serious. gosh, that would be horrrriblee!
i cant wait till summer. i hate this inbetween time .eww its just so like.. inconsistent.
so todays mothers day and i made my mom a necklace, it has sivler and diamonds in it and has letters that spell out "para madre" which means "for mom" in spanish. hah ai know i know.. hold the applause. i was getting a little creative i know, but my mom and i loooove to talk in spanish to eachother, so, its a symbol of our love. [smile]
i'm not even going to tell you what i did last night, but lets just say: i want to forget it ever happened. we're talkin, april, kati and i along with my mom and katis mom had to spend the night in this place in gloucester in this one room schoolhouse building... with SIX 10 year olds. blahh, WAY not cool.
so i hope next weeks better anyway, i mean like.. that would be convienent. i got a 0% on my bio quiz. actually, we had to write an essay instead of take a quiz, and sinc ei didnt write the essay its equivelent to a ) on a quiz. this is what i mean when i feel all unmotivated and crappy and blahh. only for like.. 2 and a half weeks. actualyl, ever since we got back from april vaca.
haha so, story: kristina and i spent friday afternoon together at the school. well, most of the time anyway, and at one point we ended up in the locker room for QUITE a while. well i ended up sitting in a locker, one of those big ones obviously and kristina was lying down on the bench in front of it and we were talking about how retarted we were and how messed up our lives were. so, that was interesting. i couldnt stop laughign for some reason and i think it waS CUZ I WAS WIIICKED overly tierd and it was one of those "look how pathetic we are" kind of laughs where you know your laughign at your self and the other person is like "uh.. ok, you do that" hahah and then at one point kristina was liek "i cant not do what other people do" an diw as like "that means you can" and we got into this convo about how when people say can't theyre really caying can not. so, i vowed that whenever i wanted to say "ain't" or "cant" i'd say it properly. so then said "are not yuou going to the mall today?" even though i knew the answert was an obviuos no and we both doubled over laughing and almost wet our pants. it was so great. and then we walked to dq in the freezing rain and she bought me a brownie blizzard thing and got one for herself. and then we ended up back at the school cuz thats the only place we could go and not get in trouble for loitering. so her blizzard was practically exploding so we had to go to the bathroom and get toilet paper as a napkin and while she was wiping all the chocolate icecream i got tierd of stan ding up and just sat down right there on the bathroom floor under the hand dryers and then once she was done she sat across from me leaning against that random part between the doors and the sink and we laughed at ourselves and then talked some more. we talked about our families a lot more and what we shuold do about them. i mostly listened which is good cuz i think kristina really needed to vent and hey, thats what i'm here for! so that was really really good and then we were talking about how her dad started talking about her going away to college and how he almost strrted crying and then in the bathroom right there kristina almost started crying and then onc ei was thinking about how everything is totalyl going to change and stuff i started crying like.. face turned red and eyes watering up. so then i realized, here we are, two little freshmen sitting on the floor of the downstairs bathroom at about 4:30 in the afternoon about to bawl our eyes out thinking about the future. it was theni decided the bathroom was not the best place to be. cuz i mean, its eaasyer to cry away from the public with your best friend there, and i did not want to start crying even as much as i wanted to, so i was like "ok, we wont cry if we're out in public, lets go out to the breezeway where theres people there" haha. so then we were sitting on these random desks that were out in the breezeway and i talked about how hard fifth and sixth grade was for me and all about the ADD stuff i was going through, which was great cuz i kinda had to vent too even though i've told that tons of times. but anyway that was out pathetic afternoon. especially when i realized we stayed after till 5 for NOTHING. great huh. actualyl.. it wasnt for nothing, it was some great girl bonding.
but anyway, that was my funfilled pathetic action packed friday afternoon!
well i'm off to eriks down the street.
with anticipation, a stomachacha, and a fucking history project
rachel
// posted by RACH @ 5:11 PM 
