You're my sweet charade

i'm hung up on you


>theres some great lyrics there.

so i went to a job interview yesterday at the Y! i had to walk there from downtown and made it in the nick of time. you see, it was to be a camp counsiler for the summer day fun camp th9ing they have there! WOO HOO. i hope i get the job! it would be so much fun! to hear more details about allt he stuff he asked, just ask me online or somethign cuz i really dont feel like recalling alll his questions and allll my answers to them. it was with this guy named dan and this guy named brendan. both are very cool. we just talked about regular interview stuff. ya know, the general questions and he gave me exampes of situations and how i'd react if certain things happened. i hope i did well!

anyway, BEFORE i went to that job interview i had my history group over my house and MAN OH MAN was that an expierence. see i didnt go to school that day cuz it was good friday for all us greek people. some went, but i didnt. so my mom and i picked kate mckinnon, jamie monehan, harrison sagris, kristina papa, julie amazeen, and joe harrington up from the school. joes not really in our history group but we were going to his house anyway to get his bb guns to use for the video and figured we could just give him a ride home. first we had to stop at harrisons house, and then joes and then julies. joe has this wicked cool mp3 pplayer or something like that that shows up on the radio hahaha! 89.7 or something like that is his own station and it plays all the songs on his mp3 and he can change the songs and skip through to the middle of them and everything. anyway, we enventualyl made it to my house after picking up all the materials at everyone elses house. then we filmed and filmed and filmed using my step dads camera and by the end i was flipping out cuz no one was listening and stuff. and then some how SOMEONE (ahem.. KRISTNA.. i think hahah) ripped the curtain rod out of the wall, i mean like.. plaster and everything hahaha. oh well. its not that bad, cuz its happened before. but anyway that went um.. well. it all could have gone better cuz i was stressing out the whole time.

BEFORE that whole shebang, i was at my church. i went at 9:30 and wrapped these wires that had little sticks attached to them around carnations which was the biggest pain in the neck ever. it as with a bunch of wicked cute old ladies. that was eh, alright. but then we went downstairs and had to wrap white tool around all the red dyed eggs. johnny and maria had this wicked cool idea to put gold crosses on all of them cuz thats what they did at their old church. so him and a couple other people were painting those on and ashley, erica, vicky, and a bunch of other people were all tying ribbons around the tool after we wrapped it around. anyway then i ate a peanut butter and jelyl sandwich that i made, cuz maria brought in all the stuff. shes sooo nice and wicked welcoming haha i love it! shes like "now, i brought this over cuz i know we cant have dairy today and this is probably going to run al the way through lunch time, so here ya go".

anyway it was an interesting day.

i went out to tee time for icecream last ngiht! MMM CHOCOLATE AND PEANUTBUTTER. yeaahahhh! even though i'm not supposed to have dairy i completely forgot about that whole fasting thing. i'll do it next year.. i swear!! but yeah that was a GREAT bowl of icecream. i want just chocolate icecream with like.. chunks of peanut butter in it though. not vanillia whith chucnks of chocolate and chunks of peanut butter of it. cuz thats a whole nother thing. maybe i'll invent my own icecream. yeah, thatd be cool. i wish we had a dip n dots around here, i think that stuff is so cool! the last time i had it was about a year ago on the eigth grade trip.. yeah.

OH AND I AM SO GOING TO FAWNWANDER THIS YEAR!!!! I CANT WAITTTT!! AHHH ITS GOING TO BE SO MUCH FUN! august 13th through 20th! woo hoo! or something like that.

school pretty much sucks right about now. i ahve so much stuff to do its crazy. yeah def failing finals when tehy come around. oh well.

so kris might be coming to ipswich!? DO YOU KNOW HOW FANTASTICALLY COOOL THAT WOULD BE!? thats what my mom said anyway. i guess his mom and mine have been chatting again haha. aww kris you totalyl should come.. please please please?! driving there would be the only prob cuz i mean, rockports about 40 minutes away or something but thats how long it tajes me to get to school, so, no biggie. but WHO would drive? hmm.. but anyway just come to my house after! or if you wanan do a sport of something, after that. and then do all your hw and my mo could drive oyu home or your mom could pick you up. yup. sounds like a nice plan to me! haha yeah im def just planning your life for you.. ooopsy.. sorry... please do come though!

eriks moving in next weekend. woo hoo! pARTAYY. yeah i think i should prob bake some cookies or something haha and be a good neighbor. well, a neighbor that lives halfway down the street. but oh well. whatadaya say?? chocolate chip maybe? i can be a good neighbor when i want to be and make people feel welcome!!!



i have to go study for a fricken map quiz i missed in history yesterday.. hah.. thank GODDDD. its on all the countries in europe and asia. yeah.. enough said. i know.. what?.. china, russia, and greece. ok so thats like a.. 5% out of 100%? something liek that.



ok so my kneees hurting right now and i dont knwo why. sitting indian style nowadays makes my legs hurt. = not good. especially cuz theres no other comfortbale way to sit on the floor in front of a little desk or something. ya know? well now that i think of it its prob not comfortable if it hurts. hehh.

oo a great song just came on. i love cristina aguilera... i think shes the greatest. even though she is kind of slutty. i love latin music, which is wierd cuz i rarely hear it but its great when i do, well anyway, heres a little taste:

He comes from a foreign place
An island far away
Intrigues me with every move
Til' I'm breathless, I'm helpless
Can't keep my cool
Steals my heart when he takes my hand
And we dance, to the rhythm of the band
I feel his finger tips grip my hips
And I slip as we dip into a state of bliss

Mama used to warn me
To beware of those Latin lovers
She said I gave my heart too soon
And that's how I became your mother
I said ay mama, you seem to forget
I'm not in love yet
Sweet talk don't win me over
But I realized
BIG BROWN EYES CAN HYPNOTIZE
When he says...

I am full blood boricua
Reads the tattoo on his arm
He tells me, mami I need ya
And my heartbeat pumps so strong
Getting lost in el ritmo
He whispers te quiero, te quiero
I begin to give in with no hesitation
Can't help my infatuation

Skin the color of cinnamon
His eyes light up and I MELT WITHIN
Feels so good it must be a sin
I can't stop what I started
I'm giving in
He brings life to my fantasies
Sparks a passion inside of me
Finds the words when I cannot speak
In the silence, his heartbeat is music to me

Mama used to warn me
Not to rush love with another
She said I'm not trying to lecture
I just care about my daughter
Ay mama, you seem to forget
I never will let
A man control my emotions
But when he smiles
I feel like a little child
When he says...

I am full blood boricua
Reads the tattoo on his arm
He tells me, mami I need ya
And my heartbeat pumps so strong
Getting lost in el ritmo
He whispers te quiero, te quiero
I begin to give in with no hesitation
Can't help my infatuation

Caught between my mama's words
And what I feel inside
I'm wanting to explore his world
But a part of me wants to hide
Should I risk it, can't resist it
This has caught me by surprise
Should I let him take me to Puerto Rico
I can't hold back no more
Let's go tonight...

INFATUATION. what a great thing to write about. its such a strong thing. an emotion really.

infatuation- a foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant short-lived passion, admiration, love or attraction. in other words.. lust. we all know what lust is right? lust- an overwhelming desire or craving. interestingly enough, in the bible lust is looked upon as the origin of sin. both of these emotions cause people to loose track of common sense and judgement. so, who hasnt been a little infatuated with something before? no one. its basically an obsession, and is most oftonly an unhealthy one. so many people think theyre in love or something like it, and for all they know its because of this, this state of being infatuated with something or someone. lust may not necesarily be the motive or anything like that, but thats sometimes the case. sometimes people do stupid things. if they are infatuated with the idea of gettting attention, or being everyones role model, they can gain some unhealthy habits. maybe become greedy. greedy with lust. if people want something bad enough, theyre willing to do anything to get it. wow. can you imagine dying for something? how intense must one person be to sacrifice everything? could you imagine how much soul and power and thought they would put into something? infatuation is not love. its this screen. it goes past love. its something that gets in the way and you dont know its there. its the love that you love someone or something, but not the truth.


ok anyway, time to go to midnight service at the church! love you all.

by the way erik came over for a while haha i went down to his house first and saw it. its sooo nice! so open and stuf. i loooove it. and then he came here for dinenr and i whipped his ass at a a game of rummy. hahaha. it was greaaat.

anyway, adios!

with the need for chapstick, someone else to write three esssays for me, and a mother calling her downstairs so we;re not late to service...


>>>> <3 rachey